fishinthesee
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Personally I have ADHD, its very mild, and not really noticeable the first time someone talks to me
I was always decently attractive and thats usually enough for someone as a kid to be treated good, even if u have moderate autism kids before teen years cant really tell you have it, they might think something is off about you but wont really question it. I didn't even have moderate autism, I just have mild adhd, which isnt even comparable imo.
Anyways, in the teen years (like 5th 6th 7th 8th grade) I had before I was about 15 I was chubby, (a lot of it was due to getting off my adhd meds, + covid) and also my growth was slowed as fuck for some reason, I used to be like top 5 tallest kids in my class but I was now in the lower 30% in terms of height percentile, so it was very brutal, I felt like subhuman sometimes but I wasn't sub5 or anything.
Over the summer from 8th-9th grade I kinda lost a lot of weight on accident probably from playing video games a fuck ton and gooning, so when I started highschool people just treated me different, I couldnt even tell if it was better but It was so much more different. I had been socializing after covid since like 8th grade so I had a decent friendgroup but I wasnt the most popular in it either, so starting 9th grade I stayed friends w only the people I was rlly close w in that 10 or so person friend group I had. I started to notice I was unlike most people, this is a feeling a lot of neurotypicals who are just simply losers get, but for me I never really was like that, I still had discord friends or whatever but the lingo/slang they used, their interests, their body language, was completely different than mine, I felt like an alien.
Whenever I would meet new people it was like they were trying to challenge me, using sarcasm and shit ykwim. I thought this was because I had a bad personality, I was ugly, a loser, wtv, I genuinely had no clue why people were doing this until I looked at how other people started convos w randoms who looked just like me and it was the exact same, but they somehow just knew what to say.
The reason they were doing this is because its subconscious. They were literally just greeting me like how they would any other MTN but I was so fucked from covid + my slight ndness catching up to me socially as I got older that I didnt know how to react appropriately. I had to learn sarcasm and all this shit and get redpilled and get in okay shape and then I was fine, but to this day I still feel like this a little. People genuinely dont have the effort to challenge you or try to assert dominance (thats what it feels like if they do it to you, but in reality its just how nt humans talk to new people) if you are ugly, and honestly just want to meet you. If you were ugly or that much of a loser they would simply bully you and start by making fun of you, which for NDcels is actually pretty hard to differentiate.
Sometimes It's not even like a test though, or subconscious at all. They can just tell that you are acting completely different from most people who look like you. I guarantee you if you are a regular LTN or something you will not get responses from people where it seems like they are trying to test you, they actually want to TALK to you and potentially becomes friends with you because you look like you are cool or whatever (you are attractive) but no one really tells you that, and if you cant understand social cues you are fucked until you learn how to.
With foids its not as brutal because most of the time they can just think you are uninterested bc you dont understand the social clues they give. The social cues I received from women when I started hs again I never even noticed or remember other than this one girl drawing on my hand. Once I had decent social skills for an NDcel after abt a month I was talking to foids from my school on snapchat bc its easy and I am pretty much normal on text, its very easy to be its just fucking letters lmao. Women can kinda tell tho once they start talking to you (if they like u that is) but by that time a slight bit of adhd or even autism for that matter wont really change their feelings for you unless they see you struggling socially over time.
Tldr; if u still havent realized this yet a lot of the time you feel like people you meet are "challenging" you its more often than not because you look like you are approachable / not ugly (like at least mtn) and they literally JUST want to talk to you and you have horrible fucking social skills, dont like talking to people, or have some type of neurodivergence.
one of the best whitepills i discovered and it MIGHT have saved my life but it was pretty obvious and i never needed the internet to discover this
I was always decently attractive and thats usually enough for someone as a kid to be treated good, even if u have moderate autism kids before teen years cant really tell you have it, they might think something is off about you but wont really question it. I didn't even have moderate autism, I just have mild adhd, which isnt even comparable imo.
Anyways, in the teen years (like 5th 6th 7th 8th grade) I had before I was about 15 I was chubby, (a lot of it was due to getting off my adhd meds, + covid) and also my growth was slowed as fuck for some reason, I used to be like top 5 tallest kids in my class but I was now in the lower 30% in terms of height percentile, so it was very brutal, I felt like subhuman sometimes but I wasn't sub5 or anything.
Over the summer from 8th-9th grade I kinda lost a lot of weight on accident probably from playing video games a fuck ton and gooning, so when I started highschool people just treated me different, I couldnt even tell if it was better but It was so much more different. I had been socializing after covid since like 8th grade so I had a decent friendgroup but I wasnt the most popular in it either, so starting 9th grade I stayed friends w only the people I was rlly close w in that 10 or so person friend group I had. I started to notice I was unlike most people, this is a feeling a lot of neurotypicals who are just simply losers get, but for me I never really was like that, I still had discord friends or whatever but the lingo/slang they used, their interests, their body language, was completely different than mine, I felt like an alien.
Whenever I would meet new people it was like they were trying to challenge me, using sarcasm and shit ykwim. I thought this was because I had a bad personality, I was ugly, a loser, wtv, I genuinely had no clue why people were doing this until I looked at how other people started convos w randoms who looked just like me and it was the exact same, but they somehow just knew what to say.
The reason they were doing this is because its subconscious. They were literally just greeting me like how they would any other MTN but I was so fucked from covid + my slight ndness catching up to me socially as I got older that I didnt know how to react appropriately. I had to learn sarcasm and all this shit and get redpilled and get in okay shape and then I was fine, but to this day I still feel like this a little. People genuinely dont have the effort to challenge you or try to assert dominance (thats what it feels like if they do it to you, but in reality its just how nt humans talk to new people) if you are ugly, and honestly just want to meet you. If you were ugly or that much of a loser they would simply bully you and start by making fun of you, which for NDcels is actually pretty hard to differentiate.
Sometimes It's not even like a test though, or subconscious at all. They can just tell that you are acting completely different from most people who look like you. I guarantee you if you are a regular LTN or something you will not get responses from people where it seems like they are trying to test you, they actually want to TALK to you and potentially becomes friends with you because you look like you are cool or whatever (you are attractive) but no one really tells you that, and if you cant understand social cues you are fucked until you learn how to.
With foids its not as brutal because most of the time they can just think you are uninterested bc you dont understand the social clues they give. The social cues I received from women when I started hs again I never even noticed or remember other than this one girl drawing on my hand. Once I had decent social skills for an NDcel after abt a month I was talking to foids from my school on snapchat bc its easy and I am pretty much normal on text, its very easy to be its just fucking letters lmao. Women can kinda tell tho once they start talking to you (if they like u that is) but by that time a slight bit of adhd or even autism for that matter wont really change their feelings for you unless they see you struggling socially over time.
Tldr; if u still havent realized this yet a lot of the time you feel like people you meet are "challenging" you its more often than not because you look like you are approachable / not ugly (like at least mtn) and they literally JUST want to talk to you and you have horrible fucking social skills, dont like talking to people, or have some type of neurodivergence.
one of the best whitepills i discovered and it MIGHT have saved my life but it was pretty obvious and i never needed the internet to discover this
