Hagman
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As a child, my father was not around very much due to work. My mother was the only person around most of the time to take care of me and my sister. I am the youngest in my family so she was with me more. I had problems as a child in which I would punch, scratch, choke, and do a bunch of things to myself because I thought I deserved it for some reason. I cried to my mom a lot as a kid as a result of those problems. In addition to this, I've always been an introverted person, so I never went out much, and I never had friends. I just stayed inside all day doing whatever to pass the day. I was with my mother a lot during those times too since she didn't really have a job. My older sister would bully me a lot, which made me far more vulnerable and sensitive. She never got punished for this. I've heard that men who were babied by their mothers as a kid turn out to be more weak, sensitive, and emotional. Today, I completely isolate myself in my room, doing nothing. I continue to not have a social life, I continue to be a fuck up. I have been constantly seeking the warmth and care of a woman ever since I hit puberty. I feel as if I can not go on much longer without that feeling of love and understanding. My mother is still present in my life but I can't go crying to her at my age. I have a girlfriend, albeit online, and she somewhat feels that void of a loving female figure. However, I still feel something empty inside of me. My life can never change how much I try to change it. My childhood has made me too sensitive, emotional, and withdrawn to participate in this society for an entire lifespan. I pray that people will miss me like I imagine my mother would, if I was to die, soon.
TL;DR:
My mom was too nice to me and now I can't exist as a normal person.
TL;DR:
My mom was too nice to me and now I can't exist as a normal person.
