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I have a girlfriend that I really love. Super beautiful girl. Every time I speak to her and I smile or look into her eyes, I get this wave of sadness come over me as I realise the disgusting folds of my face and exposed eyelids are visible. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t even take pictures with her because I feel so extremely ugly. I want nothing more than to spend quality time with my girlfriend but I feel like i’m simply too ugly and I don’t know why she’s still with me. I hide my own side profile from my girlfriend and I cry about this issue quite frequently. I don’t even know what to do. I just feel like my life fucking sucks.
Sometimes I really want to hang out with her but I tell her I have to go to the gym, which can occasionally annoy her. She thinks that I’d rather be at the gym. The truth is I fucking hate the gym. The only reason why I leave her and go to the gym is so that I can compensated for my unfortunate looks and at least give her a boyfriend with a decent physique. I know it makes me sound like a cuck, but I often get upset that she’ll eventually go on to find a boyfriend that’s better looking than me and ultimately find a boyfriend that is better in every way than me. I always thought I had a good personality and I always thought i’d be a good boyfriend, but I know there will be a guy that can look her in the eyes and laugh with her without feeling like he’s ugly. I’m at a low point in my life. I feel like i’m going to lose my girlfriend over our arguments and other issues, most of which I think can be because of my insecurity
Sometimes I really want to hang out with her but I tell her I have to go to the gym, which can occasionally annoy her. She thinks that I’d rather be at the gym. The truth is I fucking hate the gym. The only reason why I leave her and go to the gym is so that I can compensated for my unfortunate looks and at least give her a boyfriend with a decent physique. I know it makes me sound like a cuck, but I often get upset that she’ll eventually go on to find a boyfriend that’s better looking than me and ultimately find a boyfriend that is better in every way than me. I always thought I had a good personality and I always thought i’d be a good boyfriend, but I know there will be a guy that can look her in the eyes and laugh with her without feeling like he’s ugly. I’m at a low point in my life. I feel like i’m going to lose my girlfriend over our arguments and other issues, most of which I think can be because of my insecurity
