School makes me go even more insane

[iwannabebreathtakin]

Just sitting in this building makes me wanna start screaming around and throwing stuff. I rlly have to hold myself back from doing that. Idk how to cope with this state. It jst makes my intense mood swings worse and overall ruins everything

 

[twinkceluwu]

Just sitting in this building makes me wanna start screaming around and throwing stuff. I rlly have to hold myself back from doing that. Idk how to cope with this state. It jst makes my intense mood swings worse and overall ruins everything

why do you feel like that?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

why do you feel like that?

Idk maybe my mental issues or maybe Im jst overall not made to function in this society

 

[twinkceluwu]

Idk maybe my mental issues or maybe Im jst overall not made to function in this society

whats bothering you?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

whats bothering you?

My existence and this system I dont think I was meant to sit all day and become some type of robot that learns everything by hand

 

[twinkceluwu]

My existence and this system I dont think I was meant to sit all day and become some type of robot that learns everything by hand

what else would you want to be?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

what else would you want to be?

Dead or a tree or some body of water

 

[twinkceluwu]

Dead or a tree or some body of water

why?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

why?

Idk I wouldnt have all these emotions and weird states and all this pain simply by existing. I’d feel beautiful and useful and I wouldnt need to worry abt anything

 

[twinkceluwu]

Idk I wouldnt have all these emotions and weird states and all this pain simply by existing. I’d feel beautiful and useful and I wouldnt need to worry abt anything

thats worse than what u previously said.

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

thats worse than what u previously said.

Why

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

thats worse than what u previously said.

What was all this questioning for

 

[twinkceluwu]

What was all this questioning for

to help u

 

[Entschuldigung]

LoL imagine when you go to uni
It only gets worse

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

LoL imagine when you go to uni
It only gets worse

Lets not think that far u rlly think I would even make it

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

to help u

Suddenly my brain changed and I enjoy being alive

 

[twinkceluwu]

Suddenly my brain changed and I enjoy being alive

lol. if u need to vent just tell me anytime

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

lol. if u need to vent just tell me anytime

it wont solve anything it wont make me stop feeling like that and I still wont be understood

 

[twinkceluwu]

it wont solve anything it wont make me stop feeling like that and I still wont be understood

thats fine. as long as u are here to complain and u dont rope

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

thats fine. as long as u are here to complain and u dont rope

30 pills didnt kill me might aswell give up on that too

 

[twinkceluwu]

30 pills didnt kill me might aswell give up on that too

dont do that to yourself.

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

do it

I wish I could but I dont have any good stuff for it

 

[twinkceluwu]

I wish I could but I dont have any good stuff for it

do you have friends?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

do you have friends?

Yea ig although Its still not the kinda friendship i actually Want

 

[twinkceluwu]

Yea ig although Its still not the kinda friendship i actually Want

what do you want?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

what do you want?

nothing thats actually possible

 

[twinkceluwu]

nothing thats actually possible

why impossible?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

why impossible?

Bc I Want to be someoens first choice and main friend/person with an actual real connection and no other ppl to matter to them idk Its insane and sick and unhealthy

 

[twinkceluwu]

Bc I Want to be someoens first choice and main friend/person with an actual real connection and no other ppl to matter to them idk Its insane and sick and unhealthy

its not insane nor sick or unhealthy.

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

its not insane nor sick or unhealthy.

it actually is bc ppl have their own lives and problems and should be able to be friends with other ppl

 

[twinkceluwu]

it actually is bc ppl have their own lives and problems and should be able to be friends with other ppl

someone has the exact same thought as you somewhere

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

someone has the exact same thought as you somewhere

No

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

Maybe someone in the psych ward ig

 

[twinkceluwu]

No

why do you think that?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

why do you think that?

I mean Its possible but it may be a person from a psych ward very possibly

 

[twinkceluwu]

I mean Its possible but it may be a person from a psych ward very possibly

theres someone for everyone

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

theres someone for everyone

Thats not my goal and worry tbh I cant even have real friends and a reason to stay alive I wish I had the luxury to worry abt love or smth like that but I dont and I couldnt care less

 

[twinkceluwu]

Thats not my goal and worry tbh I cant even have real friends and a reason to stay alive I wish I had the luxury to worry abt love or smth like that but I dont and I couldnt care less

what do you care about?

 

[iwannabebreathtakin]

nothing and a lot at the same time