ElySioNs
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We were both virgin (I'm still am while she isn't anymore) and it was her idea to wait. So we waited for 2 years.
Then two weeks ago she went on a party, got drunk with her friends and cheated with a random guy, losing her virginity in the process. It was painful for her. She confessed it to me the following day, regretting it. Not sure how to process this.
My question of ''how was she able to give it away just like that to a complete stranger and not me (not even when we were once both drunk, she still would said ''I'm not ready yet'') still has no answer. While still loving her, I can't help it but feel something forever got tainted. I can't stop playing the mind movies of what happened and now I'm the one that doesn't want sex.
Then two weeks ago she went on a party, got drunk with her friends and cheated with a random guy, losing her virginity in the process. It was painful for her. She confessed it to me the following day, regretting it. Not sure how to process this.
My question of ''how was she able to give it away just like that to a complete stranger and not me (not even when we were once both drunk, she still would said ''I'm not ready yet'') still has no answer. While still loving her, I can't help it but feel something forever got tainted. I can't stop playing the mind movies of what happened and now I'm the one that doesn't want sex.