ElySioNs
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I’m still in shock. I’m heartbroken.
My gf and I have been dating for 4 years, we live together. During that time she has been obsessed with a very minor YouTube musician. He has a few videos with a couple million views, and a small following. During our entire relationship she has always claimed that he was her “exception”. I always assumed it was a joke, I’d fire right back with my celebrity crush.
Well he went on tour and played in the city near us at a small venue. She went with a coworker to see him. After the concert she didn’t come home that night or answer my texts, I assumed she slept over the coworkers since she lives closer to the venue.
She came home the next morning and didn’t talk about the concert much. I asked questions and got vague answers which was odd, I assumed she was tired. Later that day she broke the news to me. It was bizarre. She said it with a smile on her face as though I was going to be happy and excited for her. I am heartbroken. I was yelling, we were both crying. She said she didn’t know how I’d react, but she didn’t think it would be this extreme. She said I always knew he was her exception. I didn’t think she was serious.
I am currently staying in a motel and I don’t know what to do. I love her so much, but I cannot think about her without thinking about what she did. She has tainted my memory of her. I cannot help but think that clearly she does not love me unconditionally like she claims she does, because this is not love. Clearly I am not the one she is obsessing over, even though she is the one who I have always obsessed over. If I am not enough for her then I don’t know if I ever will be. And it clearly seems as though I am not enough for her. I am lost. I am hurt. I am alone.
My gf and I have been dating for 4 years, we live together. During that time she has been obsessed with a very minor YouTube musician. He has a few videos with a couple million views, and a small following. During our entire relationship she has always claimed that he was her “exception”. I always assumed it was a joke, I’d fire right back with my celebrity crush.
Well he went on tour and played in the city near us at a small venue. She went with a coworker to see him. After the concert she didn’t come home that night or answer my texts, I assumed she slept over the coworkers since she lives closer to the venue.
She came home the next morning and didn’t talk about the concert much. I asked questions and got vague answers which was odd, I assumed she was tired. Later that day she broke the news to me. It was bizarre. She said it with a smile on her face as though I was going to be happy and excited for her. I am heartbroken. I was yelling, we were both crying. She said she didn’t know how I’d react, but she didn’t think it would be this extreme. She said I always knew he was her exception. I didn’t think she was serious.
I am currently staying in a motel and I don’t know what to do. I love her so much, but I cannot think about her without thinking about what she did. She has tainted my memory of her. I cannot help but think that clearly she does not love me unconditionally like she claims she does, because this is not love. Clearly I am not the one she is obsessing over, even though she is the one who I have always obsessed over. If I am not enough for her then I don’t know if I ever will be. And it clearly seems as though I am not enough for her. I am lost. I am hurt. I am alone.
