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to get over my itis. I SERVED in special forces for 9 monts. I have done it all. Prisoner simulation, hiking in the mountain with a machine gun on my back and a 30kg backpack, Living in the wilderness and fighting wild animals. I have killed 3 wolves, 1 bear and 9 snakes. They would throw us in contaminated water filled with literal shit and have us there for HOURS. 1 time i fucked up and they had me tied up on a tree under the sun for 1 day (that was in summer btw), i nearly died from dehydration that day.
All of this did absolutaely NOTHING. Even an officer said that im a lost cause. "no matter what we do with you, you will alwasy be an oversensitve gentle faggot". Instead of getting over her all this shit just made the void even bigger. There hasnt been a day when I didnt wish that I had her belittle me and treat me like shit. I would have happily taken that over not seeing her again. Because at least, when she did at, she was there in person. It was real. Other times, i wished i had her instagram and be able to keep in touch with her even if that meant seeing her pics with chad and the baby.
I tried, i tried a lot. But some things cant be fixed sadly. Because i suffer from legit metnal retardation, im 27 and still have a 15 year old's brain. My parents knew about this but they were too proud to send me to a special school. look at the result.
All of this did absolutaely NOTHING. Even an officer said that im a lost cause. "no matter what we do with you, you will alwasy be an oversensitve gentle faggot". Instead of getting over her all this shit just made the void even bigger. There hasnt been a day when I didnt wish that I had her belittle me and treat me like shit. I would have happily taken that over not seeing her again. Because at least, when she did at, she was there in person. It was real. Other times, i wished i had her instagram and be able to keep in touch with her even if that meant seeing her pics with chad and the baby.
I tried, i tried a lot. But some things cant be fixed sadly. Because i suffer from legit metnal retardation, im 27 and still have a 15 year old's brain. My parents knew about this but they were too proud to send me to a special school. look at the result.
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