ElySioNs
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or just over a year from about mid 2023- mid 2024 I was separated from my partner of two decades. The split was amicable and necessary as he had some things he needed to sort out and was getting a little abusive of me while doing it. I wasn’t having that around our kids. We are now back together again and all is fine.
Issue is that while separated I was seeing someone else on a casual/FWB basis. Neither of us were in a place to have a significant relationship at that point and I could see from certain things he did that he would be a terrible partner.
Thing is that the sex was next level good. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced a sexual connection like that in my entire life. It was one of those weird chemistry things that almost never happens instantaneously like that. And I’ve had a lot of good sex in my life. But not like this.
I’m back with my long term partner now and really happy about it. I love him and the life we’ve built together and I never want to leave. I ended things with the other guy straight away and have had literally no contact of any kind since. I thought just completely cutting it all off would make me forget about him.
Trouble is that when we have sex, in that moment I really wish my partner was the other guy, in a way that almost brings tears to my eyes. The sex isn’t even nearly as good and sometimes I actually have to close my eyes and imagine he’s the other guy in order to cum (yes I know that’s fucked up, that’s why I’m asking for help).
Reddit, what do I do? I need to exorcise this guy and his wonder dick from my brain. I absolutely do not want a relationship with him. I want my current partner. But I definitely want to stop feeling like this every time we have sex.
Issue is that while separated I was seeing someone else on a casual/FWB basis. Neither of us were in a place to have a significant relationship at that point and I could see from certain things he did that he would be a terrible partner.
Thing is that the sex was next level good. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced a sexual connection like that in my entire life. It was one of those weird chemistry things that almost never happens instantaneously like that. And I’ve had a lot of good sex in my life. But not like this.
I’m back with my long term partner now and really happy about it. I love him and the life we’ve built together and I never want to leave. I ended things with the other guy straight away and have had literally no contact of any kind since. I thought just completely cutting it all off would make me forget about him.
Trouble is that when we have sex, in that moment I really wish my partner was the other guy, in a way that almost brings tears to my eyes. The sex isn’t even nearly as good and sometimes I actually have to close my eyes and imagine he’s the other guy in order to cum (yes I know that’s fucked up, that’s why I’m asking for help).
Reddit, what do I do? I need to exorcise this guy and his wonder dick from my brain. I absolutely do not want a relationship with him. I want my current partner. But I definitely want to stop feeling like this every time we have sex.
