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It's hard to make direct comparisons when it comes to pre and post surgery treatment from people if you're basing it off strangers meaning you're getting reactions to your looks from different sets of strangers pre and post surgery while factoring in that your mindset and motivation can change in that time, the locations you frequent can change in that time and people's typical behaviour can change in that time (nothing being more drastic than the change in human social behaviour pre and post 2020)
I am at peace with walking through the city to do my shopping and walking home and not have a single person look at me
I am at peace with my looks level now and don't feel any need for my looks to be recognized whereas I desired recognition pre surgery
When walking through a busy area full of oldcels and kids and no foids of prime reproductive age I just consider it normal to walk through as quickly as possible in invisible mode.
When I first started occasionally going out in public in a city post surgery (rare since I was in countryside for months) I noticed better looking foids would look at me for longer than they used to before surgery
However now I don't even notice any difference in this regard since I can no longer remember how uncommon it was for goodlooking foids to look at me pre surgery, I've just adapted to the new bassline level of looks I get from foids and it feels no different since it's meaningless and they'll never initiate an interaction
Today I was walking to the shop and in the usual mindset where I just want to get back home asap without necessarily wanting to be seen since just being seen by other humans is draining for me, hence why I gymcel at night and enjoy the walk on empty streets
Anyway I noticed some foid walking towards me acknowledged my existence and was smiling while looking towards me and that kind of shit happens now and again and even though I recognize it as an exclusively post surgery occurrence, I've lost the frame of reference for how it feels to walk around for a month with my pre surgery face meaning these instances don't trigger anything in me now since my actual concrete results with foids are as low as they've ever been
(I go into details in other threads on how girls are actually more hesitant when I pursue them now, cba rehashing it)
If I basically adapted to these post surgery smiles and looks I get from foids and see it as a new baseline despite knowing it wasn't like this pre surgery, this just goes to show how much you see your current treatment as "normal" and unnoteworthy and meaningless.
This leads me to think that there might be some top Moggers out there who just developed their looks during puberty and never took any action to ascend who do not see extremely receptive behaviour from foids who are strangers to them as being anything noteworthy or even proof that they're very attractive.
I can honestly see it being possible for some moggers who don't have the best social connections to question their attractiveness and think they're less attractive than they are despite receptive attention from random foids if this attention is just in passing and they take it as being generally friendly if foids never make an actual direct move on them
I am at peace with walking through the city to do my shopping and walking home and not have a single person look at me
I am at peace with my looks level now and don't feel any need for my looks to be recognized whereas I desired recognition pre surgery
When walking through a busy area full of oldcels and kids and no foids of prime reproductive age I just consider it normal to walk through as quickly as possible in invisible mode.
When I first started occasionally going out in public in a city post surgery (rare since I was in countryside for months) I noticed better looking foids would look at me for longer than they used to before surgery
However now I don't even notice any difference in this regard since I can no longer remember how uncommon it was for goodlooking foids to look at me pre surgery, I've just adapted to the new bassline level of looks I get from foids and it feels no different since it's meaningless and they'll never initiate an interaction
Today I was walking to the shop and in the usual mindset where I just want to get back home asap without necessarily wanting to be seen since just being seen by other humans is draining for me, hence why I gymcel at night and enjoy the walk on empty streets
Anyway I noticed some foid walking towards me acknowledged my existence and was smiling while looking towards me and that kind of shit happens now and again and even though I recognize it as an exclusively post surgery occurrence, I've lost the frame of reference for how it feels to walk around for a month with my pre surgery face meaning these instances don't trigger anything in me now since my actual concrete results with foids are as low as they've ever been
(I go into details in other threads on how girls are actually more hesitant when I pursue them now, cba rehashing it)
If I basically adapted to these post surgery smiles and looks I get from foids and see it as a new baseline despite knowing it wasn't like this pre surgery, this just goes to show how much you see your current treatment as "normal" and unnoteworthy and meaningless.
This leads me to think that there might be some top Moggers out there who just developed their looks during puberty and never took any action to ascend who do not see extremely receptive behaviour from foids who are strangers to them as being anything noteworthy or even proof that they're very attractive.
I can honestly see it being possible for some moggers who don't have the best social connections to question their attractiveness and think they're less attractive than they are despite receptive attention from random foids if this attention is just in passing and they take it as being generally friendly if foids never make an actual direct move on them
