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MoggerGaston
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Saw HTB I matched years ago in grocery store just now.
I saw her and stared at her as I realized who she was (a girl I matched and exchanged a couple of messages with on a dating app). She noticed me and stared back at me, our eyes met.
My most common reaction in the past, the moment eyes meet, is to look away, yet this time I choose to keep looking at her. She looked at me intensely for 1 second, I think she recognized me, and then looked away before I did. Didn't have to look away.
JFL honestly, what a fucking brutal realization for me.
It was this girl, charlotte:
She looks like an angel on her instagram pics, but IRL in regular clothing, no photo-frauding, no insta-filters, no extensive make-up, she simply looked HTB.
She was insanely good-looking still, I would fall in love with her easily. But she was nothing special tbh, as in, you always see these good-looking women when you go out who don't give a single fuck about you. You learn to ignore good-looking women since they don't care about you anyways.
Just too brutal. Because 3 years ago I was talking to her intensely when we matched, vibing hard, had similar humor, yet it never got to a date. Probably mostly due to my insecurity of believing I am a subhuman worthless piece of shit, something I still believe in.
I can fraud chad-personality on apps easily, but then believe that if she got to know me IRL she would reject me.
Right now I can't even imagine vibing with a girl like her, my mental state has clearly deteriorated instead of improved, yet it was never any good.
What the fuck can I do?!
Knowing that this HTB was interested in me at some point, yet I couldn't close it even when I was in a better mental state than I am now, is just too confrontational.
At least I have drugs now? I know I can fraud a personality using mephedrone.
jfl tbh fuck this hsit
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