Pessimism and Defeatism is Law

[polonaecel]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

 

[polonaecel]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

@UtterFailureAnd5'5

 

[Plagiarism]

DNR.

 

[Verdam]

@UtterFailureAnd5'5

nigga tagged a dude with 200 posts

 

[polonaecel]

nigga tagged a dude with 200 posts

he seems like he'd agree with my thread

 

[polonaecel]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

Bump, someone please read this

 

[Verdam]

Bump, someone please read this

 

[true_subhuman_here]

Bump, someone please read this

alright
wait I have free will

 

[polonaecel]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

please someone read this, anyone

 

[polonaecel]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

@GonorrhoeaGobbler

 

[Nectar]

Also height > face
Race > face

 

[polonaecel]

Also height > face
Race > face

Not really my point, it doesnt matter at all when you ldar and dont go outside

 

[lnceIs]

I read it


Just become a criminal or something

 

[Atomic344]

 

[Atomic344]

you liked it so fast.. its true just embrace life sucks.. and eat some hot cheddar potato stew...

 

[Atomic344]

Almost always the worst happens to me
and in the world it seems too, the only good things are minor stories maybe involving One person beating cancer, which yes good for them but all it gives you is maybe a good feeling for a few seconds, A meaningless dopamine rush, but in reality you will never experience anything as good as that, its almost impossible to win the lottery in most of our lifetimes
no charity will ever donate to us

Even before i was blackpilled nothing majorly good happened, and even if it did i cant remember it because im shrouded with negativity
the worst things that happened to me outweigh the positives so much that the good things are overshadowed and everything i think about gets clouded with negativity and any good thing seems so minor to me even if it isnt, i mean the only good things is that im alive and in okay living conditions, but those were a guarantee as i was born into this family

Ive tried going to the gym
I used to go 5 times a week for a few months and then switched to 4 and 3
ate sufficient protein for my BW
trained till failure
rested and slept 9 hours plus
and i havent built any muscle and now people laugh at me for being weak and skinny

sure i lost weight which is a positive
but the insults went from fat > skinny
and fat > ugly

Now i learn to accept the worst always happens
i've probably contradicted myself like 15 times in this thread but i dont care because nothing anyone says will change my mindset
im subhuman and kept in subhuman shackles by my mindset

Long story short its OVER
and we need to learn to accept this

how about Jesus. Heaven

 

[polonaecel]

how about Jesus. Heaven

Im still catholic, but I’m scared to go back and face my priest and confessing after not going for a while

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

@UtterFailureAnd5'5

Used to post like that (if you look at my older posts) until I found out noone gives a shit. The thing with the gym. Everyday you go you are 0.01% better. Last 2 years of my life I have over 450 logged trainings. With that logic I'm about 45% better now than I was before. It takes time, and if you expect to see progress after a few months, then you will be disappointed. Key is stoicism, doing it even when you don't see meaningful change, when you want to quit. Because that brings change.

Im still catholic, but I’m scared to go back and face my priest and confessing after not going for a while

As for this, I'm not a man of faith but I know most will accept you back. It's not his place to judge.

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

he seems like he'd agree with my thread

Alot is over, alot cannot be changed. But other stuff just takes time.

 

[polonaecel]

Used to post like that (if you look at my older posts) until I found out noone gives a shit.

im aware i just wanted to let my thoughts out

The thing with the gym. Everyday you go you are 0.01% better. Last 2 years of my life I have over 450 logged trainings. With that logic I'm about 45% better now than I was before. It takes time, and if you expect to see progress after a few months, then you will be disappointed. Key is stoicism, doing it even when you don't see meaningful change, when you want to quit. Because that brings change.

its hard when people irl are still surprised you havent made progress, ill get back to it after my exams end and atleast try

As for this, I'm not a man of faith but I know most will accept you back. It's not his place to judge.

i know, but im still scraed i dont know why

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

im aware i just wanted to let my thoughts out

Real. This is one of the only places where people from the real world cannot trace my posts back to me. It's freeing knowing I can sometimes find someone who agrees or knows what I'm experiencing. There's also the DNR spammers but fuck them

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

its hard when people irl are still surprised you havent made progress, ill get back to it after my exams end and atleast try

Shawn Ray on Dorian Yates in an interview or whatever. "I was in the shadow of a shadow" and after that "he was the reason I was getting out of bed everyday". You need to chase it. Its painful. It takes time. But progress will come as long as you lift consistently. Use yourself as your own motivation. Not some other dudes. Yourself. Be a better version of yourself everyday. At some point, the gym became a ritual and addiction instead of a hobby. I go to the gym to process emotion, or lack thereof. I forget everything for an hour and a half and everything seems peaceful.

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

im aware i just wanted to let my thoughts out

its hard when people irl are still surprised you havent made progress, ill get back to it after my exams end and atleast try

i know, but im still scraed i dont know why

Also, don't wait. Go tomorrow. Maybe even tonight. Don't put it off.

 

[polonaecel]

Shawn Ray on Dorian Yates in an interview or whatever. "I was in the shadow of a shadow" and after that "he was the reason I was getting out of bed everyday". You need to chase it. Its painful. It takes time. But progress will come as long as you lift consistently. Use yourself as your own motivation. Not some other dudes. Yourself. Be a better version of yourself everyday. At some point, the gym became a ritual and addiction instead of a hobby. I go to the gym to process emotion, or lack thereof. I forget everything for an hour and a half and everything seems peaceful.

Every tim i try to go the thought of me making no progress for so long demoitvates me and i end up depressed

 

[UtterFailureAnd5'5]

Every tim i try to go the thought of me making no progress for so long demoitvates me and i end up depressed

Push through it. Motivation makes you start. Discipline makes you remain.

My first year in I was close to quitting. I started skipping more and more. But when I continued going even though I didn't want to, my brain understood it must be done. And it got easier.