one day after another

[PeakIncels]

day after day i realize how wrong i truly am, I'm not supposed to be alive, even my own body is telling me that, out of place completely

this society is so fucked up, you aren't a person, your a slave, work for 60 years, then be thrown away​

people are worse, I'm a doormat, or at least I think so.
hate is dominant, porn, fetishes, that's what most conversations go like, all about that, or making weird jokes


I don't have friends, my only online one ghosted me, for 0 reason, he was important to me and without, i feel lost, but i didn't make a big deal out of it, because i understand, getting bored or his urges, it's fine to leave, if you need to, i still miss him a lot

everything else is just, idk, i don't really speak to my parents anymore, just very, very quick responses from me or them, and that's it, but only because we live in the same house, no further details because icba

I've always thought life was meaningless, and for me, it still is, do everything you enjoy, but nothing is enjoyable anymore, I hate this, i hate it all

next week I'll be hospitalized again, I'll undergo a new therapy, fpt, but i got it, i do, it's all bs, i won't get better

I wonder how normies are happy and energetic, I can't even get out of my own bed alone anymore

i have been on antidepressants, for a few months, specifically, citalopram, didn't help a lot

i just don't know, I im lost, sometimes i wish there was someone just to tell me I'm proud of you or something, that's so corny lol, but it would make me a little happier, less lonely, ahh

it has gotten so bad i stopped sh, i don't care anymore about it, i keep fantasizing about me having a disease, being in the hospital and knowing my death date but just accepting it, waiting for it.
it's a thought that keeps haunting me, i don't want to speak about the fake scenarios in my mind, that's the only entertainment i have rn, just thinking of random bs


the only friends rn that i have and speak more is @greycel @trench @loyolaxavvierretard but once i turn the phone off, it's really empty

 

[PeakIncels]

"let me rot in your ams"
"can you feed me?"

 

[ShowerCelling]

day after day i realize how wrong i truly am, I'm not supposed to be alive, even my own body is telling me that, out of place completely

this society is so fucked up, you aren't a person, your a slave, work for 60 years, then be thrown away

people are worse, I'm a doormat, or at least I think so, hate is dominant, porn, fetishes, that's what most conversations go like, all about that, or making weird jokes


I don't have friends, my only online one ghosted me, for 0 reason, he was important to me and without, i feel lost, but i didn't make a big deal out of it, because i understand, getting bored or his urges, it's fine to leave, if you need to, i still miss him a lot

everything else is just, idk, i don't really speak to my parents anymore, just very, very quick responses from me or them, and that's it, but only because we live in the same house, no further details because icba

I've always thought life was meaningless, and for me, it still is, do everything you enjoy, but nothing is enjoyable anymore, I hate this, i hate it all

next week I'll be hospitalized again, I'll undergo a new therapy, fpt, but i got it, i do, it's all bs, i won't get better

I wonder how normies are happy and energetic, I can't even get out of my own bed alone anymore

i have been on antidepressants, for a few months, specifically, citalopram, didn't help a lot

i just don't know, I im losr, sometimes i wish there was someone just to tell me I'm proud of you or something, that's so corny lol, but it would make me a little happier, less lonely, ahh

the only friends rn that i have and speak more is @greycel @trench @loyolaxavvierretard but once i get out of the forum, it's really empty

 

[PeakIncels]

delusional

 

[PeakIncels]

@Shrek2OnDvD what would you do in this scenario(I'm using you as a bump, sorry :<)

 

[PeakIncels]

i feel so sick

 

[Shrek2OnDvD]

@Shrek2OnDvD what would you do in this scenario(I'm using you as a bump, sorry :<)

No worries fren,

You’re right. Life sucks and I can relate to what you feel. You’re not alone

I don’t have a magical solution because everyone is different but I slowly got better when I came to accept my situation and fate. There’s no point getting upset or crying over something you have no control over

I try to live in the moment and have fun. I don’t take life so seriously anymore. I’m not gonna live long anyway (I’m gonna die young most likely)

 

[warmth]

day after day i realize how wrong i truly am, I'm not supposed to be alive, even my own body is telling me that, out of place completely

this society is so fucked up, you aren't a person, your a slave, work for 60 years, then be thrown away

people are worse, I'm a doormat, or at least I think so, hate is dominant, porn, fetishes, that's what most conversations go like, all about that, or making weird jokes


I don't have friends, my only online one ghosted me, for 0 reason, he was important to me and without, i feel lost, but i didn't make a big deal out of it, because i understand, getting bored or his urges, it's fine to leave, if you need to, i still miss him a lot

everything else is just, idk, i don't really speak to my parents anymore, just very, very quick responses from me or them, and that's it, but only because we live in the same house, no further details because icba

I've always thought life was meaningless, and for me, it still is, do everything you enjoy, but nothing is enjoyable anymore, I hate this, i hate it all

next week I'll be hospitalized again, I'll undergo a new therapy, fpt, but i got it, i do, it's all bs, i won't get better

I wonder how normies are happy and energetic, I can't even get out of my own bed alone anymore

i have been on antidepressants, for a few months, specifically, citalopram, didn't help a lot

i just don't know, I im losr, sometimes i wish there was someone just to tell me I'm proud of you or something, that's so corny lol, but it would make me a little happier, less lonely, ahh

it has gotten so bad i stopped sh, i don't care anymore about it, i keep fantasizing about me having a disease, being in the hospital and knowing my death date but just accepting it, waiting for it, it's a thought that keeps haunting me, i don't want to speak about the fake scenarios in my mind, that's the only entertainment i have rn, just thinking of random bs


the only friends rn that i have and speak more is @greycel @trench @loyolaxavvierretard but once i get out of the forum, it's really empty

you are my friend

 

[PeakIncels]

you are my friend

the moment i turn my phone off, i can't help you, or you help me anymore, but still,

 

[PeakIncels]

I

you are my friend

updated the thread so it's more readable

 

[warmth]

the moment i turn my phone off, i can't help you, or you help me anymore, but still,

its not very different from friends in the real world. because you can only be helped as much as you allow yourself to receive it

 

[warmth]

its not very different from friends in the real world. because you can only be helped as much as you allow yourself to receive it

this is from someone who would be considered a popular kid by any metric, i've had multiple friends during my entire life. trust me, it seems very different but it's not. we only show what we want people to see, and only allow people to get as closer as we want them to be, in both scenarios.

 

[PeakIncels]

its not very different from friends in the real world. because you can only be helped as much as you allow yourself to receive it

I don't want others to get in my situation, tbh, I just vent here because i have nowhere to go

 

[PeakIncels]

this is from someone who would be considered a popular kid by any metric, i've had multiple friends during my entire life. trust me, it seems very different but it's not. we only show what we want people to see, and only allow people to get as closer as we want them to be, in both scenarios.

im just so tired of everything, back and forth nothing gets better, i don't know anymore