My mother is aggressiv

[vampi]

dont get me wrong i love my mother and i thank her for every thing she has given to me.

My mother is way to srs about everything she does, this is cherry picked but still extreme:

My mom brought me to school while i had a fever, per year i had about 10 missing days and those were like routine check ups and funerals.

She made me learn the violin and piano, one i enjoyed, the other i hated.
till today i still play the piano and love every second, but the violin was never for me.
I just couldnt perform as good as she wanted me to be.

For diet she always knows better and critics me about how i eat,

she is unorgenized and blaims it on me.
I ask her for info and never get it, and when i do i get it trough humilation.

I feel like my parents are talking behind my back and that they think im a failure.

I just cant anymore.

Same with everyone in my life, i

have the options but i rarely make action

I just cant do this bro, i am dying inside and it makes me go insane,

All the friends i make leave me after a while so often i just know it is a matter of time

I dont have any motivation to fix what is wrong with me and im loosing hope that i can beat my failures, a bad friend of mine introduced me to porn at the age of 9, i have been struggling to stop since the age of 11, i cant, my life is getting ruined and i cant do anything to fix this.

 

[Resistance.]

Bro, you really wrote a lot.
No one here has the attention span to spend more than 10 seconds on a video — myself included

 

[vampi]

Bro, you really wrote a lot.
No one here has the attention span to spend more than 10 seconds on a video — myself included

i assumed i would have gotten dnr'd anyway,

for me this is mostly so i can lay all this out and look at it objectivly

 

[Resistance.]

As far as I understand, you come from a typical civil servant family.


Another thing is, there’s no need for you to feel unsuccessful — even if your family says so.


Compared to the average person, you’ve improved yourself more than enough