My Life is Ruined (Seeking Advice)

[blackmf]

For now, I am only making a list because there is a lot of content to unpack, but if you guys want a full rundown/story of what happened let me know...

December 2023 - Present Day
- Started talking to an obese chink (She is one of the most infamous whores not just in our school but in our entire fucking state I kid you not) (She had a train run on her (16 yrs old) with 5 guys (16-18 yrs old) on video smh)

- Dad finds out about .org and thinks I'm gay and have problems

- I hit my first-ever cart and greened out in the school gym (kept hitting it weekly)

- Chink and I become girl and boy best friends

- Chink told me she fell in love with me and I believed her

honeymoon Phase of the relationship got me attached \

- Chink takes my virginity

- Chink says sex was bad and cheats on me for my rival school's football player

- I started smoking weed every day and I am high 24/7

- My tolerance gets too high and I try shrooms

- Shrooms were cool but I wanted more so I tried Percs, molly, and DMT (still smoking weed every day)

- I find out chink cheated and confront her, she snitched on me to my parents about weed (I hid all the other drugs from her)

- (I live in a single-mother household) My mom yells at me telling me how much of a burden I am to her and how I should just leave

- I tried suicide by police but got taken down quickly, they sent me to a psychiatric ward (overnight stay) for a week

- I get out and the chink promises to never do anything like that again ( I was attached and thought I was in love, but wasn't thinking straight)

- Chink cheats again and I threaten her life, she calls the police, and my parents (The "threat" was so fucking stupid that the cops didn't do shit but my parents were mad)

- My mom catches me smoking weed at the same time that this happens and kicks me out of the house (Moved in with my dad)

- Start talking to the chink again cause I have issues

- Chink ask for a break from the relationship and I agree (she fucked another football player and came back to me thinking I wouldn't know)

- As a result of not the situation with the cops and weed I am no longer able to go to the college of my choice and was forced to go to an in-state community college

- Relationship with my mom improves and I move back in with her

- I talk to the Chink again and cheat on her on purpose (I thought it would make me feel better)

- Chink blocks me and tries to sweet-talk my mom so I block her through my mom's phone and every device in the house

- Ever since meeting her every and I mean every single aspect of my life has deteriorated or gone to shit

- Naturally, my mood is down and my relationship with my mom is crumbling fast

- Some faggot at my school is trying to guilt trip me into dating and fucking him

- One buff ass nigga at the community college keeps annoying me with his stupid girl problems and for God knows what reason thinking I have a good solution on how to deal with women

- I am failing 2 classes

- Quit weed for 2 months and relapsed

- I quit weed 3 days ago and wanted to try smoking my prescribed pills (my friends were having a virtual weed sesh and I was trying to quit so I figured that alternative)

- My mom finds out and trips the fuck out, she wouldn't let me leave the house when I wanted to get out (didn't want to hurt her or myself because I was mad at that moment) I don't know why but my reaction to her physically not letting me leave was to take 4 pills of my prescribed medicine (it's a fucking 5mg lexapro)

- Felt like my mouth was on autopilot because I have never cursed at my mom but I just started talking a bunch of shit. Mom called 911 and told them I was overdosing and that I was hostile. Cops and paramedics arrive and I try to de-escalate.

There is a lot of context missing but that's pretty much a summary. Let me know if you'll want the full story

 

[incel-at-heart]

Downright peculiar

 

[Swarthy Knight]

Not reading allat but caging at "obese chink"

 

[puffer234234]

What colour is your skin?

 

[delonisliterallyme]

lmao

 

[Carbine]

Good read tbhtbh, I'd read your full story, I've got no advice though, pretty fucked myself

 

[Carbine]

What colour is your skin?

Caged

 

[TechnoBoss]

This is a lot to unpack brother. You have your own self worth issues to work through first before I give much advice. If you go back to a girl who is cheating on you then you are In desperate need of a woman and will sacrifice your self worth in search of that.

Do not ever contact that woman. I’d recommend cutting down on the drugs. Experimenting with drugs is fine when you’re young but it is affecting your life. You need to work on your own self image and how you feel about yourself. You also maybe need to work on your looks if you can only get a slut gook to sleep with you.

Time will heal things but only if you work on yourself and stop trying to fix all these other issues before you fix your own inner demons.

 

[puffer234234]

Yea listen to TechnoBoss jokes aside

 

[Alt Number 3]

yeah you’re cooked bro

try to improve your temperament or just try ending it again

 

[N1666]

Normie ramblings, literally none of this is worth stressing over

 

[spermium]

Started talking to an obese chink

Wtf nigger disgusting

 

[wipmogger]

talk to girls a lot on ig, test levels will skyrocket (it worked for me)

use ur real face man, i promise u dont look bad to the point u talk to an obese gook