Saturday-Night. Living in the city-centre is hell.

[MoggerGaston]

I like to go on long depressive walks in the night.


And on saturday nights it is truly over. All clubs/bars are within walking distance of my home and it is crowded with attractive people.
People with friends, lovers.

Meanwhile I am completely alone. Always have been, always will be.

It's brutal.

 

[Foreverbrad]

I used to do the same, all that slutty teenage flesh on show that I would never get to touch. All those chads who don’t really mog me on looks but have pre selection halos it would take a lifetime to achieve.

I eventually took to carrying a knife and just walking in the park in the hope someone would give me the slightest excuse to start something. But it never happened.

 

[Always Stay You]

I prefer to cower inside on nights like that. I can't face what's out there, it's too painful and unobtainable.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I used to do the same, all that slutty teenage flesh on show that I would never get to touch. All those chads who don’t really mog me on looks but have pre selection halos it would take a lifetime to achieve.

I eventually took to carrying a knife and just walking in the park in the hope someone would give me the slightest excuse to start something. But it never happened.

Holy fuck I can relate to this vibe so much.

So many slutty hoes out there and you simply can't compete without privileges like social-circle, mixed-gender friendgroup, positive past experiences, etc. even if you mog them now.
I don't carry a knife yet but I often feel very agitated and if someone would mess with me I would unleash on them. So far it's only been drunk people making dumb annoying jokes, not enough to go ER on them.

 

[Deleted member 102239]

I used to do the same, all that slutty teenage flesh on show that I would never get to touch. All those chads who don’t really mog me on looks but have pre selection halos it would take a lifetime to achieve.

I eventually took to carrying a knife and just walking in the park in the hope someone would give me the slightest excuse to start something. But it never happened.

First half is so relatable. My only hope for sex is to hire people to claim to be my friends and fuck the girl before she realises something is seriously wrong.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I prefer to cower inside on nights like that. I can't face what's out there, it's too painful and unobtainable.

To be fair, I am drunk when I do this. I wouldn't be able to do it sober either. Fuck that shit.

 

[LongForgotten]

I love big cities, I love being surrounded by people

 

[Foreverbrad]

Holy fuck I can relate to this vibe so much.

So many slutty hoes out there and you simply can't compete without privileges like social-circle, mixed-gender friendgroup, positive past experiences, etc. even if you mog them now.
I don't carry a knife yet but I often feel very agitated and if someone would mess with me I would unleash on them. So far it's only been drunk people making dumb annoying jokes, not enough to go ER on them.

It’s either geomax or ER at this point, I think.

I will get my surgeries but I know deep down that in the end it won’t change anything because of all the privileges that the normies have by default. My age is the final nail in the coffin.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I love big cities, I love being surrounded by people

I used to be like this until ~14yo. I would go to school, then after-school play outside all afternoon/evening with kids from the neighborhood.
Couldn't compete anymore after that age.

 

[LongForgotten]

I used to be like this until ~14yo. I would go to school, then after-school play outside all afternoon/evening with kids from the neighborhood.
Couldn't compete anymore after that age.

I'm not even super extroverted, I just like the idea of the world and its connections being near me

 

[MoggerGaston]

It’s either geomax or ER at this point, I think.

I will get my surgeries but I know deep down that in the end it won’t change anything because of all the privileges that the normies have by default. My age is the final nail in the coffin.

its the same for me, I dont even see the point in surgeries anymore. like that 0.3PSL or whatever is gonna change my entire life around JFL.

I mean better looks are always welcome, but at this age, it just ain't gonna have the monumental impact anymore like it would have if u would've had these looks in ur youth.

Not sure what I can do anymore tbh. Therapy has proved largeld useless. I mean it's okay chill vibes there at the group-therapy but I dont see how they can help me change my life around.
Like the amount of obstacles to a good life once you are in this pit of despair is insane. You need insane gandy luck or something.

Like even when I dated the stacylite I kept feeling like an ugly subhuman, although I slowly felt my self-esteem increasing. Since every day you are fucking a stacylite, these events become new memories in your brain, slowly replacing old ones. But man it was so stressful dating here, I couldn't even enjoy it.
Worst is that it ended within a couple months, much too early for it have a strong impact on my life compared to the DECADES of negative experiences. It's so fucked.

And then afterwards I haven't gotten shit for years again and been truecel ever since

like what the fuck can I even do. Even when I win and get some stacylite, which was an insane combination of effort and luck, EVEN THEN I STILL DON'T WIN. I AM STILL FUCKED.

its so brutal man. holy fuck.

ive done drugs for the past 3 years but this also has not been the solution out of here which I needed.

 

[Whatever]

I did the same thing tonight, that was me in there once for a brief moment but now it’s so past and foreign to me that I don’t even have the “that was / could be me” thought. Completely resigned to this lonely role in this life.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I did the same thing tonight, that was me in there once for a brief moment but now it’s so past and foreign to me that I don’t even have the “that was / could be me” thought. Completely resigned to this lonely role in this life.

if I didn't live in a prime-location, I would be the same as you. 0 interest in going to these places except for raves when I am completely fucked on 3+ diff drugs.

'Just have your own place in a good location bro. You cant live at home bro.'

Chad lives at home and slays. Incel like me lives in prime-location and gets 0 play.

 

[edodalic29]

Id go if i had a circle to go with , i just cant go alone , maybe when my drugs arrive ill just go out alone main character type shit

 

[Foreverbrad]

its the same for me, I dont even see the point in surgeries anymore. like that 0.3PSL or whatever is gonna change my entire life around JFL.

I mean better looks are always welcome, but at this age, it just ain't gonna have the monumental impact anymore like it would have if u would've had these looks in ur youth.

Not sure what I can do anymore tbh. Therapy has proved largeld useless. I mean it's okay chill vibes there at the group-therapy but I dont see how they can help me change my life around.
Like the amount of obstacles to a good life once you are in this pit of despair is insane. You need insane gandy luck or something.

Like even when I dated the stacylite I kept feeling like an ugly subhuman, although I slowly felt my self-esteem increasing. Since every day you are fucking a stacylite, these events become new memories in your brain, slowly replacing old ones. But man it was so stressful dating here, I couldn't even enjoy it.
Worst is that it ended within a couple months, much too early for it have a strong impact on my life compared to the DECADES of negative experiences. It's so fucked.

And then afterwards I haven't gotten shit for years again and been truecel ever since

like what the fuck can I even do. Even when I win and get some stacylite, which was an insane combination of effort and luck, EVEN THEN I STILL DON'T WIN. I AM STILL FUCKED.

its so brutal man. holy fuck.

ive done drugs for the past 3 years but this also has not been the solution out of here which I needed.

I really think it’s time to consider moving countries, you are competing in one of the most difficult places in the world. I know it’s a hard decision but every day I’m becoming more convinced there’s no future here. Every guy is black pilled and gen alpha are going to be 6’10” HGH giga moggers.

What do you really want out of life at this point?

 

[MoggerGaston]

Id go if i had a circle to go with , i just cant go alone , maybe when my drugs arrive ill just go out alone main character type shit

its easier when you are completely delusional and hallucinating on drugs. But it still sucks compared to the social-experience you could have

 

[ivan.kuk]

I like to go on long depressive walks in the night.


And on saturday nights it is truly over. All clubs/bars are within walking distance of my home and it is crowded with attractive people.
People with friends, lovers.

Meanwhile I am completely alone. Always have been, always will be.

It's brutal.

i just approached a 19 yr old in a club

 

[MoggerGaston]

What do you really want out of life at this point?

What I feel is that I am still chasing the validation I never had. I want that social-circle and the social-experiences I never had:
Young social-circle. Drama, going to lots of parties, festivals, holidays. Lots of social-events, weddings, christmas-holidays, NYE-parties, summer-parties, pool-parties, sex, everything. I need to make up for what I never had.
Then I want that inexperienced young girlfriend and the relationship-experiences associated with that vibe. That and also experience the degen hookup culture a bit but as a winner instead of as a loser.

That's what I feel like I want/need. Yet it feels increasingly completely out of my reach, also due to agepill but also that even when I was younger this was completely impossible for me.

So then, if this is impossible, what can I do? What is the point of my life if I feel so completely unfullfilled socially/romantically?

Inb4 someone tells me to 'just get married and have kids bro' like that will not lead to a traumatized life with all these unfullfiled desires. That would be the literal worst thing I could ever do.

 

[lurking truecel]

It's incredible how somehow subhuman fags like us live almost the same life. Fucking brutal, or I mean it's probably that we have the social isolation and none nt in common. I for real don't know what to do. Its Truly dog poop and it's so sad to be see what could have been, that's the worst part i guess for everyone here. Could have been hella great but it didn't and never will

 

[VV62]

I have this path near my home where not a single soul walks there at night, but it's quite nice, and I go on a run or walk there but tell my parents I'm meeting my friends.

 

[lurking truecel]

I saw a corny insta real on this too. I will share it here:

 

[MoggerGaston]

It's incredible how somehow subhuman fags like us live almost the same life. Fucking brutal, or I mean it's probably that we have the social isolation and none nt in common.

That and the fact I was extremely ugly in my youth shaping most of my social-experiences. I didn't become decent-looking untill I was ~23yo. ended up as 23yo KHHV. Ascending at this age so far has done nothing for my state of mind, my personality.

I am the same abused ugly truecel dog, just with better looks where you wouldn't expect me to be a truecel dog anymore if you didn't know my past.
It's sad shit.

I for real don't know what to do. Its Truly dog poop and it's so sad to be see what could have been, that's the worst part i guess for everyone here. Could have been hella great but it didn't and never will

 

[VV62]

It’s either geomax or ER at this point, I think.

I will get my surgeries but I know deep down that in the end it won’t change anything because of all the privileges that the normies have by default. My age is the final nail in the coffin.

I don't even think the biggest problem with most people here is looks rather it is that we are not NT

 

[MoggerGaston]

I saw a corny insta real on this too. I will share it here:

 

[Foreverbrad]

What I feel is that I am still chasing the validation I never had. I want that social-circle and the social-experiences I never had:
Young social-circle. Drama, going to lots of parties, festivals, holidays. Lots of social-events, weddings, christmas-holidays, NYE-parties, summer-parties, pool-parties, sex, everything. I need to make up for what I never had.
Then I want that inexperienced young girlfriend and the relationship-experiences associated with that vibe. That and also experience the degen hookup culture a bit but as a winner instead of as a loser.

That's what I feel like I want/need. Yet it feels increasingly completely out of my reach, also due to agepill but also that even when I was younger this was completely impossible for me.

So then, if this is impossible, what can I do? What is the point of my life if I feel so completely unfullfilled socially/romantically?

Inb4 someone tells me to 'just get married and have kids bro' like that will not lead to a traumatized life with all these unfullfiled desires. That would be the literal worst thing I could ever do.

This is very relatable.
I already had a vasectomy so I closed that cope door forever. I’d recommend it to put those doubts at peace.

The only way we can ever have these experiences is:
1. Look young enough to fit in
2. Move somewhere nobody can know you or call you out
3. Somehow appear neurotypical

I think geomaxxing may solve all these problems:
1. They can’t judge Caucasian age well
2. Obvious reasons
3. The language barrier is actually a blessing in disguise

Asians may be an acquired taste but South America girls are objectively hot and they’re all valid geomax destinations.

 

[MoggerGaston]

This is very relatable.
I already had a vasectomy so I closed that cope door forever. I’d recommend it to put those doubts at peace.

The only way we can ever have these experiences is:
1. Look young enough to fit in
2. Move somewhere nobody can know you or call you out
3. Somehow appear neurotypical

Hmm yeah I maybe didn't make myself clear in this. But I got these experiences, like during the time I was part of a rowing-frat and dating the stacylite. That was years ago. But I was in that moment and having the experiences I desired, yet I wasn't actually in the moment living it emotionally. And still struggling to fit in, at least in terms of feelings.

My nervous system couldn't cope with what was going on as it was so completely alien, different from anything I have ever experienced.

Me? the subhuman bullied truecel for 23 years, finally being accepted, being liked?
You would expect fireworks to go off, but instead my body/brain largely tended to go into an anxious state where I had difficulty accepting my situation but trying to tell myself consciously it was good (it didnt feel good).

I could get something again, but then my struggle is that I likely still wouldn't feel good anyways. So what is the point.
And this is driving me to suicide. Because I could achieve these things I want, yet I feel like it won't matter anyways.


My mind, my mind, my feelings, my emotions, these are all my biggest 'enemies' now. From the past trauma. I can't get over it.

 

[Foreverbrad]

Hmm yeah I maybe didn't make myself clear in this. But I got these experiences, like during the time I was part of a rowing-frat and dating the stacylite. That was years ago. But I was in that moment and having the experiences I desired, yet I wasn't actually in the moment living it emotionally. And still struggling to fit in, at least in terms of feelings.

My nervous system couldn't cope with what was going on as it was so completely alien, different from anything I have ever experienced.

Me? the subhuman bullied truecel for 23 years, finally being accepted, being liked?
You would expect fireworks to go off, but instead my body/brain largely tended to go into an anxious state where I had difficulty accepting my situation but trying to tell myself consciously it was good (it didnt feel good).

I could get something again, but then my struggle is that I likely still wouldn't feel good anyways. So what is the point.
And this is driving me to suicide. Because I could achieve these things I want, yet I feel like it won't matter anyways.


My mind, my mind, my feelings, my emotions, these are all my biggest 'enemies' now. From the past trauma. I can't get over it.

This is most likely my future if I even manage to ascend at all.
Once an abused dog, always an abused dog.

 

[moreroidsmoredates]

Hmm yeah I maybe didn't make myself clear in this. But I got these experiences, like during the time I was part of a rowing-frat and dating the stacylite. That was years ago. But I was in that moment and having the experiences I desired, yet I wasn't actually in the moment living it emotionally. And still struggling to fit in, at least in terms of feelings.

My nervous system couldn't cope with what was going on as it was so completely alien, different from anything I have ever experienced.

Me? the subhuman bullied truecel for 23 years, finally being accepted, being liked?
You would expect fireworks to go off, but instead my body/brain largely tended to go into an anxious state where I had difficulty accepting my situation but trying to tell myself consciously it was good (it didnt feel good).

I could get something again, but then my struggle is that I likely still wouldn't feel good anyways. So what is the point.
And this is driving me to suicide. Because I could achieve these things I want, yet I feel like it won't matter anyways.


My mind, my mind, my feelings, my emotions, these are all my biggest 'enemies' now. From the past trauma. I can't get over it.

This is most likely my future if I even manage to ascend at all.
Once an abused dog, always an abused dog.

Yeah same.
I cope with being an abused dog by smoking weed every night alone in my room.
I feel depressed, lonely and sad.

I always tell myself to get out of this shithole, but i lie to myself and break my promises by smoking again.

Constantly getting flashbacks to when I was a obese fat child and how people treated me. I look ‘better’ and ‘different’ now, but it all feels weird and fake or something. I still sometimes feel like that guy from the past.

Experienced how people could be against you makes you never view them the same again.

 

[MoggerGaston]

This is most likely my future if I even manage to ascend at all.
Once an abused dog, always an abused dog.

Every time I came home from having met up with my ex, I felt relief. 'Survived another date and she still seems to like me.'

cagefuel tbh. how can I ever win if my reward is more stress and anxiety. just pushing through and forcing you go to on, never feeling good.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yeah same.
I cope with being an abused dog by smoking weed every night alone in my room.
I feel depressed, lonely and sad.

I always tell myself to get out of this shithole, but i lie to myself and break my promises by smoking again.

Constantly getting flashbacks to when I was a obese fat child and how people treated me. I look ‘better’ and ‘different’ now, but it all feels weird and fake or something. I still sometimes feel like that guy from the past.

Experienced how people could be against you makes you never view them the same again.

Yeah it's the same here. I have constant flashbacks too from my childhood years where I was bullied and rejected.

 

[got.daim]

i like walks at night.. especially in the middle of the night (1am-3am) because usually no one is outside, so no one can see my ugly face..

 

[flippasav]

Tryna slay there is a big no

 

[MoggerGaston]

i like walks at night.. especially in the middle of the night (1am-3am) because usually no one is outside, so no one can see my ugly face..

Incel Competition. Lifefuel GTFIH we can win.

Finally something we can be the best in, Gurning: @geezcel @forevergymcelling Does winning this get you hot chicks in the UK?

looksmax.org

lets be ugly at this competition and win

 

[got.daim]

Incel Competition. Lifefuel GTFIH we can win.

Finally something we can be the best in, Gurning: @geezcel @forevergymcelling Does winning this get you hot chicks in the UK?

looksmax.org

lets be ugly at this competition and win

where is it located.. and is there a cash prize?