我需要阴部
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So you guys are aware I am mixed half jap half middle eastern. Honestly I hate my life growing up it was awful. My mother (Japanese) is a narcissistic bitch who has issues with everything. She has this weird love hate relationship with her ethnicity and often switches between loving japan and japanese people to hating the culture and this affected me severely. I had so many issues. My parents were already settled before they had me in a western country and but they were still immigrants from a different culture.
I remember always being the odd one out since I was the only ethnic aside from a few indians, I was always alone once I matured I struggled to socialise I would be weirdly clingy but also distant at the same time. I remember I scratched the fuck out of this kid who wanted to sit next to me but deep down I wanted to be his friend. It was even worse because my dad was also from another culture imagine growing up like this exposed to different ways of life.
Even to this day I still have no fucking idea where I belong. I am not white so I dont fit in with the aussies. I am not full japanese so I dont fit in with japanese, I am not full middle eastern (not even muslim) so I dont fit with them. I have no friends or identity. I have one bestie whose parents are indian but he was born here in Australia and 2 other Australian born chinese.
I can't stand this my constant mood swings (I was diagnosed with bipolar) I hate my fucking life.
I remember always being the odd one out since I was the only ethnic aside from a few indians, I was always alone once I matured I struggled to socialise I would be weirdly clingy but also distant at the same time. I remember I scratched the fuck out of this kid who wanted to sit next to me but deep down I wanted to be his friend. It was even worse because my dad was also from another culture imagine growing up like this exposed to different ways of life.
Even to this day I still have no fucking idea where I belong. I am not white so I dont fit in with the aussies. I am not full japanese so I dont fit in with japanese, I am not full middle eastern (not even muslim) so I dont fit with them. I have no friends or identity. I have one bestie whose parents are indian but he was born here in Australia and 2 other Australian born chinese.
I can't stand this my constant mood swings (I was diagnosed with bipolar) I hate my fucking life.
