D
DeterminedMartin
Iron
- Joined
- Jan 5, 2024
- Posts
- 5
- Reputation
- 2
Hello friends. I just wanted to speak my mind into the void hoping it shares some wisdom with me in return. I must say that I am not new to this community. I accept the black-pill as a law of life in many ways, and I've done research to come to this conclusion. I was first introduced to this community around mid-2023 and only lurked around until early 2024.
I'm 20 years old virgin, 5'7, Iranian-American, weighing 73 kg at around 22% body fat. Fortunately, I'm not a KHHV, as I have held hands and hugged some women, but it ultimnately went nowhere. I started off in 2023. Trust me, it was bad. A few months in, I had dropped from 28% body fat to 16% by gymcelling although I still looked like shit. By some miracle, probably due to me thinking I was already HTN, I gained the confidence I thought I needed to succeed among women. Before that, I want to describe my appearance so you get an idea.
Several people I trust on Discord have said that I am a low to mid MTN. My eye area is my strongest point, although it pales in comparison to a Chad. Neutral canthal tilt, hollow genetic under-eyes, long naturally curled eyelashes, brown eyes, bushy straight eyebrows and above average brow-ridge. My most notable flaws are my ethnic slightly bulbous large and assymetric nose, slightly recessed chin, and high body fat (I can't even estimate what my gonial angle is exactly because my hyoid is low). My zygomatics are high set but not wide, jaw is on the narrow side due to having a deviated septum in adolescence (since fixed with septoplasty, should have gotten rhino). Clavicles are average and biceps are long, making gymmaxxing not as effective. I will be hardmaxxing going forward, with rhino, genioplasty and chin implant, and possibly fillers if I have extra cash.
My depression and ADHD makes socializing hard, although I recognize that I am in a better position than those of you who are ND. The ugly truth of lookism, as you all know, takes its toll. It's a pit of nihilism where escape is not possible, because it's all around us. However, I cannot reach my potential if I let my condition win. I will never even get a LTB to toy with me and use me for attention if I don't even try, and I would rather have that than be alone.
How do you all cope with that paralysis? How to stop the dread from taking over? It doesn't go away completely, but I need it to let off just enough so that I can keep climbing uphill until I either give up (not roping unless I reach 25 and I'm not at least high HTN).
Thanks for taking the time to read my thread. Please share any advice.
I'm 20 years old virgin, 5'7, Iranian-American, weighing 73 kg at around 22% body fat. Fortunately, I'm not a KHHV, as I have held hands and hugged some women, but it ultimnately went nowhere. I started off in 2023. Trust me, it was bad. A few months in, I had dropped from 28% body fat to 16% by gymcelling although I still looked like shit. By some miracle, probably due to me thinking I was already HTN, I gained the confidence I thought I needed to succeed among women. Before that, I want to describe my appearance so you get an idea.
Several people I trust on Discord have said that I am a low to mid MTN. My eye area is my strongest point, although it pales in comparison to a Chad. Neutral canthal tilt, hollow genetic under-eyes, long naturally curled eyelashes, brown eyes, bushy straight eyebrows and above average brow-ridge. My most notable flaws are my ethnic slightly bulbous large and assymetric nose, slightly recessed chin, and high body fat (I can't even estimate what my gonial angle is exactly because my hyoid is low). My zygomatics are high set but not wide, jaw is on the narrow side due to having a deviated septum in adolescence (since fixed with septoplasty, should have gotten rhino). Clavicles are average and biceps are long, making gymmaxxing not as effective. I will be hardmaxxing going forward, with rhino, genioplasty and chin implant, and possibly fillers if I have extra cash.
My depression and ADHD makes socializing hard, although I recognize that I am in a better position than those of you who are ND. The ugly truth of lookism, as you all know, takes its toll. It's a pit of nihilism where escape is not possible, because it's all around us. However, I cannot reach my potential if I let my condition win. I will never even get a LTB to toy with me and use me for attention if I don't even try, and I would rather have that than be alone.
How do you all cope with that paralysis? How to stop the dread from taking over? It doesn't go away completely, but I need it to let off just enough so that I can keep climbing uphill until I either give up (not roping unless I reach 25 and I'm not at least high HTN).
Thanks for taking the time to read my thread. Please share any advice.
