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arahani
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Is it normal that I feel paralyzed in my body, I feel like I'm too ugly and not enough of a person to own skin and organs and i want to rip off all my limbs one by one to respawn when I'm over it, a way to fully relieve myself.
I need to wait to get money and a job during summer > Pray for my credit card not to decline for some reason > Stress over the shipping (if my parents find out) > ONLY THEN pray to see improvement
Until this happens every second is torture, i want to stretch so hard i break into pieces and eat my own self to pass the time; Just go to sleep and wake up with everything set.
The result and idea itself isn't scary, it's the possibility of it never happening, that something goes wrong and that i did all that for nothing i just have to wait and pass the time until i get there.
I need to wait to get money and a job during summer > Pray for my credit card not to decline for some reason > Stress over the shipping (if my parents find out) > ONLY THEN pray to see improvement
Until this happens every second is torture, i want to stretch so hard i break into pieces and eat my own self to pass the time; Just go to sleep and wake up with everything set.
The result and idea itself isn't scary, it's the possibility of it never happening, that something goes wrong and that i did all that for nothing i just have to wait and pass the time until i get there.
