most depressing moment of my life

[dipenhydramine]

today i was on the bus and some girl my age got on

and she was beautiful ngl

and she had the best sparkling lifeful eyes ever

and she looked at me and smiled

and for a second i felt happy

then i caught a glimpse of myself on the mirror

saw my sunken dark eye bags

dark beads that used to be green

and i felt like shit

and i knew i would never have her

never have anyone as happy as her

never be as happy as her

i could see she still had life in her eyes

then the bus stopped outside a graveyard

and i read the gravestones

so much sucess in life

being buried next to a significant other

having kids

and then i realised id never have that either

that id messed up my brain to far

i wish i could restart my brain and forget everything

ive been self destructing for years and it all just hit me today

i feel like absolute shit now i havent spoken to anyone

what do i do bhais

 

[raleqtambrobret]

Take some diphenhydramine

 

[raleqtambrobret]

A lot of it

 

[dipenhydramine]

A lot of it

thats my plan for the weekend

ive got 1000mg

cant wait

furthest ive been is 700

maybe will finally loose touch with reality

my brain hurts like its actually decaying i dont feel good

 

[sportsmogger]

I feel you

 

[Deleted member 30959]

Cool story bro

 

[Deleted member 87785]

Your name reminded me.. Im gonna go store and buy benadryl I saw some when I went to get passport photo taken

 

[dipenhydramine]

Your name reminded me.. Im gonna go store and buy benadryl I saw some when I went to get passport photo taken

ill be honest

if youve never done it only do it once

happy schizoing ig

 

[Deleted member 87785]

ill be honest

if youve never done it only do it once

happy schizoing ig

itss just for headache, okay?

 

[dipenhydramine]

itss just for headache, okay?

ohh yeah duhh

im ukcel we dont have benadryl its nytol here


"i havent been sleeping well im gonna buy some sleeping pills"

lmfaoo

 

[ThraxxGlo]

i did read bhai same ngl i wish i wasnt such a fuck up in life and it makes it worse because i also have the tisms

 

[dipenhydramine]

i did read bhai same ngl i wish i wasnt such a fuck up in life and it makes it worse because i also have the tisms

i wish i wasnt like this too

it hit me what a fucking loser i am

i have aspergers so fml

 

[ihearvoices]

today i was on the bus and some girl my age got on

and she was beautiful ngl

and she had the best sparkling lifeful eyes ever

and she looked at me and smiled

and for a second i felt happy

then i caught a glimpse of myself on the mirror

saw my sunken dark eye bags

dark beads that used to be green

and i felt like shit

and i knew i would never have her

never have anyone as happy as her

never be as happy as her

i could see she still had life in her eyes

then the bus stopped outside a graveyard

and i read the gravestones

so much sucess in life

being buried next to a significant other

having kids

and then i realised id never have that either

that id messed up my brain to far

i wish i could restart my brain and forget everything

ive been self destructing for years and it all just hit me today

i feel like absolute shit now i havent spoken to anyone

what do i do bhais

Had similar experience yesterday, i am still pissed

 

[dipenhydramine]

Had similar experience yesterday, i am still pissed

first time something like that has really happened

ive been on a CRAZYYY downward spiral for a while

im not even pissed i feel like shit

even if i pull like a supermodel they wont be someone thats happy like that

my life is 100% pure negativity

 

[aryan mogger]

i wonder if ltbs feel like that when they see chad

 

[dipenhydramine]

i wonder if ltbs feel like that when they see chad

probially tbh

theyre still human yk