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Part 1: Developing an addiction
~2yrs back when I was 16-17, I ordered some DMAA-enhanced prewo from this shady little supplement site. I say shady b/c DMAA had already been banned @this time, however, the supplements were genuine. I remember using APS mesomorph and some Hi-Tech pharma brand ones.
Soon as I took that first dose... GODDAYUM... a sense euphoria and focus so great that i can't even put it into words.
Every time I took that full 50mg worth of Dose, i felt like I was total kingshit and could conquer the entire world, let alone just my workouts. So being the addiction-prone person that I am, I was hooked.
I took it for months on end, every single workout, and sometimes even as a replacement for a cup of coffee in the morning.
MY ENTIRE PERSONALITY CHANGED.. EVEN OUTSIDE THE GYM.. I WAS CONFIDENT/ ARROGANT TO ROID RAGE TIER LEVELS. Thinking you're a god for that hour in the gym 6 days a week seems to do that to you.
NOT ONLY WAS THIS SHIT WORKING AS A STIMULANT.... IT WAS AFFECTING MY PERSONALITY. So i decided to do a stimulant fast..ie. no pre wo and no coffee. I wasn't new to stim fasting and had done it before with caffeine with great success and no negative effects other than missing the caffeine the first 2 or 3 days.
Part 2: LOSING MY FKN MIND: The onset of withdrawals... from subtle to EXTREME
So, the first couple weeks id say, i didnt notice anything other than the occasional urge to get that feeling from DMAA back. Nothing i couldnt will power through.
However, as the weeks went by i started noticing something very strange... especially when i was in social situations. My brain would start to fog up from 0 to 100 at random, i would start to zone out and my awareness of people/things around me would start to dip....
I didnt associate that with DMAA at first, i thought it was just me being tired or having a flu.
About a month after stopping... shit started to go downhill, REAL fast. I remember being at my summer job and out of the blue my brain would Fog up to a level that scared the shit out of me....
Imagine going about your day and then someone hits you on the back of your head with a shovel. I couldnt focus on anything. I would look at something without my brain consciously registering what i was looking at... i would walk to a certain part of the building @ work and then briefly forget why i was walking there. SCARY FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I remeber instances where my manager would ask me to do something and i would LITERALLY YELL. WTFFFFFFFFFFF. MY SELF-AWARENESS HAD FUCKING DISAPPEARED. I can recall my manager's face after I did this and it didn't dawn on me, the way I was behaving, until after leaving work. This state was the manifestation of HELL on earth and usually lasted an hour +.
I LEGIT THOUGHT I HAD A BRAIN TUMOR SHIT WAS SO BIZARRE AND SCARY.
Not only that but whenever this would happen, my anxiety would kick into hyperdrive and make it worse. total downwards spiral.
I panicked hard and did everything from taking multi-vits to supplements that assisted in dopamine, seratonin etc building/balancing. But they did jack shit to help. I felt like it was totally FUCKED. Its a scary feeling when you're conscious/ sensory functions are out of line with each other and the rest of the brain.
Shit kept on going like this for WEEKS, and the only way I could cope was to ingest high-glycemic carbs and some caffeine whenever it happened.
Eventually tho... those instances started to become less and less frequent... and i did everything in my power to keep the withdrawals at bay. I can honestly say it took about 6 months for me to go back to completely normal. NEVER TOUCHING THAT SHIT AGAIN.
Tldr; Dont abuse drugs, kids
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Part 1: Developing an addiction
~2yrs back when I was 16-17, I ordered some DMAA-enhanced prewo from this shady little supplement site. I say shady b/c DMAA had already been banned @this time, however, the supplements were genuine. I remember using APS mesomorph and some Hi-Tech pharma brand ones.
Soon as I took that first dose... GODDAYUM... a sense euphoria and focus so great that i can't even put it into words.
Every time I took that full 50mg worth of Dose, i felt like I was total kingshit and could conquer the entire world, let alone just my workouts. So being the addiction-prone person that I am, I was hooked.
I took it for months on end, every single workout, and sometimes even as a replacement for a cup of coffee in the morning.
MY ENTIRE PERSONALITY CHANGED.. EVEN OUTSIDE THE GYM.. I WAS CONFIDENT/ ARROGANT TO ROID RAGE TIER LEVELS. Thinking you're a god for that hour in the gym 6 days a week seems to do that to you.
NOT ONLY WAS THIS SHIT WORKING AS A STIMULANT.... IT WAS AFFECTING MY PERSONALITY. So i decided to do a stimulant fast..ie. no pre wo and no coffee. I wasn't new to stim fasting and had done it before with caffeine with great success and no negative effects other than missing the caffeine the first 2 or 3 days.
Part 2: LOSING MY FKN MIND: The onset of withdrawals... from subtle to EXTREME
So, the first couple weeks id say, i didnt notice anything other than the occasional urge to get that feeling from DMAA back. Nothing i couldnt will power through.
However, as the weeks went by i started noticing something very strange... especially when i was in social situations. My brain would start to fog up from 0 to 100 at random, i would start to zone out and my awareness of people/things around me would start to dip....
I didnt associate that with DMAA at first, i thought it was just me being tired or having a flu.
About a month after stopping... shit started to go downhill, REAL fast. I remember being at my summer job and out of the blue my brain would Fog up to a level that scared the shit out of me....
Imagine going about your day and then someone hits you on the back of your head with a shovel. I couldnt focus on anything. I would look at something without my brain consciously registering what i was looking at... i would walk to a certain part of the building @ work and then briefly forget why i was walking there. SCARY FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. I remeber instances where my manager would ask me to do something and i would LITERALLY YELL. WTFFFFFFFFFFF. MY SELF-AWARENESS HAD FUCKING DISAPPEARED. I can recall my manager's face after I did this and it didn't dawn on me, the way I was behaving, until after leaving work. This state was the manifestation of HELL on earth and usually lasted an hour +.
I LEGIT THOUGHT I HAD A BRAIN TUMOR SHIT WAS SO BIZARRE AND SCARY.
Not only that but whenever this would happen, my anxiety would kick into hyperdrive and make it worse. total downwards spiral.
I panicked hard and did everything from taking multi-vits to supplements that assisted in dopamine, seratonin etc building/balancing. But they did jack shit to help. I felt like it was totally FUCKED. Its a scary feeling when you're conscious/ sensory functions are out of line with each other and the rest of the brain.
Shit kept on going like this for WEEKS, and the only way I could cope was to ingest high-glycemic carbs and some caffeine whenever it happened.
Eventually tho... those instances started to become less and less frequent... and i did everything in my power to keep the withdrawals at bay. I can honestly say it took about 6 months for me to go back to completely normal. NEVER TOUCHING THAT SHIT AGAIN.
Tldr; Dont abuse drugs, kids
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