Bewusst
dead inside
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My stepbrother will get married in five months, owns an apartment with his fiancée, runs his own company and is studying, my half brother is a doctor, married, has two children and a house, everyone works and lives a normal adult life while I rot and can't even work because of my looks, am houseless and the pressure from the social welfare department and my parents is increasing. I'll have to work - which I'd love to if I wouldn't feel the need to hide from people, at least until looksmaxxed.
I seriously don't know how things are gonna work out in the future but I'll have to find a way because I've been born with the duty to survive. If I wouldn't need food and shelter to survive, I'd probably do nothing. Life can be pretty complicated for ugly aware people. And I don't have high expectations. One is, though, to be able to accept my looks before being exposed to other people which seems impossible non-looksmaxxed. The problem? It requires money I don't have and making money would require me to expose myself to others BEFORE being looksmaxxed. Something I am unable to do without being destroyed mentally.
I seriously don't know how things are gonna work out in the future but I'll have to find a way because I've been born with the duty to survive. If I wouldn't need food and shelter to survive, I'd probably do nothing. Life can be pretty complicated for ugly aware people. And I don't have high expectations. One is, though, to be able to accept my looks before being exposed to other people which seems impossible non-looksmaxxed. The problem? It requires money I don't have and making money would require me to expose myself to others BEFORE being looksmaxxed. Something I am unable to do without being destroyed mentally.