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Apparition
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I was dellusional the whole time. I clinged unto that agronomist slut because she had more appeal and higher IQ and believed that if i was a bit better looking id have slayed her.
But this was complete bs, she knew i was incel and probably laughed at how autistic and non NT i sounded.
With my old itis it was different though. She wasnt hot to me but she made me feel some things.
She was more similar to me because she was more introverted, actually edgy and didnt like certain mentalities. And she was also honest about what she wanted (looking back at it she really was on the femcel side, no chad would have fucked that)
I used to think that i was similar to my oneitis, that i had a personality similar to hers. In reality, all i managed was to become the way i should have back in 2020 when i met my old crush.
Its insane how i spent so much time clinging onto the wrong girl and inadvertly "improved" for someone else. Everything was a lie this whole time. Too bad it was all in vain sadly.
But this was complete bs, she knew i was incel and probably laughed at how autistic and non NT i sounded.
With my old itis it was different though. She wasnt hot to me but she made me feel some things.
She was more similar to me because she was more introverted, actually edgy and didnt like certain mentalities. And she was also honest about what she wanted (looking back at it she really was on the femcel side, no chad would have fucked that)
I used to think that i was similar to my oneitis, that i had a personality similar to hers. In reality, all i managed was to become the way i should have back in 2020 when i met my old crush.
Its insane how i spent so much time clinging onto the wrong girl and inadvertly "improved" for someone else. Everything was a lie this whole time. Too bad it was all in vain sadly.