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LegitUser
Gluttonmaxxed gypsy from the council estate
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i took some new preworkout today.
it contains phenylephrine, ephedrine and caffeine as stimulants.
i topped up with some more caffeine powder and sugar.
it made me feel amazing.
i went to greater than failure on everything.
completely dissosciated, spent so much more time in the gym than normal. my perception of time is completly screwed. even when physically, i literally cant do any more reps, mentally i was not done, i went back and did every set, until i physcially couldnt pull another half ref.
then i walked back home in the cold in shorts and no coat, just to punish myself for being a failure.
i am still not mentally tired, but i know i must control myself for the muscle to grow.
imagine if i felt like this everyday, no physical pain, no emotial overthinking, no fatigue.
then i came home, still unsatified, because although i couldnt do any more reps, of any set, i still feel like i have so much power within me.
i punched my matress so hard i hit the wall behind it, imagine if that was a human.
i want to learn boxing , i need to see the damage i am capable of inflicting. i think every man has this biological need.
i am a very peacefull person
i also realised instictually, my intelligence is greater than almost everyone i have ever met.
i have also realised i have bcome too happy.
so now i have decided to stare into the mirror, to remind myself of how disgusting i look, so i am not happy for much longer, and to control my mood.
it contains phenylephrine, ephedrine and caffeine as stimulants.
i topped up with some more caffeine powder and sugar.
it made me feel amazing.
i went to greater than failure on everything.
completely dissosciated, spent so much more time in the gym than normal. my perception of time is completly screwed. even when physically, i literally cant do any more reps, mentally i was not done, i went back and did every set, until i physcially couldnt pull another half ref.
then i walked back home in the cold in shorts and no coat, just to punish myself for being a failure.
i am still not mentally tired, but i know i must control myself for the muscle to grow.
imagine if i felt like this everyday, no physical pain, no emotial overthinking, no fatigue.
then i came home, still unsatified, because although i couldnt do any more reps, of any set, i still feel like i have so much power within me.
i punched my matress so hard i hit the wall behind it, imagine if that was a human.
i want to learn boxing , i need to see the damage i am capable of inflicting. i think every man has this biological need.
i am a very peacefull person
i also realised instictually, my intelligence is greater than almost everyone i have ever met.
i have also realised i have bcome too happy.
so now i have decided to stare into the mirror, to remind myself of how disgusting i look, so i am not happy for much longer, and to control my mood.
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