On losing the "magic" as you grow older

[apocalypse]

It's very difficult.
You realise that when you were younger you had a certain je ne sais quoi underlying all your experiences and making your life regularly feel like dipping into a fairy tale.
Throughout school and university.
This is only clear in hindsight.
Then one day you wake up in your late twentys and you realise you're all out of that "magic" feeling and nothing can bring it out. Not friends, not foids, not hobbys, not music, not films.
Watching films, for example, is a literal spiritual experience when you're a youngcel. Then when you get old you find yourself posting reviews of films on forums and you can't bring yourself to say much other than "it was boring."
There's no point in being alive after 30.
Just a drain on resources that should be given to youngcels.

 

[Debetro]

I wish I could help you

 

[Foreverbrad]

I never had that.
Life has always just been about struggle.
The only difference being over 30 is I’m out of time to execute.
But fundamentally nothing has changed except my ability to cope/hope.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

I don't wanna be that guy, but imagine experiencing that at the age of 19.

I went through the full cycle you described. I was on my self-imrpooooovement at the age of 16 to 17, before realizing its a huge scam. No self improvement for your genes.

You describe uni as being a happy part of your life, but I am in the first year and - nothing. I made no new friends, no new... anything really.

And I truly doubt its gonna get better. Hs was the end, and even then I was depressed, but now its 1000 times worse.

The last time I was happy was when I was delusional in 2022, which was just a happy period; the last time I was actually fully happy was when I was like... 12? 13?

 

[nuisance]

Life was always shit, but I had more people by my side at least to cope

 

[Saint Casanova]

I don't wanna be that guy, but imagine experiencing that at the age of 19.

I went through the full cycle you described. I was on my self-imrpooooovement at the age of 16 to 17, before realizing its a huge scam. No self improvement for your genes.

You describe uni as being a happy part of your life, but I am in the first year and - nothing. I made no new friends, no new... anything really.

And I truly doubt its gonna get better. Hs was the end, and even then I was depressed, but now its 1000 times worse.

The last time I was happy was when I was delusional in 2022, which was just a happy period; the last time I was actually fully happy was when I was like... 12? 13?

Brutal, it just never begins for some people

 

[Saint Casanova]

It's very difficult.
You realise that when you were younger you had a certain je ne sais quoi underlying all your experiences and making your life regularly feel like dipping into a fairy tale.
Throughout school and university.
This is only clear in hindsight.
Then one day you wake up in your late twentys and you realise you're all out of that "magic" feeling and nothing can bring it out. Not friends, not foids, not hobbys, not music, not films.
Watching films, for example, is a literal spiritual experience when you're a youngcel. Then when you get old you find yourself posting reviews of films on forums and you can't bring yourself to say much other than "it was boring."
There's no point in being alive after 30.
Just a drain on resources that should be given to youngcels.

100 percent true and this is the most brutal pill. Maybe having your own children brings some of that back though.

 

[PARISIEN]

dont tell them !!

 

[apocalypse]

100 percent true and this is the most brutal pill. Maybe having your own children brings some of that back though.

Brutal because that will never happen to me.
I can't give my resources to some skank who had her "hoe phase" in teens and twentys, but wouldn't have deemed me worth of spitting on when we were 18.
I just can't.

 

[Daddy's Home]

Life ends at age 14 when you start to understand things, instead of just experiencing them as you've been doing so far..
It's also the moment when the equality between people disappears.. you are no longer little kids who all look roughly the same, regardless of what your parents look like, and you all have exactly the same hobbies (cartoons, drawing shit and playing with toys)

But you start to look different, develop differently, some smaller, some bigger, some sicker, some healthier, some prettier, some uglier, some dumber, some smarter, etc., all these traits coming strictly from your parents, and you have 0 control over them..

You also begin to develop different personalities, which make you different people, and which will dictate how you relate to life, reflecting in potential failure, or success..

From here everything obvious can only go downhill as you begin to understand more and more things, because the entire reality and life will relate to you strictly according to these characteristics you acquire..

 

[apocalypse]

Life ends at age 14 when you start to understand things, instead of just experiencing them as you've been doing so far..
It's also the moment when the equality between people disappears.. you are no longer little kids who all look roughly the same, regardless of what your parents look like, and you all have exactly the same hobbies (cartoons, drawing shit and playing with toys)
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But you start to look different, develop differently, some smaller, some bigger, some sicker, some healthier, some prettier, some uglier, some dumber, some smarter, etc., all these traits coming strictly from your parents, and you have 0 control over them..
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You also begin to develop different personalities, which make you different people, and which will dictate how you relate to life, reflecting in potential failure, or success..
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From here everything obvious can only go downhill as you begin to understand more and more things, because the entire reality and life will relate to you strictly according to these characteristics you acquire..

All that shit happened to me at like 11 and I've been tormented since then lacrimating frequently and begging God for help.
My childhood and adolescence was suffering.
And still I miss it like you wouldn't believe

 

[apocalypse]

Bump

 

[TalesFromTheSlums]

Just take LSD every now and then to kidmaxx again.

 

[apocalypse]

Just take LSD every now and then to kidmaxx again.

I’m afraid of it
Everyone I know irl who took it went full retard

 

[Clown Show]

Playing video games or watching movies as a youngcel was indeed an almost psychedelic experience...

 

[zemult]

Playing video games or watching movies as a youngcel was indeed an almost psychedelic experience...

it is at any age. Let's be real now. Video games at least are designed to keep you constantly engaged and never click off.

 

[Clown Show]

it is at any age. Let's be real now. Video games at least are designed to keep you constantly engaged and never click off.

Maybe that's also true, when I look at younger generations, they are already fried and desentisized because of social media and internet and also garbage games, entertainment, etc.

 

[Clown Show]

Only slut like this can bring back my dopamine levels to normal:

 

[zemult]

It's very difficult.
You realise that when you were younger you had a certain je ne sais quoi underlying all your experiences and making your life regularly feel like dipping into a fairy tale.
Throughout school and university.
This is only clear in hindsight.
Then one day you wake up in your late twentys and you realise you're all out of that "magic" feeling and nothing can bring it out. Not friends, not foids, not hobbys, not music, not films.
Watching films, for example, is a literal spiritual experience when you're a youngcel. Then when you get old you find yourself posting reviews of films on forums and you can't bring yourself to say much other than "it was boring."
There's no point in being alive after 30.
Just a drain on resources that should be given to youngcels.

From my perspective, "magic" isn't the best way to explain this. Simply put, when you experience genuinely new things, you feel excitement and joy that you've never felt before. Experiences like your first video game, first best friends, first time you thought a girl liked you, etc.. It installs memories in your mind that you'll never forget, and you'll always look back at them.

Past a point though as you grow older, the amount of new experiences you can genuinely have start to dwindle. This causes time to feel like it's passing you by quickly compared to your youth.

Why does this happen though? Obviously, you are way more experienced than you were in your youth, less things are new, that is unavoidable. But is that the full reason?

A lot of users here are stuck doing wageslaving jobs, which do genuinely hinder how fulfilled you perceive your life as, and fucks with your time management. Some genuinely have poor genetics that hinder their intelligence or attractiveness, and they won't be able to reach certain social milestones that their peers already have. The others are just autistic or hardcore rotters, low conscientiousness, unwilling to try and experience new things.

TLDR Life is shit sorta

 

[zemult]

Only slut like this can bring back my dopamine levels to normal:

In our wildest dreams

 

[Newday*V3]

Just take LSD every now and then to kidmaxx again.

Is this true? for me every single little thing I do and feel looks like this gif

 

[overthinkinghooper]

I don't wanna be that guy, but imagine experiencing that at the age of 19.

I went through the full cycle you described. I was on my self-imrpooooovement at the age of 16 to 17, before realizing its a huge scam. No self improvement for your genes.

You describe uni as being a happy part of your life, but I am in the first year and - nothing. I made no new friends, no new... anything really.

And I truly doubt its gonna get better. Hs was the end, and even then I was depressed, but now its 1000 times worse.

The last time I was happy was when I was delusional in 2022, which was just a happy period; the last time I was actually fully happy was when I was like... 12? 13?

ignorance is bliss

 

[TigranTheGreat]

it’s not normal to feel like this regardless of your age

please get a blood test done and check for everything. check cortisol and testosterone. check all your hormones and vitamin d especially. It’s SAD season now

after you verify everything is biologically okay fix your gut health. cut out all processed things and vices including drugs.

take some walks in nature

i have a feeling your problem is psychological

separate yourself from this unatural system and break the limitations you set on your own mind

life should always feel like an aesthetic dream

pure euphoria

they’re making it much more difficult to feel like this but you can overcome it

 

[looksmaxxed]

It's very difficult.
You realise that when you were younger you had a certain je ne sais quoi underlying all your experiences and making your life regularly feel like dipping into a fairy tale.
Throughout school and university.
This is only clear in hindsight.
Then one day you wake up in your late twentys and you realise you're all out of that "magic" feeling and nothing can bring it out. Not friends, not foids, not hobbys, not music, not films.
Watching films, for example, is a literal spiritual experience when you're a youngcel. Then when you get old you find yourself posting reviews of films on forums and you can't bring yourself to say much other than "it was boring."
There's no point in being alive after 30.
Just a drain on resources that should be given to youngcels.

i'm 54. literally the only thing keeping me going is the hope of seeing jews being impaled via their anuses lining the road to washington dc

 

[apocalypse]

Only slut like this can bring back my dopamine levels to normal:

There's still hope for you. That video does nothing for me ngl.

 

[LKSMAXPerson]

It's very difficult.
You realise that when you were younger you had a certain je ne sais quoi underlying all your experiences and making your life regularly feel like dipping into a fairy tale.
Throughout school and university.
This is only clear in hindsight.
Then one day you wake up in your late twentys and you realise you're all out of that "magic" feeling and nothing can bring it out. Not friends, not foids, not hobbys, not music, not films.
Watching films, for example, is a literal spiritual experience when you're a youngcel. Then when you get old you find yourself posting reviews of films on forums and you can't bring yourself to say much other than "it was boring."
There's no point in being alive after 30.
Just a drain on resources that should be given to youngcels.

Been feeling like this since the age of 8.

 

[apocalypse]

Been feeling like this since the age of 8.

No you haven't.

 

[LKSMAXPerson]

No you haven't.

My life is the same story with random encounters once in a while

 

[HeavyMetalcel]

I don't wanna be that guy, but imagine experiencing that at the age of 19.

I went through the full cycle you described. I was on my self-imrpooooovement at the age of 16 to 17, before realizing its a huge scam. No self improvement for your genes.

You describe uni as being a happy part of your life, but I am in the first year and - nothing. I made no new friends, no new... anything really.

And I truly doubt its gonna get better. Hs was the end, and even then I was depressed, but now its 1000 times worse.

The last time I was happy was when I was delusional in 2022, which was just a happy period; the last time I was actually fully happy was when I was like... 12? 13?

You're essentially like me dude, I know that feel

it sucks since we are young but it feels like it's already over