TheVoidInside
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which is why you follow where the "dark" people lead. the reason i was and still am so enamored with that oneitis bitch is because she is ambitious. she wanted to move to a big city, do a postgraduate and spread her wings, more sex, more partners, more travelling, more experiences, more followers, more knowledge, more growth. "more" is her thing.
and i was already too far gone when i met her. "more" was the only way to go for me at that point and she pressed those buttons:
"PhD? Thats so cool. You so much worthier than most academics i know. You go got this tehehe!"
"Jazz music? Woah. It takes lots of talent to play that. Did you practice your scales today?"
She always said exactly what i wanted to hear and always agreed with me. Meanwhile my old oneitis tried to stop me from doing these things. She had no ambitions, she was much more grounded and all she wanted was financial stability.
And she knew i was like her on the inside. She wasnt super smart and neither am I. She knew that i was a lonely incel and that my passions were just stuff i did out of insecurity. But i didnt like her words, i wanted "more". More sex, more status, more ambition.
Now im alone stuck in a cycle of constantly getting "more". If i could give everything up to be with her, id do it, even if it meant putting up with her bitchy attitude every day. Sadly this isnt an option. May as well keep simping for the oneitis whore because it seems like i was "following" her waaay before i even met her.
and i was already too far gone when i met her. "more" was the only way to go for me at that point and she pressed those buttons:
"PhD? Thats so cool. You so much worthier than most academics i know. You go got this tehehe!"
"Jazz music? Woah. It takes lots of talent to play that. Did you practice your scales today?"
She always said exactly what i wanted to hear and always agreed with me. Meanwhile my old oneitis tried to stop me from doing these things. She had no ambitions, she was much more grounded and all she wanted was financial stability.
And she knew i was like her on the inside. She wasnt super smart and neither am I. She knew that i was a lonely incel and that my passions were just stuff i did out of insecurity. But i didnt like her words, i wanted "more". More sex, more status, more ambition.
Now im alone stuck in a cycle of constantly getting "more". If i could give everything up to be with her, id do it, even if it meant putting up with her bitchy attitude every day. Sadly this isnt an option. May as well keep simping for the oneitis whore because it seems like i was "following" her waaay before i even met her.
