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Most .org users won't process a single atom from this thread, but here is the story about my ex for context: https://looksmax.org/threads/my-bad...me-poorly-i-hate-being-an-abused-dog.1150595/
Before her, I wasn't the most popular kid out there, but I at least had friends and would get invited to stuff; they would even celebrate my birthday; now look at me: my 17th birthday just passed, and I genuinely didn't get a happy birthday the entire day, not even from my parents, no cake, nothing, just another day all I got for my birthday was a few people cussing me out and making fun of me, wow thanks. On the contrary, on my 15th birthday, my friends threw a little mini-party at school, bought me gifts, made me birthday letters, and a cake.
Every day at school, I sit by myself miserable; now my nudes got leaked, and already everything else about my already shitty personal life thanks to her, and almost everyone in my entire grade openly makes fun of me and treats me like shit; for what reason? I guess her BBC must taste that good, huh? A man really can't win in this world. Thankfully, no one in my grade level can beat me up. I'm pretty tall and fit, but oh, they can sure torture me mentally. For example, in my history class, we were assigned teams for our debate final project; I was assigned with some random people, and three times in a row, I was kicked out of groups, better yet, when my name was even fucking called out by the professor, everyone started saying ew and booing me. In class, I am constantly on edge of trying to beat someone's ass, but muh ZERO TOLERANCE POLICY will get me expelled in an instant, even worse nobody will take my fucking side, including the teachers, witness testimony damn sure ain't fucking working, they will all just shit in my mouth and expect me to thank them for "feeding" me like FUCK can I NOT get a FUCKING break as someone who is a diagnosed autist with abusive parents and an abused dog childhood, I AM not even fucking ugly, at least initially no one thinks I am ugly until I speak, I AM SO FUCKING AWKWARD AND NEURODIVERGENT YET LOW-INHIB at the same time it is hell, I NEVER THINK, I am doing something socially abnormal until someone tells me, and it so happens everything I FUCKING DO is socially abnormal. Theory proven, at work, I don't say a single fucking word because I am TERRIFIED of another situation occurring, and GUESS WHAT? Everyone treats me so fucking nicely, and even my coworkers flirt with me. I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE, FUCK, anyways; after a year of natty lifting, I am hopping on RAD140 + Test; as of yesterday, I already ordered both of which, this is all I look forward to, hurting everyone at school.
Oh, and girls, where do I start? I DO NOT TRUST ANY WOMAN AT ALL; not even my fucking MOTHER could give me love, and after this, what makes you think I will EVER trust a girl in my entire life? FUCK why am I so autistic and terrified of women, I had the opportunity to get head and FUCK a 20yr old BADDIE, and I FUCKING FUMBLED BECAUSE I AM TO AWKWARD; I had the opportunity of linking with PROBABLY THE LAST HALFWAY HUMAN looking fucking girl at my school who has any attraction to me a few days ago, and guess what, I FUMBLED BECAUSE FUCKING FEET VIDEOS AND GEORGE FLOYD POPPED UP ON MY TIKTOK FYP ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME I HAVE NEVER WATCHED FEET VIDEOS IN MY LIFE I FUCKING HATE FEET FUCK YOU GOD YOU EVIL FUCK, every girl who likes me I always end up cheating on or fumbling because I am AWKWARD and have not ONE OUNCE of fucking trust for woman and FUCK, the only girl who liked me, some 5'10 mommy gf bitch I ended up cheating on and treating like shit for 6 MONTHS because I was to FUCKING SCARED I would get dealt wrong again, and guess what, she is gone. I HAVE TOO MANY STORIES LIKE THIS TO TELL.
zero relationships, 27 situationships.
What I have stated was only surface-level abused dog talk; my attached thread will maybe even make the likes of .org users feel an ounce of pity for me. I have been dealt the wrong hand and want a chance to make up for it. People only say, "You don't need bitches" because they are accustomed to female attention or old and wise enough to realize that the statement is true; regardless, I could sure use a bitch at my current point in life; I really could, I NEED mommy NOW, I don't have much else going on anyways besides agony. I get called cute, handsome, etc by girls; I have been catcalled and approached a few times, and a forty-year-old mother tried fucking me, which I fumbled; of course, I am not the best-looking guy on planet Earth, and I still experience issues that normies do, but I am tall, fit, light-skinned, with good hair, jaw, and cheekbones, that's more than enough to do halfway okay with girls and at the end of your life, have memories with girls to reflect on, I have just been cursed with autism, and exposure therapy takes a lot of time, two years into it and I can only make it up to kissing with girls and socializing regularly, far better than how I was at 15, but I still am clueless on how to do anything sexual, I am an awkward and mentally ill mess, what do I do? I just hope I can slay SEAmonkeys and emo thots for a bit; it would sure help my sense of self.
Before her, I wasn't the most popular kid out there, but I at least had friends and would get invited to stuff; they would even celebrate my birthday; now look at me: my 17th birthday just passed, and I genuinely didn't get a happy birthday the entire day, not even from my parents, no cake, nothing, just another day all I got for my birthday was a few people cussing me out and making fun of me, wow thanks. On the contrary, on my 15th birthday, my friends threw a little mini-party at school, bought me gifts, made me birthday letters, and a cake.
Every day at school, I sit by myself miserable; now my nudes got leaked, and already everything else about my already shitty personal life thanks to her, and almost everyone in my entire grade openly makes fun of me and treats me like shit; for what reason? I guess her BBC must taste that good, huh? A man really can't win in this world. Thankfully, no one in my grade level can beat me up. I'm pretty tall and fit, but oh, they can sure torture me mentally. For example, in my history class, we were assigned teams for our debate final project; I was assigned with some random people, and three times in a row, I was kicked out of groups, better yet, when my name was even fucking called out by the professor, everyone started saying ew and booing me. In class, I am constantly on edge of trying to beat someone's ass, but muh ZERO TOLERANCE POLICY will get me expelled in an instant, even worse nobody will take my fucking side, including the teachers, witness testimony damn sure ain't fucking working, they will all just shit in my mouth and expect me to thank them for "feeding" me like FUCK can I NOT get a FUCKING break as someone who is a diagnosed autist with abusive parents and an abused dog childhood, I AM not even fucking ugly, at least initially no one thinks I am ugly until I speak, I AM SO FUCKING AWKWARD AND NEURODIVERGENT YET LOW-INHIB at the same time it is hell, I NEVER THINK, I am doing something socially abnormal until someone tells me, and it so happens everything I FUCKING DO is socially abnormal. Theory proven, at work, I don't say a single fucking word because I am TERRIFIED of another situation occurring, and GUESS WHAT? Everyone treats me so fucking nicely, and even my coworkers flirt with me. I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE, FUCK, anyways; after a year of natty lifting, I am hopping on RAD140 + Test; as of yesterday, I already ordered both of which, this is all I look forward to, hurting everyone at school.
Oh, and girls, where do I start? I DO NOT TRUST ANY WOMAN AT ALL; not even my fucking MOTHER could give me love, and after this, what makes you think I will EVER trust a girl in my entire life? FUCK why am I so autistic and terrified of women, I had the opportunity to get head and FUCK a 20yr old BADDIE, and I FUCKING FUMBLED BECAUSE I AM TO AWKWARD; I had the opportunity of linking with PROBABLY THE LAST HALFWAY HUMAN looking fucking girl at my school who has any attraction to me a few days ago, and guess what, I FUMBLED BECAUSE FUCKING FEET VIDEOS AND GEORGE FLOYD POPPED UP ON MY TIKTOK FYP ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME I HAVE NEVER WATCHED FEET VIDEOS IN MY LIFE I FUCKING HATE FEET FUCK YOU GOD YOU EVIL FUCK, every girl who likes me I always end up cheating on or fumbling because I am AWKWARD and have not ONE OUNCE of fucking trust for woman and FUCK, the only girl who liked me, some 5'10 mommy gf bitch I ended up cheating on and treating like shit for 6 MONTHS because I was to FUCKING SCARED I would get dealt wrong again, and guess what, she is gone. I HAVE TOO MANY STORIES LIKE THIS TO TELL.
zero relationships, 27 situationships.
What I have stated was only surface-level abused dog talk; my attached thread will maybe even make the likes of .org users feel an ounce of pity for me. I have been dealt the wrong hand and want a chance to make up for it. People only say, "You don't need bitches" because they are accustomed to female attention or old and wise enough to realize that the statement is true; regardless, I could sure use a bitch at my current point in life; I really could, I NEED mommy NOW, I don't have much else going on anyways besides agony. I get called cute, handsome, etc by girls; I have been catcalled and approached a few times, and a forty-year-old mother tried fucking me, which I fumbled; of course, I am not the best-looking guy on planet Earth, and I still experience issues that normies do, but I am tall, fit, light-skinned, with good hair, jaw, and cheekbones, that's more than enough to do halfway okay with girls and at the end of your life, have memories with girls to reflect on, I have just been cursed with autism, and exposure therapy takes a lot of time, two years into it and I can only make it up to kissing with girls and socializing regularly, far better than how I was at 15, but I still am clueless on how to do anything sexual, I am an awkward and mentally ill mess, what do I do? I just hope I can slay SEAmonkeys and emo thots for a bit; it would sure help my sense of self.
