Male depression is met with indifference by society, including by your own family.

[alien]

I feel so alone in the world. My mom passed away 9 years ago from cancer. She was the only family member I had a close relationship with. The only person that I had been close to since my mom's passing was my ex whom I met off sluthate, Yogapants. I've dated and hooked up with some women since then, saw some hookers since then. But it's never filled the void. I was really attracted to my ex, I felt like I could truly be myself around her. I'm always guarded when talking with other women. Putting on a persona. I was a NEET hikikomori loser when she met me. But she still loved me. The combination of the attraction, the intellectual intimacy, the affection, the great sex, I'll never feel that chemical cocktail of oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin, etc. again. She made me feel like an alpha male for the first and only time in my life. Talking about how sexy I was and how good my BWC felt in her tight brown pussy. I've dumped so many loads inside of her. I miss her so much. The love chemical high must be what its like to sip lean. She met a lot of the diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). I was briefly chatting with a girl online a few years prior to her who was legit diagnosed with BPD, was in DBT and took meds and I recognized the overlap in symptoms. Yogapants drove me crazy and my brain says it could never work out with her but I was addicted to that crazy bitch and she was so crazy in bed. Love isn't rational.

That was the last time in my life that I felt blue pilled for a girl. I fucked up because one of my chan buddies on a chan asked me if she was hot and I said that she was pretty attractive but not as hot as some hookers I've fucked before. She snooped my entire lookism post history and found out that I was posting on this chan. And was searching for my posts and found that. And she never forgave me for that. But the hookers didn't mean fucking shit to me. I was in love with her. She was my princess. She was my wifey. Those hookers were just thots. The sex with my ex was many times better than the hookers. Because the love chemical cocktail was so fucking amazing and addictive. I probably said the hookers were hotter because in my mind I have low self-esteem so I figured that if a girl is obtainable, she must be lower value than the woman I paid for, which I saw as unobtainable. I feel like she is the one who got away even though she too crazy. She was of a higher standard looks-wise and intellectually than my lays up until that point.

And my lays since had been of significantly lower quality because dating apps are a fucking sewer, especially post-pandemic. My noodlewhore ex I haven't been with for over a year contacted me last month and I didn't even reply. I was only with her for narcissistic reasons because she talked about how much she loved my BWC, her orgasms and how I was her handsome pretty White Prince. Because it's just not the fucking same. And I suspect the noodlewhore was trying to monkey branch me for a beta provider since I wouldn't put a ring on it. My narcissism couldn't handle it. I don't enjoy sex with the noodlewhore anyways and I'll never take her back. Yogapants AFOGs the hell out of her. On dating apps I keep swiping left on these sub-par bitches and then "oops you missed a match." This sub-par bitch messaged me first telling me I'm handsome and I left her on read. There were a couple of cute brown girls so I swiped right, matched and chatted with them. But then conversation fizzled out. I'd rather suck a nigger dick than settle for these sub-par thots on dating apps that can't measure up to my ex. With age I have been raising my standards like a roastie instead of lowering them. Does that make me an Alpha Widower? An Alpha Widow is hung up on a Chad from her past.

I was talking to my sister about this on the phone. And she dragged the phone conversation to like 90 minutes. And it was mostly here dominating the conversation. It drove me crazy. When I was telling my sister that I was jealous that my ex claimed to be with someone new because of hypergamy and male thirsty, she was like "no I don't find that men are thirsty" WTF is she smoking! I told her that sub-Chads and sub-wealthy men were invisible to her. I am invisible except to sub-par women. I told her that I'll probably never get someone on the level of my ex again. Meanwhile my ex probably has miles and miles of cock lined up for her to choose. Who knows how many bare cocks and semen have been inside of my ex by now. My sister was like "you are feeling worse than when you started this phone conversation for me. I thought you were getting better?" Women are so oblivious/ignorant/indifferent to incel rage. Holy shit. Even my own sister. I accused her of siding with my ex because women are biased against men, even their own brother.

I then went on a huge text tirade towards my sister and she didn't respond. I imagine that my sister and I will be on very minimal speaking terms from now on. But fuck that bitch, she doesn't care. She never cared. I've tried to go to her for dating advice before in the past. Like 3+ years ago. But every time, she just dominates the conversation. My sister is in her late 40s, never married, childless. Probably an Alpha Widow herself. So she will never be objective and will instinctually take the woman's side.

It sucks knowing that my own sister, my brother, my father, none of them give a shit about my happiness. They don't care about my mental well-being. And guys don't support each other emotionally like that. And women want us to visit Gandy. My own family probably wants me to visit Gandy. My sister and brother would get a larger share of the inheritance. And my dad would be relieved.

 

[AlexBrown84]

Fuck nigga ain’t nobody reading all that xD

 

[CupOfCoffee]

I want to read it all but it's too long man

 

[twilight]

The only person that I had been close to since my mom's passing was my ex whom I met off sluthate, Yogapants.

stopped reading at this, nigga found a girlfriend off an incel website and he’s complaining about depression, it’s over

 

[Deleted member 4430]

Meds, now

 

[ifyouwannabemylover]

dnr but

 

[alien]

stopped reading at this, nigga found a girlfriend off an incel website and he’s complaining about depression, it’s over

She is not my girl, it was just my turn.
I know that it is fucking hell to be 100% incel. This is better than being 100% incel. Trust me. I would have went ER already if I never lost my virginity. But it is still very painful to be with a woman you genuinely love and now some other dude is balls deep inside of her bareback dropping white loads inside of her warm moist tight brownie smelling her vanilla scented perfume that was my favourite

Where is that other lookism gif where the guy is slamming the desk?

 

[alien]

Fuck nigga ain’t nobody reading all that xD

TL;DR version: I dated this girl I met off sluthate awhile back. She was the best I ever had. She broke up with me because she was a crazy stalker bitch who was reading my post history on other forums and saw that I mentioned on another forum that some hookers I used to fuck were hotter than her. I'm all in my feelings. Every girl I've been with since doesn't come close to her and I'm too depressed to date when I feel like I'm never going to get another girl like her again. Meanwhile some other dude is allegedly banging her now. Dropping loads inside of her going bareback smelling the vanilla perfume of hers that I loved and I just can't take it anymore mentally. And my late 40s never married childless sister is indifferent to the male incel rage anguish I feel. She had the audacity to disagree with me when I told her that men are thirsty and miles and miles of cock must be lined up for my ex while I get a few bites from ugly women, over-the-hill single moms and landwhales. Because sub-Chads and sub-wealthy men are invisible to women. So I'm an Alpha Widower (is that the right word?)

 

[lil truecel]

If you are an unattractive male who is also NOT a breadwinner for your family, then your existence is the same as a bug on the ground. You can get squashed and no one cares. It's just how it is man. The only thing for truecel rodents such as us is to try to get rich then live in a hedonistic manner until we die like a stray dog on a dusty street.

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

I want to read it all but it's too long man

i read it and it was fucking brutal, good luck OP this was hard to read

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

TL;DR version: I dated this girl I met off sluthate awhile back. She was the best I ever had. She broke up with me because she was a crazy stalker bitch who was reading my post history on other forums and saw that I mentioned on another forum that some hookers I used to fuck were hotter than her. I'm all in my feelings. Every girl I've been with since doesn't come close to her and I'm too depressed to date when I feel like I'm never going to get another girl like her again. Meanwhile some other dude is allegedly banging her now. Dropping loads inside of her going bareback smelling the vanilla perfume of hers that I loved and I just can't take it anymore mentally. And my late 40s never married childless sister is indifferent to the male incel rage anguish I feel. She had the audacity to disagree with me when I told her that men are thirsty and miles and miles of cock must be lined up for my ex while I get a few bites from ugly women, over-the-hill single moms and landwhales. Because sub-Chads and sub-wealthy men are invisible to women. So I'm an Alpha Widower (is that the right word?)

nigga says tdlr and still posts an essay

 

[loksr]

Didn’t read, but that’s only true if you’re not gl

 

[BlackLooks]

Title has nothing to do with content

 

[autistic_tendencies]

TL;DR version: I dated this girl I met off sluthate awhile back. She was the best I ever had. She broke up with me because she was a crazy stalker bitch who was reading my post history on other forums and saw that I mentioned on another forum that some hookers I used to fuck were hotter than her. I'm all in my feelings. Every girl I've been with since doesn't come close to her and I'm too depressed to date when I feel like I'm never going to get another girl like her again. Meanwhile some other dude is allegedly banging her now. Dropping loads inside of her going bareback smelling the vanilla perfume of hers that I loved and I just can't take it anymore mentally. And my late 40s never married childless sister is indifferent to the male incel rage anguish I feel. She had the audacity to disagree with me when I told her that men are thirsty and miles and miles of cock must be lined up for my ex while I get a few bites from ugly women, over-the-hill single moms and landwhales. Because sub-Chads and sub-wealthy men are invisible to women. So I'm an Alpha Widower (is that the right word?)

Let go of the past man look toward the future. lesson learned

 

[R@m@]

rebel and thugmaxx

 

[stevielake]

Water. Even people here who are supposed to be empathetic towards your situation could care less. The "community" is a joke for the most part.

 

[Deleted member 15569]

Water. Even people here who are supposed to be empathetic towards your situation could care less. The "community" is a joke for the most part.

Why should i care? Op is a fucking fakecel faggot meanwhile im experiencing real suffering

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Men have always been disposable on a societal and genetic level...

Its even expressed in our genes. Have you ever noticed how men end up with more disorders or weird outlier traits, Nature uses men as an experiment sometimes this works out well (autism and adhd can be found in many genius level men like Tesla) but also these traits can lead to people being failures.

Whereas most women end up with average IQ and the average traits of both parents.


Just gotta accept it the one whitepill in all of this is that women above 35 are just as disposable as men. Women do not even realize why they are inherently valuable and so they just assume this is by default. If you've ever met a woman who was bitter or a karen in middle age its because she did not take advantage of her youth to get a good life and now she is just as useless as most men these women will have far worse fates then most men because men never knew what it was like to be loved but these women will feel something was taken away from them.

The love and importance society places on women is also conditional the conditions are that they can have children which is inherently valuable once that goes away they are just as worthless

You just got to use the bitterness to become valuable give up on the idea of unconditional love and take what you want society will never love you for no reason. Even good looking men are just signs a man is more capable of providing values (being good looking is a sign of good health)

 

[stevielake]

Why should i care? Op is a fucking fakecel faggot meanwhile im experiencing real suffering

Stfu faggot. How do you expect people to care about you when you don’t give a fuck about OPs problems. That’s what’s wrong with half of you autistic retards on this site.

Always talking shit and bullying the less fortunate and then bitch and complain about normies doing the same to you.

 

[Deleted member 15569]

Stfu faggot. How do you expect people to care about you when you don’t give a fuck about OPs problems. That’s what’s wrong with half of you autistic retards on this site.

Always talking shit and bullying the less fortunate and then bitch and complain about normies doing the same to you.

this fucking faggot is a fucking normie retaard. i am an actual truecel and my life is 10x worse than ops

 

[alien]

Water. Even people here who are supposed to be empathetic towards your situation could care less. The "community" is a joke for the most part.

Part of it has to do with crabs in a bucket mentality. Like I totally understand why a kissless hugless civilian virgin would roll their eyes at seeing a guy who has had past success with relationships and sex.

Would I trade my life for any civilian virgin on this forum? No.

But does it hurt when the woman you love not only walks but still holds a grudge against you six years later? Absolutely. I feel that the concept of soul mates exists. And she was probably my soul mate. And I might not ever find another soul mate ever again. Especially when I feel hopeless that I am ever going to replace her. Especially at my age. Dating does get harder for men as they age. I'm invisible to women early-mid 20s unless I run sugar daddy game. But then that's not love then. And women around my age give or take have emotional baggage and are more picky than ever. Often fat and wrinkly. Many of them are looking for a beta provider now that their biological clock is ticking and they are done riding the Chad cock carousel. That's not love. My ex thought I was sexy, sweet and loved my cock. I don't want to be a human ATM. I want to feel like the alpha male that my ex made me feel like I was.

And I imagine that the slayers are not going to feel much empathy for the men who are placed below them on the totem pole either.

Also in the black pill community, we are taught that love isn't real. Whereas I have a different perspective on the issue of love. I softened my stance with experience and age. At 37 I'm probably older than what? 95% of this forum? The forum slayers, once they get to their 30s (unless they age fraud and still look youthful for their age like Amnesia), are going to hit a wall and then realize that pussy slaying was a temporary thing that wasn't going to go on forever. And then they are going to look back at past girls and think "why didn't I LTR her?" "why was I an asshole to her?" "Why did I cheat on her?" I look back at how I behaved in my 20s and early 30s and I had a very immature view of relationship dyanmics. The blue pill is bullshit. But the red/black pills are off the mark as well. The real black pill IMO is actually a mixture of blue/red pill (don't put women on a pedestal early on. But LTRs are better than slaying. And love is worth leaving yourself vulnerable for) and LMS, Height, Dick.

 

[Deleted member 15569]

Part of it has to do with crabs in a bucket mentality. Like I totally understand why a kissless hugless civilian virgin would roll their eyes at seeing a guy who has had past success with relationships and sex.

Would I trade my life for any civilian virgin on this forum? No.

But does it hurt when the woman you love not only walks but still holds a grudge against you six years later? Absolutely. Especially when I feel hopeless that I am ever going to replace her. Especially at my age. Dating does get harder for men as they age. I'm invisible to women early-mid 20s unless I run sugar daddy game. But then that's not love then. And women around my age give or take have emotional baggage and are more picky than ever. Often fat and wrinkly. Many of them are looking for a beta provider now that their biological clock is ticking and they are done riding the Chad cock carousel. That's not love. My ex thought I was sexy, sweet and loved my cock. I don't want to be a human ATM. I want to feel like the alpha male that my ex made me feel like I was.

And I imagine that the slayers are not going to feel much empathy for the men who are placed below them on the totem pole either.

Also in the black pill community, we are taught that love isn't real. Whereas I have a different perspective on the issue of love. I softened my stance with experience and age. At 37 I'm probably older than what? 95% of this forum? The forum slayers, once they get to their 30s (unless they age fraud and still look youthful for their age like Amnesia), are going to hit a wall and then realize that pussy slaying was a temporary thing that wasn't going to go on forever. And then they are going to look back at past girls and think "why didn't I LTR her?" "why was I an asshole to her?" "Why did I cheat on her?" I look back at how I behaved in my 20s and early 30s and I had a very immature view of relationship dyanmics. The blue pill is bullshit. But the red/black pills are off the mark as well. The real black pill IMO is actually a mixture of blue/red pill (don't put women on a pedestal early on. But LTRs are better than slaying. And love is worth leaving yourself vulnerable for) and LMS, Height, Dick.

jfl you are just a normie bitch boy faggot try living \in my shoes for one day

 

[alien]

jfl you are just a normie bitch boy faggot try living \in my shoes for one day

Oppression Olympics. There are people in this world who have it even worse than you. You could be a street shitting Pajeet incel for one. lol.

I don't know your situation. If you don't have FACE or dick, then you're going to have to hit the gym and gymcel. And lose weight if you're a fat ass. Admittedly I have face and a girthy dick. Though I am 5'6" and autistic. Huge failos. Being 6' tall and NT is important.

And my advice to you would be to don't put women on a pedestal early on like blue pilled thirsty simps do. But don't be a douchebag either once you manage to get a lay. Especially if you snag a girlfriend. If you internalize the black pill shit too much, you're going to blow it with a girl eventually like I did.

And if you are a hopeless virgin, you may have to lower your standards starting out. I lost my PinV virginity to an ugly landwhale at 26. Though a skinny but ugly girl invited me to bed at her dorm room when I was 18. But I wasn't attracted to her and too much of a mentalcel so I couldn't get it up. I had a wet noodle inside her. So we just did mutual oral. So I guess that's practically losing my virginity at 18 if it wasn't for being a mentalcel. But yeah starting out you may need to lower your standards if you keep constantly striking out with women.

 

[Deleted member 15569]

Oppression Olympics. There are people in this world who have it even worse than you. You could be a street shitting Pajeet incel for one. lol.

I don't know your situation. If you don't have FACE or dick, then you're going to have to hit the gym and gymcel. And lose weight if you're a fat ass. Admittedly I have face and a girthy dick. Though I am 5'6" and autistic. Huge failos. Being 6' tall and NT is important.

And my advice to you would be to don't put women on a pedestal early on like blue pilled thirsty simps do. But don't be a douchebag either once you manage to get a lay. Especially if you snag a girlfriend.

And if you are a hopeless virgin, you may have to lower your standards starting out. I lost my PinV virginity to an ugly landwhale at 26. Though a skinny but ugly girl invited me to bed at her dorm room when I was 18. But I wasn't attracted to her and too much of a mentalcel so I couldn't get it up. I had a wet noodle inside her. So we just did mutual oral. So I guess that's practically losing my virginity at 18 if it wasn't for being a mentalcel. But yeah starting out you may need to lower your standards if you keep constantly striking out with women.

no there are not. i am living in the lowest excistence. you dont know nothing about me, i think god hates me and is punishing me in my own personal hate, in which he controls fucking over everything.

 

[edmund_brahte]

I want to read it all but it's too long man

This

 

[stevielake]

Part of it has to do with crabs in a bucket mentality. Like I totally understand why a kissless hugless civilian virgin would roll their eyes at seeing a guy who has had past success with relationships and sex.

This is right on the mark.

I don't know why some guys hold a grudge against people who had sex partners before either. I could understand gatekeeping towards slayers or normies, but a man in his 20's with fewer than 3 sexual encounters is basically a nearcel who got lucky a few times with below average women. They have the right to be in the immunity as much as a khhv virgin

 

[Deleted member 12002]

I feel so alone in the world. My mom passed away 9 years ago from cancer. She was the only family member I had a close relationship with. The only person that I had been close to since my mom's passing was my ex whom I met off sluthate, Yogapants. I've dated and hooked up with some women since then, saw some hookers since then. But it's never filled the void. I was really attracted to my ex, I felt like I could truly be myself around her. I'm always guarded when talking with other women. Putting on a persona. I was a NEET hikikomori loser when she met me. But she still loved me. The combination of the attraction, the intellectual intimacy, the affection, the great sex, I'll never feel that chemical cocktail of oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin, etc. again. She made me feel like an alpha male for the first and only time in my life. Talking about how sexy I was and how good my BWC felt in her tight brown pussy. I've dumped so many loads inside of her. I miss her so much. The love chemical high must be what its like to sip lean. She met a lot of the diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). I was briefly chatting with a girl online a few years prior to her who was legit diagnosed with BPD, was in DBT and took meds and I recognized the overlap in symptoms. Yogapants drove me crazy and my brain says it could never work out with her but I was addicted to that crazy bitch and she was so crazy in bed. Love isn't rational.

That was the last time in my life that I felt blue pilled for a girl. I fucked up because one of my chan buddies on a chan asked me if she was hot and I said that she was pretty attractive but not as hot as some hookers I've fucked before. She snooped my entire lookism post history and found out that I was posting on this chan. And was searching for my posts and found that. And she never forgave me for that. But the hookers didn't mean fucking shit to me. I was in love with her. She was my princess. She was my wifey. Those hookers were just thots. The sex with my ex was many times better than the hookers. Because the love chemical cocktail was so fucking amazing and addictive. I probably said the hookers were hotter because in my mind I have low self-esteem so I figured that if a girl is obtainable, she must be lower value than the woman I paid for, which I saw as unobtainable. I feel like she is the one who got away even though she too crazy. She was of a higher standard looks-wise and intellectually than my lays up until that point.

And my lays since had been of significantly lower quality because dating apps are a fucking sewer, especially post-pandemic. My noodlewhore ex I haven't been with for over a year contacted me last month and I didn't even reply. I was only with her for narcissistic reasons because she talked about how much she loved my BWC, her orgasms and how I was her handsome pretty White Prince. Because it's just not the fucking same. And I suspect the noodlewhore was trying to monkey branch me for a beta provider since I wouldn't put a ring on it. My narcissism couldn't handle it. I don't enjoy sex with the noodlewhore anyways and I'll never take her back. Yogapants AFOGs the hell out of her. On dating apps I keep swiping left on these sub-par bitches and then "oops you missed a match." This sub-par bitch messaged me first telling me I'm handsome and I left her on read. There were a couple of cute brown girls so I swiped right, matched and chatted with them. But then conversation fizzled out. I'd rather suck a nigger dick than settle for these sub-par thots on dating apps that can't measure up to my ex. With age I have been raising my standards like a roastie instead of lowering them. Does that make me an Alpha Widower? An Alpha Widow is hung up on a Chad from her past.

I was talking to my sister about this on the phone. And she dragged the phone conversation to like 90 minutes. And it was mostly here dominating the conversation. It drove me crazy. When I was telling my sister that I was jealous that my ex claimed to be with someone new because of hypergamy and male thirsty, she was like "no I don't find that men are thirsty" WTF is she smoking! I told her that sub-Chads and sub-wealthy men were invisible to her. I am invisible except to sub-par women. I told her that I'll probably never get someone on the level of my ex again. Meanwhile my ex probably has miles and miles of cock lined up for her to choose. Who knows how many bare cocks and semen have been inside of my ex by now. My sister was like "you are feeling worse than when you started this phone conversation for me. I thought you were getting better?" Women are so oblivious/ignorant/indifferent to incel rage. Holy shit. Even my own sister. I accused her of siding with my ex because women are biased against men, even their own brother.

I then went on a huge text tirade towards my sister and she didn't respond. I imagine that my sister and I will be on very minimal speaking terms from now on. But fuck that bitch, she doesn't care. She never cared. I've tried to go to her for dating advice before in the past. Like 3+ years ago. But every time, she just dominates the conversation. My sister is in her late 40s, never married, childless. Probably an Alpha Widow herself. So she will never be objective and will instinctually take the woman's side.

It sucks knowing that my own sister, my brother, my father, none of them give a shit about my happiness. They don't care about my mental well-being. And guys don't support each other emotionally like that. And women want us to visit Gandy. My own family probably wants me to visit Gandy. My sister and brother would get a larger share of the inheritance. And my dad would be relieved.

Well don't be a crybaby about it.

 

[GetShrekt]