sadcel
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My birth
As a newborn baby, I had a cerebrovascular accident (stroke) which hit the left part of the brain. This had the effect of getting the entire right side of my body partially paralyzed (it's called hemiparesis).
What is hemiparesis?
Hemiparesis is weakness or the inability to move one side of the body, making it hard to perform everyday activities like eating or dressing.
My life suffering from it
For some context, I am 24 years old living somewhere in Western Europe. I am 6'2", and users here rated me MTN facially. Although I go to the gym, I'm still skinny (165 pounds) and was even skinnier before.
I was born in a shithole in the Balkans and doctors from there were close to making my situation worse.
A doctor told my family he could do a surgical operation on me, and I remember my whole family vividly debating if I should get it or not.
Thankfully I didn't get it, as paralysis is purely muscular and only physiotherapy/rehabilitation works.
The partial paralysis is very visible in my right hand which looks something like this. I can still use my hand to shake hands, to grab something, or for any daily task , it's just a bit harder and it looks broken.
I try to wear a prothese 24/7 to keep my hand straight and make it less visible.
Other than my hand, I limp a bit with my right foot but normies don't usually notice it. The only people that noticed and asked me about it are trainers from the gym and sports professors when I was still in high school.
It also impacts my posture a little bit and my elbow extension (harder to train my right triceps).
This definitely shattered my self-esteem into pieces but people around me say that it doesn't matter:
Sometimes I imagine myself without paralysis and get sad (the image of myself normally constituted in my head was a Chad morph JFL).
That shows that deep down inside, it hurts knowing I would probably have a normal life with good mental health.
The blackpill lesson from it
It contributed to me taking the blackpill and getting into communities like this one because it made me realize that our society is eugenic. I was also objective about my situation because I know it makes me different from others. Blackpill is purely objective , no feelings and no gaslighting. I would say me being aware of my situation was part of unconsciously taking the blackpill.
Society is at best indifferent to people like me, and at worst hateful to us.
I think that some people who try to help you when they see that you have a weird hand only do it for their own conscience, or do it to be seen doing good by others.
Maybe I shouldn't care much about this as I'm just an average MTN so it's normal for me to be invisible in our actual society. I will probably never know...
This is the problem with normies: they will just lie to you because of virtue signaling (it's rude to tell you that yes, the fact that you have a paralyzed hand matters).
Also, I hope it didn't cause me some other problem like hormonal imbalance or whatever, because before going to the gym I was very skinny (borderline underweight by BMI). I think this is also one of the reasons I got treated like shit. Now I get treated better, even though I am still nowhere close to my weight goal.
My goal
My goal is of course Ascension or Death! If I could become HTN in the future that would really to make peace with my situation.
(If someone here have something similar I would like to discuss with him about everything, never read that someone is in this forum for the same reason)
As a newborn baby, I had a cerebrovascular accident (stroke) which hit the left part of the brain. This had the effect of getting the entire right side of my body partially paralyzed (it's called hemiparesis).
What is hemiparesis?
Hemiparesis is weakness or the inability to move one side of the body, making it hard to perform everyday activities like eating or dressing.
My life suffering from it
For some context, I am 24 years old living somewhere in Western Europe. I am 6'2", and users here rated me MTN facially. Although I go to the gym, I'm still skinny (165 pounds) and was even skinnier before.
I was born in a shithole in the Balkans and doctors from there were close to making my situation worse.
A doctor told my family he could do a surgical operation on me, and I remember my whole family vividly debating if I should get it or not.
Thankfully I didn't get it, as paralysis is purely muscular and only physiotherapy/rehabilitation works.
The partial paralysis is very visible in my right hand which looks something like this. I can still use my hand to shake hands, to grab something, or for any daily task , it's just a bit harder and it looks broken.
I try to wear a prothese 24/7 to keep my hand straight and make it less visible.
Other than my hand, I limp a bit with my right foot but normies don't usually notice it. The only people that noticed and asked me about it are trainers from the gym and sports professors when I was still in high school.
It also impacts my posture a little bit and my elbow extension (harder to train my right triceps).
This definitely shattered my self-esteem into pieces but people around me say that it doesn't matter:
- Either it's not that much visible (my hand),
- Or it's normie gaslighting.
Sometimes I imagine myself without paralysis and get sad (the image of myself normally constituted in my head was a Chad morph JFL).
That shows that deep down inside, it hurts knowing I would probably have a normal life with good mental health.
The blackpill lesson from it
It contributed to me taking the blackpill and getting into communities like this one because it made me realize that our society is eugenic. I was also objective about my situation because I know it makes me different from others. Blackpill is purely objective , no feelings and no gaslighting. I would say me being aware of my situation was part of unconsciously taking the blackpill.
Society is at best indifferent to people like me, and at worst hateful to us.
I think that some people who try to help you when they see that you have a weird hand only do it for their own conscience, or do it to be seen doing good by others.
Maybe I shouldn't care much about this as I'm just an average MTN so it's normal for me to be invisible in our actual society. I will probably never know...
This is the problem with normies: they will just lie to you because of virtue signaling (it's rude to tell you that yes, the fact that you have a paralyzed hand matters).
Also, I hope it didn't cause me some other problem like hormonal imbalance or whatever, because before going to the gym I was very skinny (borderline underweight by BMI). I think this is also one of the reasons I got treated like shit. Now I get treated better, even though I am still nowhere close to my weight goal.
My goal
My goal is of course Ascension or Death! If I could become HTN in the future that would really to make peace with my situation.
(If someone here have something similar I would like to discuss with him about everything, never read that someone is in this forum for the same reason)
