Rochefort6
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Day 2 and it already feels like its been way longer 
I'm significantly less depleted energy-wise than yesterday but by no means close to ideal. I didn't feel like I was constantly on the verge of sleeping
I did take a nap today after eating, probably due to not eating much beforehand.
Supplemented, same as yesterday, with l-theanine, reishi mushroom, ashwagandha, cordyceps, cbd, fish oil PLUS vitamin D. Thinking everything but vitamin D and fish oil is unnecessary and will cut back tomorrow.
I experienced minor anxiety and was a bit in my head when going outside and talking to strangers again, especially when doing so alone. The latter felt like I was constantly viewing myself from another's perspective. Still, what I attribute to being a low T feeling, which was much less exaggerated than what was felt yesterday.
My horniness increased today and was evident when I was distracted by my tenant's ass when she was wearing shorts--which I regrettably took a picture of and immediately deleted
I also caught myself air humping and fantasizing about porn and sex and had a few spontaneous erections and morning wood. My gf also provoked more sexual feelings in me, nothing crazy though.
I experienced the cold shower today the same as yesterday, pretty routine at this point. The only difference today was my level of procrastination before getting in. I turned on the shower, used the toilet, brushed my teeth, and still waited around before getting in lol. I was jumping up and down listening to music getting myself pumped for like 10 mins. What a waste of water... Tomorrow morning I won't touch that evil device, it should minimize procrastination.
My shower routine atm consists of, first, quickly hitting my chest, then arm, back, other arm, face and head with water; taking a few seconds break for cleaning; 30 sec on the front then 30 sec on the back, then standing directly underneath the showerhead for a minute. This is all under the coldest setting and is the minimum time I spend in the shower. Perhaps I should progressively stay for longer so as not to get too tolerant of the cold water. Wouldn't be much of challenge, except for getting in without procrastinating beforehand
I meditated pretty late again today, 30 mins straight at 21:40ish, and regrettably ate junk food beforehand (feel pretty bad for not restraining myself from eating that shit). I'm sure the combo of the two weakened my willpower. I was pretty drowsy throughout the session and nearly dozed off, especially right at the end. I moved a little to adjust my posture, neck, and hands as they felt really stiff from working out 2 days ago and was gradually leaning forward 5 times due to the tiredness and to it being so late. Again, it felt like mental torture towards the end and I was really anticipating it to end anytime soon. I stuck it out and feel better for it Tomorrow I'll aim for 2 15 min sessions, 1 in the morning, and 1 in the afternoon to prevent what made the meditation harder today.
TLDR:
I'm significantly less depleted energy-wise than yesterday but by no means close to ideal. I didn't feel like I was constantly on the verge of sleeping
I did take a nap today after eating, probably due to not eating much beforehand.Supplemented, same as yesterday, with l-theanine, reishi mushroom, ashwagandha, cordyceps, cbd, fish oil PLUS vitamin D. Thinking everything but vitamin D and fish oil is unnecessary and will cut back tomorrow.
I experienced minor anxiety and was a bit in my head when going outside and talking to strangers again, especially when doing so alone. The latter felt like I was constantly viewing myself from another's perspective. Still, what I attribute to being a low T feeling, which was much less exaggerated than what was felt yesterday.
My horniness increased today and was evident when I was distracted by my tenant's ass when she was wearing shorts--which I regrettably took a picture of and immediately deleted
I also caught myself air humping and fantasizing about porn and sex and had a few spontaneous erections and morning wood. My gf also provoked more sexual feelings in me, nothing crazy though.I experienced the cold shower today the same as yesterday, pretty routine at this point. The only difference today was my level of procrastination before getting in. I turned on the shower, used the toilet, brushed my teeth, and still waited around before getting in lol. I was jumping up and down listening to music getting myself pumped for like 10 mins. What a waste of water... Tomorrow morning I won't touch that evil device, it should minimize procrastination.
My shower routine atm consists of, first, quickly hitting my chest, then arm, back, other arm, face and head with water; taking a few seconds break for cleaning; 30 sec on the front then 30 sec on the back, then standing directly underneath the showerhead for a minute. This is all under the coldest setting and is the minimum time I spend in the shower. Perhaps I should progressively stay for longer so as not to get too tolerant of the cold water. Wouldn't be much of challenge, except for getting in without procrastinating beforehand
I meditated pretty late again today, 30 mins straight at 21:40ish, and regrettably ate junk food beforehand (feel pretty bad for not restraining myself from eating that shit). I'm sure the combo of the two weakened my willpower. I was pretty drowsy throughout the session and nearly dozed off, especially right at the end. I moved a little to adjust my posture, neck, and hands as they felt really stiff from working out 2 days ago and was gradually leaning forward 5 times due to the tiredness and to it being so late. Again, it felt like mental torture towards the end and I was really anticipating it to end anytime soon. I stuck it out and feel better for it
Tomorrow I'll aim for 2 15 min sessions, 1 in the morning, and 1 in the afternoon to prevent what made the meditation harder today.TLDR:
- Less energy depleted and sleepy, despite taking 1 nap. Minor anxiety outside but less than yesterday. More horny, a few erections, air humped, fantasized about porn and sex, took a pic of my tenant's ass then deleted, was more aroused by my gf but nothing crazy.
- Procrastinated before taking shower which I plan on stopping tomorrow without phone. Thinking about extending the time I take a shower as I'm feeling tolerant to its effects.
- Meditated late, 30 mins straight, and after eating junk food... I fucked up there. That probably made it much harder as I was sleepy and most likely willpower depleted. Moved a bit during, had to stop myself from drifting to sleep during, felt like torture towards the end. Tomorrow I plan on spreading it out and at early times in the day.
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