IntelligentCel
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My only and biggest regret in life is that I didn't do pubertymaxxing with exogenous testosterone and growth hormone.
When I was in puberty, if I did pubertymaxxing with T and HGH (for high IGF-1), I would have gotten a Top 1% body development and now I would have been in the Top 1% in terms of money and looks.
Back in the day, I listened to my average-IQ mother who was telling me looks don't matter and that it's the personality that matters. This advice ruined my life, quite literally.
I just can't get over this... I'm thinking about it literally every single minute when I'm awake. I literally retreated into a schizoid fantasy world where I live as the Top 1% millionaire Chad verios I had to be in reality, but didn't become because I listened to bluepilled people instead of taking exogenous androgens and growth hormone.
It's so depressing and demoralizing, I haven't expressed any positive emotions in public for more than 10 years, since I became blackpilled and realized it's over.
Not using steroids during puberty is the mistake of my life, something that will live rent-free in my head forever, a mistake I will never forgive myself.
Not using steroids and listening to Bluepill nonsense during the most important years of my neurological and physical development is the mistake that ended my life and because my death sentence in adulthood. I just can't get over it...
When I was in puberty, if I did pubertymaxxing with T and HGH (for high IGF-1), I would have gotten a Top 1% body development and now I would have been in the Top 1% in terms of money and looks.
Back in the day, I listened to my average-IQ mother who was telling me looks don't matter and that it's the personality that matters. This advice ruined my life, quite literally.
I just can't get over this... I'm thinking about it literally every single minute when I'm awake. I literally retreated into a schizoid fantasy world where I live as the Top 1% millionaire Chad verios I had to be in reality, but didn't become because I listened to bluepilled people instead of taking exogenous androgens and growth hormone.
It's so depressing and demoralizing, I haven't expressed any positive emotions in public for more than 10 years, since I became blackpilled and realized it's over.
Not using steroids during puberty is the mistake of my life, something that will live rent-free in my head forever, a mistake I will never forgive myself.
Not using steroids and listening to Bluepill nonsense during the most important years of my neurological and physical development is the mistake that ended my life and because my death sentence in adulthood. I just can't get over it...
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