Parental child-abuse pill

[MoggerGaston]

There is no escaping this pill. They even kicked me out of group-therapy at the ward cuz I was 'too intense' or something jfl.

I am 100% certain I will never have a real relationship. Never have real friends. Never have a real job.

And also I know:

I will die by suicide. This is certain.

 

[R@m@]

You'll reincarnate and have a better life

You'll reincarnate in portugal

 

[MoggerGaston]

You'll reincarnate and have a better life

You'll reincarnate in portugal

Portugal sounds good man.
I just dont think I can handle this life I currently have anymore. It's too painfull.

Not that I feel a lot of pain, but I feel like that's because I am just completely disassociated from reality at this point?
Like I barely feel alive most of the time. I am some sort of empty husk. I am dead on the inside while my body is technically still 'alive', but there is no life in me, there is nothing.

its over man
i just got unlucky, what could I have done differently, realistically? nothing.

 

[R@m@]

Portugal sounds good man.
I just dont think I can handle this life I currently have anymore. It's too painfull.

Not that I feel a lot of pain, but I feel like that's because I am just completely disassociated from reality at this point?
Like I barely feel alive most of the time. I am some sort of empty husk. I am dead on the inside while my body is technically still 'alive', but there is no life in me, there is nothing.

its over man
i just got unlucky, what could I have done differently, realistically? nothing.

Dissociation is really hard

It's better to have a life of coping but you're still aware of your emotions and can feel short moments of happiness than to be a numb rock lost on your mind

 

[MoggerGaston]

Dissociation is really hard

It's better to have a life of coping but you're still aware of your emotions and can feel short moments of happiness than to be a numb rock lost on your mind

Only on hard-drugs and sometimes on alcohol do I feel alive, sometimes. It's not even guaranteed.

This is why I use these drugs. To feel alive, sometimes, a little bit.
Else my life is meaningless as I am not emotionally connected to it.

 

[Vincent Freeman]

 

[R@m@]

Only on hard-drugs and sometimes on alcohol do I feel alive, sometimes. It's not even guaranteed.

This is why I use these drugs. To feel alive, sometimes, a little bit.
Else my life is meaningless as I am not emotionally connected to it.

Just don't get seriously addicted or you'll be even worse, unless your mental state is so bad that you seriously hit bottom Rock and don't care anymore, but if you were really bad you would have killed yourself already

 

[R@m@]

 

[MoggerGaston]

my story is consistent and it's clear why I am here on this forum and what's wrong with me. Thanks for agreeing with this with your broken record picture.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Just don't get seriously addicted or you'll be even worse, unless your mental state is so bad that you seriously hit bottom Rock and don't care anymore, but if you were really bad you would have killed yourself already

im lucky that I have highIQ where I can easily overcome problems like housing/money/health-issues even while being high/drunk 90% of the time.

I think it's one of the few advantages of highIQ. I had a psychiatrist tell me that people with my type of worldview and past are generally homeless junkes and/or in trouble with the law and he found it strange I still live a somewhat 'normal' life, normal living conditions where people IRL could easily mistake me for a normal person.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

There is no escaping this pill. They even kicked me out of group-therapy at the ward cuz I was 'too intense' or something jfl.

I am 100% certain I will never have a real relationship. Never have real friends. Never have a real job.

And also I know:

I will die by suicide. This is certain.

Brutal. I can relate

 

[Snoofy]

aren’t u cl

 

[MoggerGaston]

aren’t u cl

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