
faustianspirit
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How am I supposed to function properly If I can not find joy in anything?
I am supposed to graduate in engineering in order to inherit my dad’s companies, but I can not be arsed to go to class, to study, not because I find it hard, but because I do not find it fulfilling.
This doesn’t bother me really, but I can not shake off the feeling that I am betraying my parents, my family in general, and that thought tortures me day and night. If only I had something else I could cope with, my life would be so easy really, but nothing makes me happy, I have been living in apathy for years now, and the only thought that really comes into my mind everyday is ending it all, and that thought is so pleasing, so calming.
I do not know why I am posting this here of all places, but I can not talk about this with anyone really, all my friends seem to have some purpose, as mundane as they might seem to me, they help them to keep on going, and I do not want to bother them to be honest, so I just wanted to vent.
What keeps you going, what is your purpose in life? I am interested in hearing.
Thanks for reading
I am supposed to graduate in engineering in order to inherit my dad’s companies, but I can not be arsed to go to class, to study, not because I find it hard, but because I do not find it fulfilling.
This doesn’t bother me really, but I can not shake off the feeling that I am betraying my parents, my family in general, and that thought tortures me day and night. If only I had something else I could cope with, my life would be so easy really, but nothing makes me happy, I have been living in apathy for years now, and the only thought that really comes into my mind everyday is ending it all, and that thought is so pleasing, so calming.
I do not know why I am posting this here of all places, but I can not talk about this with anyone really, all my friends seem to have some purpose, as mundane as they might seem to me, they help them to keep on going, and I do not want to bother them to be honest, so I just wanted to vent.
What keeps you going, what is your purpose in life? I am interested in hearing.
Thanks for reading