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Clown Show
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I already mentioned that I got severely bullied as a kid and my self-esteem became permanently non existent. I legit can't remember when was the last time when I truly felt good about myself, probably at 12-13 yo and now I am almost 27. I don't want to even write here what kind of things I want to do to my bullies...
I get brutal self-hate thoughts on a daily basis, no matter what good things I do or social validation that I get, I permanently think that I am worth less than others and unlovable. It has become some sort of autoimmune disease at this point, I am completely losing motivation to do anything than rot...
This makes me mad because I can see on a daily basis mfs worse than me in every regard living hundred times better lives than me, fully confident, and even slaying just because they got lucky to not get bullied and abused at a young age, I hate them.
No matter what I do, I simply can't break through the negative thought patterns, it's like my mind has accepted that I am a subhuman on a deepest, most fundamental level. I will never be happy in life...
Is it possible to ever repair broken self-esteem? Are there any such cases in history?
@MoggerGaston
I get brutal self-hate thoughts on a daily basis, no matter what good things I do or social validation that I get, I permanently think that I am worth less than others and unlovable. It has become some sort of autoimmune disease at this point, I am completely losing motivation to do anything than rot...
This makes me mad because I can see on a daily basis mfs worse than me in every regard living hundred times better lives than me, fully confident, and even slaying just because they got lucky to not get bullied and abused at a young age, I hate them.
No matter what I do, I simply can't break through the negative thought patterns, it's like my mind has accepted that I am a subhuman on a deepest, most fundamental level. I will never be happy in life...
Is it possible to ever repair broken self-esteem? Are there any such cases in history?
@MoggerGaston