schizophrenia is killing me

[Bojack]

I am feeling shit spitting, shitting, smashing on me. I see images and crazy shit all day. It's over for me; I have spiraled to the bottom.

 

[height]

Get good meds

 

[Bojack]

Get good meds

i be taking those meds, but it makes me gain lots of weight. It will destroy my boxing/mma career

 

[height]

i be taking those meds, but it makes me gain lots of weight. It will destroy my boxing/mma career

u wont have a mma career be more realistic man

 

[Bojack]

u wont have a mma career be more realistic man

you incel; i will ascend

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

I was in an episode of psychosis for 5-6 years that I have somewhat overcome. I can confirm that we are genetic shit. Not meant to survive. Not meant to be here.

Thankfully I am better now. Basically 0 auditory hallucinations. Worst I get is a bit of paranoia from time to time. I did it without meds.

 

[AscensionMan98]

I am feeling shit spitting, shitting, smashing on me. I see images and crazy shit all day. It's over for me; I have spiraled to the bottom.

yo, I remember u from lookksm net. Pretty sure you had over 10k posts their . How you been

 

[Bojack]

I was in an episode of psychosis for 5-6 years that I have somewhat overcome. I can confirm that we are genetic shit. Not meant to survive. Not meant to be here.

Thankfully I am better now. Basically 0 auditory hallucinations. Worst I get is a bit of paranoia from time to time. I did it without meds.

imagine being incel, then being hit by schizophrenia. It's not even fair.

 

[Bojack]

yo, I remember u from lookksm net. Pretty sure you had over 10k posts their . How you been

I've been alright I guess. Still trying to ascend.

 

[Deleted member 20422]

Take ze meds! I wont allow you to enter higher planes of existence before carnal death! You understand goym? Take ze meds or else my archontic allies vill taunt you so you wont ascend to higher form oy vey!

 

[Bojack]

Take ze meds! I wont allow you to enter higher planes of existence before carnal death! You understand goym? Take ze meds or else my archontic allies vill taunt you so you wont ascend to higher form oy vey!

i have been taking th em

 

[Deleted member 20422]

i have been taking th em

Good goy!

 

[Bojack]

Good goy!

cage; i never took one pill u dog

 

[Deleted member 20422]

cage; i never took one pill u dog

but you vill!

 

[Bojack]

but you vill!

i will never take a pill u incel

 

[Deleted member 20422]

i will never take a pill u incel

Your calling me an incel goyim? I can at any moment call any of your aryan relative to sexually satisfy me and everyone vill deem you a fascist for not letting her go to ze papa Schwab oy vey!

 

[Deleted member 22780]

Just be nt bro

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

imagine being incel, then being hit by schizophrenia. It's not even fair.

I theorise my episode was brought on by a combination of the following:

1) A genetic predisposition. Higher paternal age = higher mutational load = higher risk of schizophrenia. My maternal side also has a history of mental health problems (not schizophrenia)

2) I have a theory that ontological insecurity may have resulted in the episode of psychosis. During my teenage years, I was brutalised by foids. They treated me like garbage... and called me so many dehumanising names: "ugly", "ewww", "yuck", "butterz", "clapt", "shrek", "ogre", "llama", pulling disgusted faces, faux flirting etc. etc. so much I cant even remember it all. The worst part is it wasn't coming from a single source. It was from all of them. 50% of the population had a vendetta against me for simply existing. I used to get so paranoid that they were talking about it... and it got to the point where I started hallucinating what ppl were saying about me.

It's brutal beyond belief. I experienced a fracturing of self due to the perception that I knew others had of me. I was ultimately too mentally weak and it led to a psychotic break.

All of my problems seem to have a common denominator though... women.

Who brought me into this world? A woman. My mother has also said numerous times that I'm an accident.
Who is responsible for my genetic predisposition? Mostly my mother
Who created the trauma that led to my psychotic break? Girls did

Now imagine if I was good-looking. I would have got the positive reinforcement and feedback loops that would have not made me lose my mind. The predisposition would have remained just that... a predisposition.

One thing is for sure though, no one understands what true mental suffering is until they have lost their mind.

 

[Bojack]

Just be nt bro

legit just be a nt god

 

[Bojack]

I theorise my episode was brought on by a combination of the following:

1) A genetic predisposition. Higher paternal age = higher mutational load = higher risk of schizophrenia. My maternal side also has a history of mental health problems (not schizophrenia)

2) I have a theory that ontological insecurity may have resulted in the episode of psychosis. During my teenage years, I was brutalised by foids. They treated me like garbage... and called me so many dehumanising names: "ugly", "ewww", "yuck", "butterz", "clapt", "shrek", "ogre", "llama", pulling disgusted faces, faux flirting etc. etc. so much I cant even remember it all. The worst part is it wasn't coming from a single source. It was from all of them. 50% of the population had a vendetta against me for simply existing. I used to get so paranoid that they were talking about it... and it got to the point where I started hallucinating what ppl were saying about me.

It's brutal beyond belief. I experienced a fracturing of self due to the perception that I knew others had of me. I was ultimately too mentally weak and it led to a psychotic break.

All of my problems seem to have a common denominator though... women.

Who brought me into this world? A woman. My mother has also said numerous times that I'm an accident.
Who is responsible for my genetic predisposition? Mostly my mother
Who created the trauma that led to my psychotic break? Girls did

Now imagine if I was good-looking. I would have got the positive reinforcement and feedback loops that would have not made me lose my mind. The predisposition would have remained just that... a predisposition.

One thing is for sure though, no one understands what true mental suffering is until they have lost their mind.

legit i got traumatized too by nursing school, and was given schizophrenia.

 

[Deleted member 22099]

you incel; i will ascend

Bro a schizophrenic aspiring MMA fighter being advised which meds to take by a 6'5 schizophrenic living in a psych ward wtf is this site JFL

 

[GuyFromSingapore]

i be taking those meds, but it makes me gain lots of weight. It will destroy my boxing/mma career

Stay away from Clozapine and Olanzapine they will make you fat

The only solution to Schizophrenia is no thoughts meditation.

I was hallucinating like crazy seeing all sorts of visuals and colours. I meditated for a few days and it went away.

Also do tough Maths. Thinking logically makes delusional thoughts go away.

 

[Bojack]

Stay away from Clozapine and Olanzapine they will make you fat

The only solution to Schizophrenia is no thoughts meditation.

I was hallucinating like crazy seeing all sorts of visuals and colours. I meditated for a few days and it went away.

Also do tough Maths. Thinking logically makes delusional thoughts go away.

yea i'm trying to use meditation videos to fix this nonsensical shit

 

[GuyFromSingapore]

yea i'm trying to use meditation videos to fix this nonsensical shit

Do emptiness meditation/no thoughts.

 

[n0rthface]

Schizophrenia isn’t real, the archangels are trying to contact you,

 

[Deleted member 16369]

Do something to distract yourself

 

[Bojack]

Schizophrenia isn’t real, the archangels are trying to contact you,

yeh god was with me for a long time.

 

[Bojack]

Do something to distract you

yuh yuh

 

[Deleted member 20652]

I was in an episode of psychosis for 5-6 years that I have somewhat overcome. I can confirm that we are genetic shit. Not meant to survive. Not meant to be here.

Thankfully I am better now. Basically 0 auditory hallucinations. Worst I get is a bit of paranoia from time to time. I did it without meds.

Natural or was it induced by any drugs?

 

[Deleted member 22930]

Do emptiness meditation/no thoughts.

I am been trying the CIA hemi-sync medidation to sync the left and right hemispheres of my brain

 

[Don Alejo Garza]

I theorise my episode was brought on by a combination of the following:

1) A genetic predisposition. Higher paternal age = higher mutational load = higher risk of schizophrenia. My maternal side also has a history of mental health problems (not schizophrenia)

2) I have a theory that ontological insecurity may have resulted in the episode of psychosis. During my teenage years, I was brutalised by foids. They treated me like garbage... and called me so many dehumanising names: "ugly", "ewww", "yuck", "butterz", "clapt", "shrek", "ogre", "llama", pulling disgusted faces, faux flirting etc. etc. so much I cant even remember it all. The worst part is it wasn't coming from a single source. It was from all of them. 50% of the population had a vendetta against me for simply existing. I used to get so paranoid that they were talking about it... and it got to the point where I started hallucinating what ppl were saying about me.

It's brutal beyond belief. I experienced a fracturing of self due to the perception that I knew others had of me. I was ultimately too mentally weak and it led to a psychotic break.

All of my problems seem to have a common denominator though... women.

Who brought me into this world? A woman. My mother has also said numerous times that I'm an accident.
Who is responsible for my genetic predisposition? Mostly my mother
Who created the trauma that led to my psychotic break? Girls did

Now imagine if I was good-looking. I would have got the positive reinforcement and feedback loops that would have not made me lose my mind. The predisposition would have remained just that... a predisposition.

One thing is for sure though, no one understands what true mental suffering is until they have lost their mind.

I had mental stability until I got blackpilled back in 2019.
Now lacking a belief in god has wrecked my mind. I used to think everything was fair in this world thanks to karma.
Nowadays I think of suicide at least once a day and can't find motivation to do the most basic tasks.

 

[Adonis]

imagine being incel, then being hit by schizophrenia. It's not even fair.

Meanwhile some niggas be born with good genes and NT there whole life

 

[Bojack]

Fk all these hoe nigguz

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

Natural or was it induced by any drugs?

Natural. I never took alcohol or any drugs until around 20. The peak of my episode was 19.

Since then, I have taken drugs and it made 0 difference to my mental health. Didn't improve it or make it worse. That being said, I will probably never take a hardcore psychedelic like DMT in case it triggers another episode.