My mom doesn't believe in my autism lol

[fr0st]

I told my mom about getting diagnosed but she said "yeah its because of all those vaccines you're just a loser"

 

[Snicket]

I told my mom about getting diagnosed but she said "yeah its because of all those vaccines you're just a loser"

Based on evething I’ve read from your threads, I feel like homeschooling is what ultimately fucked you.

 

[fr0st]

Based on evething I’ve read from your threads, I feel like homeschooling is what ultimately fucked you.

probably i just kept on getting overstimulated in the crowds and with all the noise so i kinda had to because i kept on getting really freaked out in school

 

[Snicket]

probably i just kept on getting overstimulated in the crowds and with all the noise so i kinda had to because i kept on getting really freaked out in school

Interesting, I’ve heard that sensitivity to noise is a classic symptom of autism.

How would you freak out at school?

 

[fr0st]

Interesting, I’ve heard that sensitivity to noise is a classic symptom of autism.

How would you freak out at school?

Its very embarrassing to admit but whatever everyone thinks im a fag anyways i would usually just cry and go to the bathroom or have a panic attack. i missed out over half a year in attendance because i kept on begging my mom not to bring me to school las well.

 

[fr0st]

Its very embarrassing to admit but whatever everyone thinks im a fag anyways i would usually just cry and go to the bathroom or have a panic attack. i missed out over half a year in attendance because i kept on begging my mom not to bring me to school las well.

kind of feels like you're getting flash banged and that you are in a inescapable pit of anxiety

 

[sigma boii]

How does your mom know the truth about vaccines wtf

 

[Snicket]

Its very embarrassing to admit but whatever everyone thinks im a fag anyways i would usually just cry and go to the bathroom or have a panic attack. i missed out over half a year in attendance because i kept on begging my mom not to bring me to school las well.

Not an easy place to be. It’s a nasty catch 22.

You either go to school and have to deal with constant social anxiety or you stay at home and get no socialization at all, stalling your development.

 

[VV62]

you're just a loser

She wasnt wrong here

 

[fr0st]

Not an easy place to be. It’s a nasty catch 22.

You either go to school and have to deal with constant social anxiety or you stay at home and get no socialization at all, stalling your development.

it was probably for the better i got bullied pretty ruthlessly as well.

 

[chocolate rain]

mine too jfl

 

[Snicket]

it was probably for the better i got bullied pretty ruthlessly as well.

If you could go back in time, what would you do differently to optimize your chances of normal development?

I know the easy answer is “I was always screwed” but I don’t believe many things are inevitable.

Your interactions here have been pretty normal in many threads. Obvs online does not equal real life.

 

[fr0st]

If you could go back in time, what would you do differently to optimize your chances of normal development?

I know the easy answer is “I was always screwed” but I don’t believe many things are inevitable.

Your interactions here have been pretty normal in many threads. Obvs online does not equal real life.

I would probably spend less time alone in the corner of the class reading books and stuff. even though people would scowl, bully and tell me to go away if i really really tried i might have been able to make a friend.

i would also try not to get put into special education that kinda hindered my growth intellectually

maybe if i fought back or something people would punch me and kick me for fun lol in hindsight im kind of a pushover.

i definitely wouldn't try to talk about anime to them that really got me made fun of.

i also wouldnt have brought my free milk thing to school so people didnt see that i was unable to afford milk that kinda cemented me as the poor kid.

i definitely would have used headphones more i think seeing my mom bring home different guys every weekend and hearing them bang in the other room fucked up my perception of women in general. plus all the times the guys came into my room drunk ect that time one of them came in drunk saying they were gonna fuck my mom probably left a lasting impact on me.

if i got treated for adhd and autism earlier maybe i could have learned things to avoid my life now but idk.

 

[Snicket]

I would probably spend less time alone in the corner of the class reading books and stuff. even though people would scowl, bully and tell me to go away if i really really tried i might have been able to make a friend.

i would also try not to get put into special education that kinda hindered my growth intellectually

maybe if i fought back or something people would punch me and kick me for fun lol in hindsight im kind of a pushover.

i definitely wouldn't try to talk about anime to them that really got me made fun of.

i also wouldnt have brought my free milk thing to school so people didnt see that i was unable to afford milk that kinda cemented me as the poor kid.

i definitely would have used headphones more i think seeing my mom bring home different guys every weekend and hearing them bang in the other room fucked up my perception of women in general. plus all the times the guys came into my room drunk ect that time one of them came in drunk saying they were gonna fuck my mom probably left a lasting impact on me.

if i got treated for adhd and autism earlier maybe i could have learned things to avoid my life now but idk.

It’s a hard one. I can see where you’re coming from and it’s not easy as young kid to navigate this - you shouldn’t even be expected to really.

All you can do is focus on changing things going forward, as cliched and boring as that sounds - but equally true.

Finding people your own age to hang out with in even a limited capacity would benefit you.

Trouble is finding them. Are you planning on going to college?