My old crush was truly the love of my life

[Deleted member 84615]

I was dellusional the whole time. I clinged unto that agronomist slut because she had more appeal and higher IQ and believed that if i was a bit better looking id have slayed her.

But this was complete bs, she knew i was incel and probably laughed at how autistic and non NT i sounded.

With my old itis it was different though. She wasnt hot to me but she made me feel some things.

She was more similar to me because she was more introverted, actually edgy and didnt like certain mentalities. And she was also honest about what she wanted (looking back at it she really was on the femcel side, no chad would have fucked that)

I used to think that i was similar to my oneitis, that i had a personality similar to hers. In reality, all i managed was to become the way i should have back in 2020 when i met my old crush.

Its insane how i spent so much time clinging onto the wrong girl and inadvertly "improved" for someone else. Everything was a lie this whole time. Too bad it was all in vain sadly.

 

[Gonthar]

Why didn't you do one of those dramatic love confessions like they do in the movies, women are crazy for those, seeing men act vulnerable, confessing their deepest feelings....

 

[Gengar]

I know that feel bhai.

Mine was porbably MTB though and got married last year so there's that.

 

[Darkeningstar]

I spent my teenage years and even a small part afterwards looking, after accumulating experiences, for a girl who was "suitable," but I was a victim of hedonism and in fact I had probably found her, but I didn't realize it.

 

[vermillioncorefan]

I was dellusional the whole time. I clinged unto that agronomist slut because she had more appeal and higher IQ and believed that if i was a bit better looking id have slayed her.

But this was complete bs, she knew i was incel and probably laughed at how autistic and non NT i sounded.

With my old itis it was different though. She wasnt hot to me but she made me feel some things.

She was more similar to me because she was more introverted, actually edgy and didnt like certain mentalities. And she was also honest about what she wanted (looking back at it she really was on the femcel side, no chad would have fucked that)

I used to think that i was similar to my oneitis, that i had a personality similar to hers. In reality, all i managed was to become the way i should have back in 2020 when i met my old crush.

Its insane how i spent so much time clinging onto the wrong girl and inadvertly "improved" for someone else. Everything was a lie this whole time. Too bad it was all in vain sadly.

u didnt even touch her titties or fuck her or kiss her or anything dawg tf u tripping over?

 

[Deleted member 84615]

Why didn't you do one of those dramatic love confessions like they do in the movies, women are crazy for those, seeing men act vulnerable, confessing their deepest feelings....

i was too scared at the time to do anything and just expected her to to grab me by the cock

 

[Deleted member 84615]

Mine was porbably MTB though and got married last year so there's that.

mine was probably mtb too now that i think about it

 

[Deleted member 84615]

didnt even touch her titties or fuck her or kiss her or anything dawg tf u tripping over?

i was too scared.....

 

[Gonthar]

i was too scared at the time to do anything and just expected her to to grab me by the cock

Lol, that happens only in porn movies...

 

[Deleted member 84615]

I spent my teenage years and even a small part afterwards looking, after accumulating experiences, for a girl who was "suitable," but I was a victim of hedonism and in fact I had probably found her, but I didn't realize it.

similar situation here. she got me with her semi naked pics. even nowdays she still walks around without a bra showing her nipples. i rly shouldnt have met this person

 

[Deleted member 84615]

Lol, that happens only in porn movies...

i figured. and considering im not particularly gl i should have gone with her waters instead of being mad over not getting poon

 

[Whatever]

I'm still not over my first girl. I was for years, but now she's all I can think about all the sudden. Maybe because it was 10 years ago when we met, in August 2014. And all of these things in my life currently are triggering nostalgia and missing for her, that place, and everything that was back then instead. And also because she's gorgeous, funny, it's been downhill ever since I let her go, for both of us, a fraction of what life could've been. Now I just go back and forth with myself for hours about her and that relationship, the different ways I can make sense of it, we were such opposites but so perfect for each other at the same time.

 

[Deleted member 84615]

ad. And also because she's gorgeous, funny, it's been downhill ever since I let her go, for both of us, a fraction of what life could've been. Now I just go back and forth with myself for hours about her and that relationship, the different ways I can make sense of it, we were such opposites but so perfect for each other at the same time.

i wasnt opposites at all with my old itis. we were very similar even lookswise for that matter. she was the closest thing i had to a girlfriend but i didnt realize it at the time. she was a bit cringey and weird but at least she respect me as a human being. meanwhile the girl after her treated me like trash.

 

[Whatever]

i wasnt opposites at all with my old itis. we were very similar even lookswise for that matter. she was the closest thing i had to a girlfriend but i didnt realize it at the time. she was a bit cringey and weird but at least she respect me as a human being. meanwhile the girl after her treated me like trash.

Brutal, especially not realizing stuff at the time, that's so hard about being young. My first and second girls and the transition from one to the other was something vaguely similar. My first girl and I were always really silly together, my second was more quiet and chill and made my first one seem kinda cringey and too much to keep up with. But she used me and ended up cheating on me, I made the wrong choice. This exact thing permanently changed me as a person and I don't know if it was for the better or worse, it just is what it is.

 

[Deleted member 84615]

Brutal, especially not realizing stuff at the time, that's so hard about being young.

she was very patient with me. and she would also open up about her private life.

But she used me and ended up cheating on me, I made the wrong choice. This exact thing permanently changed me as a person and I don't know if it was for the better or worse, it just is what it is.

the thing about change is legit. some people impact us too much. like, i became merciless and maipulative like my oneitis over time. i just let that woman corrupt me too much i think.