Not related to Looks but still genetic failure

[sin 22]

I’ve been lifting heavy for months eatig an immense amount of protein trying to get strong since I don’t want to be a LTN and weak aswell only to get beat on by my little brother who’s 3 years younger 15/18 he’s still a 5’5 Sub5 but to get strength mogged this hard was humilating I thought I was getting stronger only to get outmatched by my little brother who eats Noodles and Goy slop all day and has never touched a Weight in his life I was completely outmatched I know Lifting heavy ≠ Does not equal knowing how to fight but our altercation wasn’t even any technical all he did was grab my hair rips some strands off and I have no durability whats so ever. Boom multiple strikes to the back of the head and neck their was nothing I could do I am truly a genetic failure after that I was taunted by him I wanted to punch him as hard as I could but I knew it wouldn’t end well for me it’s a different type of humiliation and anger I mean I’m completely outmatched I gained 10lbs and it did nothing my wrist are so fragile and thin I have no durability at all. He beat me in front of my Mom and she said that’s what I get for not fighting back and allowing it how could I ever win my punches do nothing no matter how hard I hit him I am outclassed everytime I am so weak and small I’ve always been fucked up since a kid I want to enter an MMA gym but it will never change the fact I was born weak and fragile with no strength after that I walked off stumbling on my feet I was so dizzy after all I could do is curl up in a ball and beg for him to stop striking my head over and over I am so powerless even on the bus I couldn’t stop a women from being yelled at and verbally abused I was so scared I’ve never stepped up for anyone all I could do is watch I wasn’t born with average strength either usually women are stronger I fucken hate being a Small Thin boned Grotest subhuman with no ability to protect anyone even when I fight back all I do is get beat on I can’t seem to beat someone who’s out of shape and 3 years younger than me i am so Weak and frail physically I quit working out all together and will fucken rope