Vermilioncore
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Hello,
I will try to keep this short. We are high school sweethearts and I have never slept with another man. My husband has a micropenis (approximately 1.5 inches when erect). We do have an active sex life which generally consists of me using clitoral vibrators, getting eaten out, giving him head and we can achieve penetration thanks to the use of some well placed pillows or a narrow coffee table. Frankly, I was quite satisfied with the sex situation. The Hitachi wand and/or his mouth is frankly all I need and he loves my blow jobs.
However, things have changed in the last couple of years. When we were younger, he would get mad at porn or male nudity, due to his insecurities. In recent years, he has really matured as a person, our relationship has grown in all areas, including the bedroom. He introduced porn a few years ago, and we have used that during foreplay. Over time, we have had some heart to heart discussions, and he has addressed his penis size. Over my assurances that he does satisfy me, he asked me to be honest if I thought about what it would be like to have sex with a normal sized or large penis. I admitted there were times I had dreams where I would get really turned on by it. After this admission, he used it as dirty talk when we would have sex. Then it became a topic when we would drink and get frisky. Eventually, he would ask about specific people. After a direct conversation about the possibility of this happening, he said he wants me to experience this and to be there with me when I do. I told him how much I loved him and I think we might be able to take this journey together, but I would obviously make the decisions.
This brings us to today. He has an old, trusted friend (Pat) he has known forever, flying out to stay with us for NYE. He will be arriving later today and spend the next 3 or 4 nights here. I know that Pat is aware of my husband's micropenis (they grew up together). Pat is also a guy my husband has repeatedly brought up when we discuss this. It's become apparent that, if we were to go through with this, it would be the best possible scenario (trusted friend not seen very often, single guy, good looking, etc). I can't go to friends or family with this issue, so I came here.
ADVICE NEEDED: How to proceed with something that I feel is a "before and after event?" I feel like my husband is coming at this from a loving, kind approach. But, I feel like this is one of those things that once it is done, there is no going back. I just want to be able to ensure I am thinking of everything before going through with it.
Thank you for any advice.
EDIT: Thanks for the responses. But I would like to clarify a couple of things. FIRST, people are saying I am hesitant or that it seems like I am not interested. That is not the case. I am very interested. I simply wanted to make sure I was getting input that might assist me if any potential issues arise. SECOND, I do not believe any of this arises from my husband's (past) insecurities. I simply added that to show how he has grown as a person. 15/16 year old him might have been insecure. Now, he has grown out of that and has found what might be an exciting avenue to pursue. THIRD, nothing is set in stone and no guarantees were given to Pat or my husband.
I will try to keep this short. We are high school sweethearts and I have never slept with another man. My husband has a micropenis (approximately 1.5 inches when erect). We do have an active sex life which generally consists of me using clitoral vibrators, getting eaten out, giving him head and we can achieve penetration thanks to the use of some well placed pillows or a narrow coffee table. Frankly, I was quite satisfied with the sex situation. The Hitachi wand and/or his mouth is frankly all I need and he loves my blow jobs.
However, things have changed in the last couple of years. When we were younger, he would get mad at porn or male nudity, due to his insecurities. In recent years, he has really matured as a person, our relationship has grown in all areas, including the bedroom. He introduced porn a few years ago, and we have used that during foreplay. Over time, we have had some heart to heart discussions, and he has addressed his penis size. Over my assurances that he does satisfy me, he asked me to be honest if I thought about what it would be like to have sex with a normal sized or large penis. I admitted there were times I had dreams where I would get really turned on by it. After this admission, he used it as dirty talk when we would have sex. Then it became a topic when we would drink and get frisky. Eventually, he would ask about specific people. After a direct conversation about the possibility of this happening, he said he wants me to experience this and to be there with me when I do. I told him how much I loved him and I think we might be able to take this journey together, but I would obviously make the decisions.
This brings us to today. He has an old, trusted friend (Pat) he has known forever, flying out to stay with us for NYE. He will be arriving later today and spend the next 3 or 4 nights here. I know that Pat is aware of my husband's micropenis (they grew up together). Pat is also a guy my husband has repeatedly brought up when we discuss this. It's become apparent that, if we were to go through with this, it would be the best possible scenario (trusted friend not seen very often, single guy, good looking, etc). I can't go to friends or family with this issue, so I came here.
ADVICE NEEDED: How to proceed with something that I feel is a "before and after event?" I feel like my husband is coming at this from a loving, kind approach. But, I feel like this is one of those things that once it is done, there is no going back. I just want to be able to ensure I am thinking of everything before going through with it.
Thank you for any advice.
EDIT: Thanks for the responses. But I would like to clarify a couple of things. FIRST, people are saying I am hesitant or that it seems like I am not interested. That is not the case. I am very interested. I simply wanted to make sure I was getting input that might assist me if any potential issues arise. SECOND, I do not believe any of this arises from my husband's (past) insecurities. I simply added that to show how he has grown as a person. 15/16 year old him might have been insecure. Now, he has grown out of that and has found what might be an exciting avenue to pursue. THIRD, nothing is set in stone and no guarantees were given to Pat or my husband.
