Realizing im probably never gonna be anybodies first

[terrafuark]

I really don't have much to say on this thread besides the fact that I am coming to terms with the fact I'm never gonna be anybodies first love. I'm never gonna be special to someone, if I ever get in a relationship in the first place. I don't really know what lead me here, I know its probably the fact that I'm ugly, but sometimes I do really wonder if its my fault at all. I came to this website to try to become normal looking enough for anybody to actually show interest with me but clearly its over for my subhuman troglodye self. I'm just gonna gymcel for the rest of my life, even though I originally started because I was overweight and subhuman, I'm just not overweight and a little less subhuman now. At least I got a nice hobby out of it. Probably gonna be my last thread for a while if any other threads ever drop. Sorry if this was edgy, but I just cant cope with the fact that I'm about to graduate highschool and I've never got to feel teenage love. Hopefully things get better. Good luck to the rest of you boyos.