this is not funny my life is destroyed i genuinely have given up in life and feel hopeless no one can help me my parents just try to give me joo meds . i was in a ward . now i am not able to do school i cant focus and feel devasted hopeless and overwhelemd
fuck hamza . WHITE POWER
I'm sorry. But try to seek professional help before this gets out of hand.
professionals profit off the problem . its all by design
If that's what you'd like to think then I can't stop you but consider that you may just be paranoid, like you said, and that this is all a condition you've found yourself in.
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thing is my life has never been normal so its not like this is new . ive been mentally ill and suicidal since forever . if it was new problem i could see a way out but from myperspective it is hopeless
It doesn't have to be your life forever, but you need to find help in order for that to be true. Maybe there is something wrong with your brain.
yeah obvsiously theres something wrong with my brain
You're a smart guy, you should know that there are some good people in this world even if a few that are willing to help you. You are not a disease, you can be fixed if you find out what is wrong with you.
true but i am a Racial disease and my development was diseased from Vaccines and other things
everything that existed is a factor to what i am now . many bad events in my life , but most were results of my mental disease soits a viscious cycle
except my life is always like that with no drugs and i feel more neurotic . ive never even done drugs my own brain is a drug
already eat mostly carb it not fix anything infact starch make me feel more gay so i eat sugar only
Well then consider this a wake up call. If what your future holds is really predetermined as you claim, then you might as well see me telling you that there's hope as a sign that you are not a lost cause.
I was like that when i was young but i distracted myself, it’s best to just accept it and face reality. I had extremely bad anxiety when i was younger but you can’t freak out because all your “thoughts” are not your thoughts, fuck this nigga i cant explain this you just have to know what im saying
its not predetermined , its just that i cant escape the trap called (my diseased) life without dying unless i reality shift
i cannot think rationally , if i try i get more paranoid . only philosophy help me cope by minimizeing stress since i do not fear death
bro i am literally feel like im dying right now its over. feel like dream except not cuz i feel pain in my brain
Time to call your local inpatient hotline boyo
If you think like that ofcourse you're never going to see your paranoia go away. You are making a cage for yourself, you're being your own worst enemy right now.
its because youve tapped into the sixth sense and are seing your ancestors
6th sense is proprioception imo but what do u consider the 6th sense ? i consider the 7th sense Theory , schizos like me focus this sense too much . it is impossible to think pragmatic cuz my mind overwhelemed with theory
i have no Trusted relative and have no Friend and Therapist i Hate
You don't have parents?
i am trying to escape actively and that is by writing a story. its my only hope i have right now. i already went down the jew therapy path and it did not help
they are distrusted relatives
i eat raw dairy daily but raw meat jew parasites so i barely eat meat
Stop trying to seek a path that'll only end in your demise, maybe part of the problem is that this "escape" mentality is putting you in a constant fight or flight mode. That is something paranoia does to you, it highers your stress levels and makes you feel as if there's constantly a danger to beware of.
Parasites are good for you, they detox heavy metals from vaccines/toxins in general. I’ve been trying to self induce salmonella or any parasites for this exact reason by eating rotten/spoiled meat and dairy for so long and I still haven’t got any, so it’s not like you’ll get it from eating fresh raw meat
Freewill doesn't control thoughts lol , only actions . Freewill does not choose the cards (thoughts) you draw into your hand (mind); Freewill chooses the cards(actions) you play (do).
Yes that would be a good point but more importantly you need to find someone to talk to. Listen I think therapy is as much BS as the next guy but it is good for people who need to have someone to vent with once every now and then. Because the social seclusion that you find yourself in right now can kill you, it is not healthy for you given what you're dealing with. That's why you need to find someone to talk to about all of this before you end up going crazy.
Do you do any exercise, or do you think that's bad for the anti age stuff you were previously writing about? I think some exercise is good, but it obviously doesn't have to be gym or anything. Just calisthenics at home to get the endorphins flowing.
i dont exercise . infact i must lay down most of the day due to fatigue . but today i did some jumping for 20 seconds
