SHARK
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As an ugly guy, logically it's best for me to just give up on girls. Find something else to focus on, like a hobby, career, business, etc. MGTOW shows how women can bring tons of problems as well as just become annoying in general.
My brain won't let me do it.
I NEED affection. I try to cope thinking "I'm just gonna focus on moneymaxxing and find myself a cool hobby on the side," but within 5 seconds the desire for intimacy overtakes me. I just can't let it go. I feel so empty thinking of a life without a partner. Without someone to impress, to take care of, to share my ups and downs with. It doesn't seem like a life worth living.
I'm so fucking broken at this point. How can someone go from social isolation throughout HS and college and all of the sudden get a good social life? Especially after college? The chances are slim. I see photos of girls and if she looks like she's loud, a party girl, and does 'degenerate' stuff I freeze up cuz I'm so intimidated. She social mogs me. I'm like a innocent little 12 year old boy walking into a party of adults who are drinking, smoking weed, and making out. I feel scared of these 'mean' people.
The only girls I can talk to are quiet girls. And I need to be one on one with them. That's the only situation where I feel comfortable and feel like I have the social status advantage if you can call it that. I'm currently doing that with one girl, but things are moving so slow, and although she likes me and we have great conversations, I can tell she has no sexual interest. She'll go home to iMessage Chad, and I'll go home to message nobody.
My intense desire for intimacy is killing me, like the early days of drug withdrawal. I NEED it. I can only hold my pillow in my arms, and it's not enough. It's not enough.
My brain won't let me do it.
I NEED affection. I try to cope thinking "I'm just gonna focus on moneymaxxing and find myself a cool hobby on the side," but within 5 seconds the desire for intimacy overtakes me. I just can't let it go. I feel so empty thinking of a life without a partner. Without someone to impress, to take care of, to share my ups and downs with. It doesn't seem like a life worth living.
I'm so fucking broken at this point. How can someone go from social isolation throughout HS and college and all of the sudden get a good social life? Especially after college? The chances are slim. I see photos of girls and if she looks like she's loud, a party girl, and does 'degenerate' stuff I freeze up cuz I'm so intimidated. She social mogs me. I'm like a innocent little 12 year old boy walking into a party of adults who are drinking, smoking weed, and making out. I feel scared of these 'mean' people.
The only girls I can talk to are quiet girls. And I need to be one on one with them. That's the only situation where I feel comfortable and feel like I have the social status advantage if you can call it that. I'm currently doing that with one girl, but things are moving so slow, and although she likes me and we have great conversations, I can tell she has no sexual interest. She'll go home to iMessage Chad, and I'll go home to message nobody.
My intense desire for intimacy is killing me, like the early days of drug withdrawal. I NEED it. I can only hold my pillow in my arms, and it's not enough. It's not enough.
