Pre Ascension Flashbacks

[RealNinja]

I saw a TikTok of some teenagers playing around in class, having fun and laughing, and out of nowhere, years of memories hit me. The familiar feeling of alienation came back in the pit of my stomach. Again I felt like the fat ugly fuck who was never part of the group, always on the outside looking in, since 1st grade or earlier.

Now I’m in college, and those same people from my hometown ask me for gym advice or say “Bro you look like the gigachad meme!1” when they meet me again. It’s hard not to feel bitter.

If you live this experience, you understand the blackpill fully, in a way that goes beyond sex or dating. Being undesirable and ostracized in your formative years can damage your psyche in a brvtal way. When you grow up and fix your looks you still often feel that same sense of alienation when people inevitably realize that you are not like them under the surface.

 

[Just_a_maxxer]

Bump

 

[julioo27_]

brutal, i get that feeling, from being that autistic teen in your friend group that gets literally no girls to surpassing most of your friends bc and make-out count in just two years, but for me, it aint enough, the 6s of today will be the 4s of tomorrow, there is still a very long road for me