iblameropemaxxing
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Who else feels like there is no reason to be alive. Living is Pain. Theres not a single day in my life where i feel like i belong and dont want to Rope. I could never bring that up to anyone, if i told my parents of BP they would legit send me to arkham asylum, cuz to think looks are the most important i got to be insane. They would also say shit that i am perfect the way i are.
But if i would be perfect then why is noone interested in me at all, i am in incompetent when it comes to social interaction, i cant make friends, im not taken seriously, when i talk i get interupted, im treated different than others just dependent of my apperance, i think its to late, the damage is done, i will never be able to make social interaction, just hearing peple talk about their fucking normie life makes me wanna rope, its so fucking exhausting, why cant i not be normal, why does social interaction have to feel like the hardest thing there is in this world.
Today i woke up and had dreamt again of a fucking normal life, where people think im interesting and human, not this piece of shit. I then layed in bed till 3pm just trying to sleep and go back to the dream life where im treated as a fucking person.
Am i the one that choose who i am, How can i choose again, I just want it all to stop. My parents often ask if i dont have any goals in life, I cant be honest and say that i dont, i just want it all to just stop. And the only way for that to happen is to make life stop..
Just a rant had to get this shit of my chest.
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But if i would be perfect then why is noone interested in me at all, i am in incompetent when it comes to social interaction, i cant make friends, im not taken seriously, when i talk i get interupted, im treated different than others just dependent of my apperance, i think its to late, the damage is done, i will never be able to make social interaction, just hearing peple talk about their fucking normie life makes me wanna rope, its so fucking exhausting, why cant i not be normal, why does social interaction have to feel like the hardest thing there is in this world.
Today i woke up and had dreamt again of a fucking normal life, where people think im interesting and human, not this piece of shit. I then layed in bed till 3pm just trying to sleep and go back to the dream life where im treated as a fucking person.
Am i the one that choose who i am, How can i choose again, I just want it all to stop. My parents often ask if i dont have any goals in life, I cant be honest and say that i dont, i just want it all to just stop. And the only way for that to happen is to make life stop..
Just a rant had to get this shit of my chest.
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