see ya in heaven

[shin]

recently life started getting somewhat interesting. but ive still got that screaming void inside of me. i've got plenty of buds, few friends, everyone appreciates my beauty and compliments it. but why do i not believe any of it? why do i think that im a fucking loser without a single meaning in his life? why am i constantly thinking bout my flaws not only the physical once but the spiritual aswell. whys everyone seems to be better than me. its not only bp fault but the way i was grown, the way my relatives were treating me, all the girls that denied me after all ive done for them. now everyone wants me, everyone likes me, but why this world is so cruel? ive a gf but i do not love her. cuz few years ago she was treating me like a shit and i couldnt stood up for myself cuz i wasnt loved properly by my parents in my childhood and i thought that if id lose her than i couldnt live without her. we continued to be a couple for a 1.5 year straight and we are still. she disgusts me. but i cant break up with her and i dont even know why. i liked a girl recently, but i cant even chat with her cuz of all this bs. she has a friend thats simping over me and ruining everything. like for real this girl is so interesting yet i cant do anything. it hurts, deeply hurts. i was posting a thread bout her but things has turned out weirdly. we are chatting now. everyday for a 20 days straight. not in the real life unfortunately. however we were hanging out togeher in the past 2 days. it was so good, shes just so sweet , shes like an angel. she does complimenting me alot, she said that im better than the other guy that she liked a bit and i was insecured bout him due to his looks and the fact that she liked him. although i probably was just blinded by this bs. hes not that beautiful as i mentioned in one of my previous threads. but idk probably shes just seeing me as a friend and i will ruin everything just as usual. yea its driving me crazy thats shes saying to me that im very beautiful at the most random moment and we were hugging each other so romanticly. things r just way too complicated rn, im tired of it all guys, im tired

 

[FaceandBBC]

 

[Aox Ofwar]

Hi

 

[Basedman420]

You don't have to force yourself to do something that you don't want. Just live, your current gf is just trash you have to break up with her she doesn't like you she likes the way you look she's so disgusting imo, you can try with the new girl but first you have to make sure that you really love her, don't hurt yourself more and more, love can't be forced also.

 

[fashioncel]

Finally another faggot dead, I didn't even read a fucking word of This faggot thread.