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absolute coritsol max (long ass essay)
So like november last year in my sophomore year, my sister brought over one of her old friends. Me and the girl went to middle school together and same age had a crush on eachother in 7th grade but didnt date, she knows my sister because of me. My sister brought her to our lakehouse for a few days and I legit just fell in love with her and she had a crush on me again too.
Pretty obvious we liked eachother and we went on a few "hangouts" for 3 months technically not dates but we were talking stage atm. I confessed to her a little late and got rejected with the "I really like you but I'm not ready for a relationship with anyone rn and im stressed rn" and then she got with some heightmaxxed ltn a week later like all he had going for him was his height lol.
We stopped talking till May when i wished her happy birthday and we started talking again the whole summer, she came back to the lake and that was the first time I held hands with a girl. I confessed again, and she rejected me with the same reason AGAIN. It was because of this guy that went to my school like 2 years prior that moved to North Carolina was talking to my sister and he recognized Lily from like pre-k or some bullshit and she got his number right infront of me, this was like 2 weeks before i confessed and a week after I told her they started dating and broke up after like a week cuz she doesnt want long distance.
Anyway we IMMEDIATELY start talking after she starting texting me again, we talked while I was on vacation and the rest of the summer until she asked me to be her boyfriend in end of July after my bday. So we date for 2 weeks and apparently she hears a rumor that we did some freaky shit when we first started talking in November (we didnt) and she thought I started it (I didn't), so she broke up with me and we got back together like 2 weeks later. So we are together from like the end of August to mid-November, then she breaks up with me again. She was moving to Florida in April and was scared of long distance according to her. The message she sent was like "I like you a lot and I see a future with you, I just don't know when that future is" was one of the sentences she said in her essay. She said she didn't wanna do long distance after the entire 2 months before she was saying that she wanted to try an ldr.
So we actually stay broken up for a while. Maybe two weeks or smthn lol she cant stay away from me. I don't understand that tho because like a month ago, I found out that during thanksgiving break, a week after we broke up, her and my sister went to some christmas event in our little town we lived in, which I opted not to go to because I didn't want to see her after she stomped on my little heart lol. She saw her ex there and hooked up with him, and from what I KNOW, emphasis on from what I know, they were in his car for 2 and a half hours and they made out and she jerked him off. So that fucked with my head, being the little neurodivergent anxious person I am this still bothers me and did during the whole relationship. I also found out that she started talking to ANOTHER GUY after she did that, someone her friend introduced to her but she didn't talk to him for long.
Then like mid-December she texted me after we started talking again. Btw we started texting again like a week after she hooked up with her ex and I had no idea it happened, only found out 2 months later through my sister making jokes too loudly (and my sister fucking hates me dating her best friend so she says some shit about me all the time trying to manipulate Lily). She texts me apologizing about how she handled things with me, and told me she was moving earlier than she expected and said she "would rather spend the time I have left in Texas not dancing around a relationship I would much rather pursue." in her words. (not telling me she hooked up with her ex tho lol). So we start dating again officially at the end of December and we just kept it going till like yesterday.
Literally the day before she was moving she came over and was perfectly fine. Like we were getting our goodbyes while her mom and her came over for dinner and we got to hang out a bit. We did some fun stuff, and then we cuddled for a while and made out normal stuff yk. She was talking about long distance, showing me instagram reels about long distance relationships and she was saying stuff like "this is literally gonna be us lol". Completely normal.
She moved, and from the day she moved to the day we broke up, each day she got more and more distant. Like she used to be the one usually to start conversations and text first, but that was only because she just literally got to it before I could. I used to send her goodmorning texts months ago but she never really reacted to them as much as I wanted her too really sometimes no response even, so I stopped. She legit stopped sending me reels, stopped replying to the ones I had been sending her like she usually did, and started leaving me on read more with absolutely dry responses when she did reply. A total of maybe like 6 texts from her were sent in 8 days and like 20 from me. I attached the breakup messages from her and I both but basically tldr; she made some bs up about how she was the only mature one in the relationship and that I gave no effort. I just confronted her without being too mean but said some of the stuff i'd been holding in for months.
Literally every friend I had that knew her called her a walking red flag, said she was annoying, and said she talks too much about herself (which is absolutely true). Her dad died like 3 years ago or smthn so some issues there. She has so many fucking disorders like she was so beautiful but she had like OCD, ADHD, avoidant attachment, a former eating disorder, low iron, all of these deficiencies too it was crazy. I accepted her because I really loved her, she was my first love like absolutely my first love. First girl I hugged, held hands with, first girl I kissed, first girlfriend and everything. Really broke me. But I felt less sad about it going on, like every time she broke up with me I got less and less hurt because I kinda realized what was happening.
Long story short I know she loved me, and really did like me, but her avoidant issues were bad, and I think the first few times we got back together was her avoidant self being indecisive, and at the start only really wanted the attention I gave her and not the love. Idk I think it's better for my health that it ends, like I wanted to do long distance because I loved and trusted her a lot. Kinda sad about how it ended but legit everyone I've talked too said she was toxic and kinda used me, which I believe.
I think whats gonna happen is one of two cases:
very likely a) She either apologizes, or starting texting me again in 2-8 weeks (depends on how long she waits but thats my guess of time)
somewhat likely b) She ACTUALLY moves on this time and finally stops somehow bringing me back to her with her bs magnetic field or whatever.
ik this is an essay but needed someones opinion on this because I have NOBODY to vent too
I think she actually started getting serious with me after I ascended ngl.
I was a chud like I've been an athlete my whole life but I was a tiny bit overweight when we met again and my face looked like a bloated tomato just w/o acne cuz I'm a late bloomer but I was easily a 5'6 mltn when we met and imo I'm still short 5'10 but lhtn now so idk
So like november last year in my sophomore year, my sister brought over one of her old friends. Me and the girl went to middle school together and same age had a crush on eachother in 7th grade but didnt date, she knows my sister because of me. My sister brought her to our lakehouse for a few days and I legit just fell in love with her and she had a crush on me again too.
Pretty obvious we liked eachother and we went on a few "hangouts" for 3 months technically not dates but we were talking stage atm. I confessed to her a little late and got rejected with the "I really like you but I'm not ready for a relationship with anyone rn and im stressed rn" and then she got with some heightmaxxed ltn a week later like all he had going for him was his height lol.
We stopped talking till May when i wished her happy birthday and we started talking again the whole summer, she came back to the lake and that was the first time I held hands with a girl. I confessed again, and she rejected me with the same reason AGAIN. It was because of this guy that went to my school like 2 years prior that moved to North Carolina was talking to my sister and he recognized Lily from like pre-k or some bullshit and she got his number right infront of me, this was like 2 weeks before i confessed and a week after I told her they started dating and broke up after like a week cuz she doesnt want long distance.
Anyway we IMMEDIATELY start talking after she starting texting me again, we talked while I was on vacation and the rest of the summer until she asked me to be her boyfriend in end of July after my bday. So we date for 2 weeks and apparently she hears a rumor that we did some freaky shit when we first started talking in November (we didnt) and she thought I started it (I didn't), so she broke up with me and we got back together like 2 weeks later. So we are together from like the end of August to mid-November, then she breaks up with me again. She was moving to Florida in April and was scared of long distance according to her. The message she sent was like "I like you a lot and I see a future with you, I just don't know when that future is" was one of the sentences she said in her essay. She said she didn't wanna do long distance after the entire 2 months before she was saying that she wanted to try an ldr.
So we actually stay broken up for a while. Maybe two weeks or smthn lol she cant stay away from me. I don't understand that tho because like a month ago, I found out that during thanksgiving break, a week after we broke up, her and my sister went to some christmas event in our little town we lived in, which I opted not to go to because I didn't want to see her after she stomped on my little heart lol. She saw her ex there and hooked up with him, and from what I KNOW, emphasis on from what I know, they were in his car for 2 and a half hours and they made out and she jerked him off. So that fucked with my head, being the little neurodivergent anxious person I am this still bothers me and did during the whole relationship. I also found out that she started talking to ANOTHER GUY after she did that, someone her friend introduced to her but she didn't talk to him for long.
Then like mid-December she texted me after we started talking again. Btw we started texting again like a week after she hooked up with her ex and I had no idea it happened, only found out 2 months later through my sister making jokes too loudly (and my sister fucking hates me dating her best friend so she says some shit about me all the time trying to manipulate Lily). She texts me apologizing about how she handled things with me, and told me she was moving earlier than she expected and said she "would rather spend the time I have left in Texas not dancing around a relationship I would much rather pursue." in her words. (not telling me she hooked up with her ex tho lol). So we start dating again officially at the end of December and we just kept it going till like yesterday.
Literally the day before she was moving she came over and was perfectly fine. Like we were getting our goodbyes while her mom and her came over for dinner and we got to hang out a bit. We did some fun stuff, and then we cuddled for a while and made out normal stuff yk. She was talking about long distance, showing me instagram reels about long distance relationships and she was saying stuff like "this is literally gonna be us lol". Completely normal.
She moved, and from the day she moved to the day we broke up, each day she got more and more distant. Like she used to be the one usually to start conversations and text first, but that was only because she just literally got to it before I could. I used to send her goodmorning texts months ago but she never really reacted to them as much as I wanted her too really sometimes no response even, so I stopped. She legit stopped sending me reels, stopped replying to the ones I had been sending her like she usually did, and started leaving me on read more with absolutely dry responses when she did reply. A total of maybe like 6 texts from her were sent in 8 days and like 20 from me. I attached the breakup messages from her and I both but basically tldr; she made some bs up about how she was the only mature one in the relationship and that I gave no effort. I just confronted her without being too mean but said some of the stuff i'd been holding in for months.
Literally every friend I had that knew her called her a walking red flag, said she was annoying, and said she talks too much about herself (which is absolutely true). Her dad died like 3 years ago or smthn so some issues there. She has so many fucking disorders like she was so beautiful but she had like OCD, ADHD, avoidant attachment, a former eating disorder, low iron, all of these deficiencies too it was crazy. I accepted her because I really loved her, she was my first love like absolutely my first love. First girl I hugged, held hands with, first girl I kissed, first girlfriend and everything. Really broke me. But I felt less sad about it going on, like every time she broke up with me I got less and less hurt because I kinda realized what was happening.
Long story short I know she loved me, and really did like me, but her avoidant issues were bad, and I think the first few times we got back together was her avoidant self being indecisive, and at the start only really wanted the attention I gave her and not the love. Idk I think it's better for my health that it ends, like I wanted to do long distance because I loved and trusted her a lot. Kinda sad about how it ended but legit everyone I've talked too said she was toxic and kinda used me, which I believe.
I think whats gonna happen is one of two cases:
very likely a) She either apologizes, or starting texting me again in 2-8 weeks (depends on how long she waits but thats my guess of time)
somewhat likely b) She ACTUALLY moves on this time and finally stops somehow bringing me back to her with her bs magnetic field or whatever.
ik this is an essay but needed someones opinion on this because I have NOBODY to vent too
I think she actually started getting serious with me after I ascended ngl.
I was a chud like I've been an athlete my whole life but I was a tiny bit overweight when we met again and my face looked like a bloated tomato just w/o acne cuz I'm a late bloomer but I was easily a 5'6 mltn when we met and imo I'm still short 5'10 but lhtn now so idk
i'm not reading allat nigga
Just leave
my friend is the exact same and it never does any good. If she starts texting you again, just tell her that you don't wanna have any contact with her. I understand that you love/loved her but she is no good. If you really are lhtn you could get someone better. You sound like a nice guy too. Wish you luck bhai
