SharpOrange
LTN final boss
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My husband 32 M and I 27 F used to have an absolutey amazing sex life and relationship. He was genuinely the best in bed I've ever had, and I felt so happy and fulfilled. We've been together for 5 years now, and over the past year he's been getting more and more obsessed with reddit, and bbc porn. He's been very active in communities such as bbc and bnwo (you get the idea). Since he started looking at this stuff he began purposefully having sex with me really badly. He made no effort to pleasure me and please me, and his style of sex completely changed. He almost started pretending he was incompetent at sex. He then started asking if we could watch bbc porn while having sex, and he'd purposefully face me away from him and towards the screen, while really badly fucking me from behind, saying things like "I wish I could fuck you like that". Forgetting of course that I know how well he can, he's just choosing not to because it gets him off. Which is strange because since being obsessed with all this stuff he can hardly stay hard.
After putting up with this for a few weeks I broke down in tears. I told him I felt so confused by what was happening. His reply: I can't give you what you need, I'm incompetent and you need a superior man, a bbc to give you what you need. I feel like screaming!!!
As a result of this, we didn't have sex for a month or so. Every time he tried to touch me I felt so disgusting. The other day he approached me and we started having sex, but after a few minutes he said "do you want me to go down on you while you watch a bnwo video?" I burst into tears. I told him that I want HIM, how he used to be. I want to feel like he wants to pleasure me, I want to feel beautiful and wanted, and I want to see my partner as the strong and confident lover he always used to be.
As if I didn't think it could get any worse, he saw this as the perfect opportunity to pull out his phone, and show me that he has downloaded several dating apps, with personal pictures of me, underwear pictures i have sent him, AND my face. The profile states I am looking to meet a bbc regularly for fun. He was excitedly showing me multiple men who have sent pictures of their dicks, and want to meet. He's been having chats with them, posing as me; Despite me never expressing any want for this, and actually actively discouraging it, and making it clear this isn't what I want, nor do I feel comfortable with any of this at all. I feel completely broken and humiliated. He seemed so pleased with himself. He even said "after all we've spoken about i really want you to get what you need". I feel violated and he can't see this as anything other than a positive thing, he seems almost brainwashed! And i feel like I've made it abundantly clear this is NOT what I want! Why is he ignoring me?
Is this salvageable? Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Aside from sex we have a great relationship and we are incredibly compatible in literally every single other way, and we used to be so sexually compatible too. My trust has been broken, my heart feels crushed. I don't know what do do from here. I dont know what to say to get through to him. Please any advice would be appreciated!
After putting up with this for a few weeks I broke down in tears. I told him I felt so confused by what was happening. His reply: I can't give you what you need, I'm incompetent and you need a superior man, a bbc to give you what you need. I feel like screaming!!!
As a result of this, we didn't have sex for a month or so. Every time he tried to touch me I felt so disgusting. The other day he approached me and we started having sex, but after a few minutes he said "do you want me to go down on you while you watch a bnwo video?" I burst into tears. I told him that I want HIM, how he used to be. I want to feel like he wants to pleasure me, I want to feel beautiful and wanted, and I want to see my partner as the strong and confident lover he always used to be.
As if I didn't think it could get any worse, he saw this as the perfect opportunity to pull out his phone, and show me that he has downloaded several dating apps, with personal pictures of me, underwear pictures i have sent him, AND my face. The profile states I am looking to meet a bbc regularly for fun. He was excitedly showing me multiple men who have sent pictures of their dicks, and want to meet. He's been having chats with them, posing as me; Despite me never expressing any want for this, and actually actively discouraging it, and making it clear this isn't what I want, nor do I feel comfortable with any of this at all. I feel completely broken and humiliated. He seemed so pleased with himself. He even said "after all we've spoken about i really want you to get what you need". I feel violated and he can't see this as anything other than a positive thing, he seems almost brainwashed! And i feel like I've made it abundantly clear this is NOT what I want! Why is he ignoring me?
Is this salvageable? Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Aside from sex we have a great relationship and we are incredibly compatible in literally every single other way, and we used to be so sexually compatible too. My trust has been broken, my heart feels crushed. I don't know what do do from here. I dont know what to say to get through to him. Please any advice would be appreciated!
