thatisNOTfair
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This is very embarrassing for me to talk about its abit of a long read but from nov2020 to may2021 In my college (if in usa i mean high school 16-18) i saw this girl which was very attractive to me,so much so that when i saw her i froze and went faint.
This was mainly because I believed that this girl was MEANT to be my girlfriend due to all the intense feelings that had only appeared after seeing her. It was like how I imagined injecting a drug to feel, just a instant boost of euphoria and sometimes I would go onto high school just to get a kick by walking past her.
I’ve never that for typical staycies.only basic attraction.
I tried to talk to her through a warm approach but I was so riddled with anxiety that our conversation was very awkward and the fact that she was very shy and withdrawn only made me like her more. I never even really saw her face she always covered it even in pictures.
I eventually stalked her Instagram and messaged thinking it would be easier for me which it was, it was going well for a day or 2 until she became short with me,soI stopped messaging her in response thinking she would message me if she really wanted to talk.
She didn’t.
instead she removed all her Instagram and other social media pics.
I couldn’t go back to that high school and torture myself so I moved and now i will suffer knowing that i might never feel that way again. If looking at her felt that good, kissing her would of felt beyond heavenly and sex would feel 5th dimensional.
I know she was in my league she should of been attracted to me and why did she feel like a drugs?
This was mainly because I believed that this girl was MEANT to be my girlfriend due to all the intense feelings that had only appeared after seeing her. It was like how I imagined injecting a drug to feel, just a instant boost of euphoria and sometimes I would go onto high school just to get a kick by walking past her.
I’ve never that for typical staycies.only basic attraction.
I tried to talk to her through a warm approach but I was so riddled with anxiety that our conversation was very awkward and the fact that she was very shy and withdrawn only made me like her more. I never even really saw her face she always covered it even in pictures.
I eventually stalked her Instagram and messaged thinking it would be easier for me which it was, it was going well for a day or 2 until she became short with me,soI stopped messaging her in response thinking she would message me if she really wanted to talk.
She didn’t.
instead she removed all her Instagram and other social media pics.
I couldn’t go back to that high school and torture myself so I moved and now i will suffer knowing that i might never feel that way again. If looking at her felt that good, kissing her would of felt beyond heavenly and sex would feel 5th dimensional.
I know she was in my league she should of been attracted to me and why did she feel like a drugs?
