My urges to rope are growing everyday

[STAMPEDE]

I just want to rope very badly but fear holds me back, my fear is actually bigger than my urges to rope, such a coward I am!

 

[twojei]

I just want to rope very badly but fear holds me back, my fear is actually bigger than my urges to rope, such a coward I am!

I am going through a chronic illness right now, but I am applying this logic (someone posted it here:https://looksmax.org/threads/the-dark-secret-to-results.1218632/#post-17980318):

If life is bad, then risking making it worse for the sake of making it better is worth it, if we consider that death represents the end of suffering and pain. All you have to do is lose the fear of dying, and you can start living. I suggest you start meditating on your death. It should work.