Demir
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What really fucks my mind is that literally nothing really happens. Everything that can happen to me already happened at least 10 times before. Any glimpse of hope that I have got died many years ago. Good memories of my past life are fading away in a mist, only pain and bitterness remain with causes than I can't always recall. I am in some timeless space living days that are reprisal not premire and that I have already lived many times. There is not a single new life experience that can give me life fuel. I know in advance outcome of my every action. In my mind I am still a teenager, but my body is getting older and older, I am always tired, even altough I didn't do anything to be tired. No one cares about me, no one offers help, I am on my own. My school friends are married and playing with children under my window while I browse obscure virgin autist forums between two faps. I put down venetian blinds, so my neighbors can't see me when I jerk off. Hanging out with friends is just a far distant memory for me. I am starting to forget people that I hang with for 10 years.
