RODEBLUR
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it's a friday night, i had been working on a project for a couple of days now after my computer crashed and all of it was lost. i'm lying in bed, the same bed that i've been lying in for 99% of my day for years. i've just taken another L, and my already low amount of energy was sucked dry. which is the only thing about me that will ever get sucked dry. nothing i do is to accomplish anything, just to kill boredom.
meanwhile, this week school has started for the zoomers. all of the elements of a normal teenage life are in play again for them.
but i rot, having never been through this experience.
i'm 5'9'', 110lbs, narrow, and negative status for even a low-tier normie to even consider speaking to or friendzoning. any quality my face could've had is overriden by the acne infestation that lives upon it.
i could ask myself, ''where did it all go wrong?'' but the reality is it was never right to begin with. i had never been at any sort of party, either as a kid attending a birthday of a classmate or a teen being at a house party. i had never had a day out with friends, and don't even have family events to attend to spare me from being completely void of any social life at all. it is really, completely empty. all the while i am faced with the constant searing pain of my oneitis aging older and getting closer to being turned into a hoe by mass media and having her first boyfriend, if that hasn't happened already. her reaction of dissociating herself and vomiting me right back out of her social life is an example of the greater societal attitude towards me. i don't deserve to inhabit it, and everyone knows it. fucking shit, homosexual earth.
now i will wash away my sorrow by going to sleep, waking up, continuing the same cycle while you all forget about this thread and i pretend to be oblivious about my situation...
meanwhile, this week school has started for the zoomers. all of the elements of a normal teenage life are in play again for them.
but i rot, having never been through this experience.
i'm 5'9'', 110lbs, narrow, and negative status for even a low-tier normie to even consider speaking to or friendzoning. any quality my face could've had is overriden by the acne infestation that lives upon it.
i could ask myself, ''where did it all go wrong?'' but the reality is it was never right to begin with. i had never been at any sort of party, either as a kid attending a birthday of a classmate or a teen being at a house party. i had never had a day out with friends, and don't even have family events to attend to spare me from being completely void of any social life at all. it is really, completely empty. all the while i am faced with the constant searing pain of my oneitis aging older and getting closer to being turned into a hoe by mass media and having her first boyfriend, if that hasn't happened already. her reaction of dissociating herself and vomiting me right back out of her social life is an example of the greater societal attitude towards me. i don't deserve to inhabit it, and everyone knows it. fucking shit, homosexual earth.
now i will wash away my sorrow by going to sleep, waking up, continuing the same cycle while you all forget about this thread and i pretend to be oblivious about my situation...
