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i remember about a little over year ago, i had a lot of piercings, a feminine face i guess you can say, chubby cheeks, very slim body, dyed hair
think of a liberal pretty much, cuz i looked like one.
i pulled somehow, and not ugly girls, pretty girls. that was also around the time i started dating my htb girlfriend too, i feel bad for her, she witnessed everything, she witnessed me destroy myself because of the blackpill.
keep in mind i’ve been blackpilled for a good 3 years now, but it started hitting me even harder in 2022, and i started taking action in 2022. but then i went hardcore in the end of 2023
i had been told constantly online (not on this forum.) that i had to be more masculine, i looked girly, i looked like a bitch, etc. i started to take action but i went on a sort of psychosis about it if that’s the right way to word it, i was delusional about my own looks where i didn’t even see if a certain thing fit me, i just wanted to look more like a man, i started to grow out my eyebrows thick but it didn’t even fit me, i was on multiple random supplements and 2 drugs that i didn’t even know what they did i’d just take the pills and thought it was okay, i started trying to get hollow cheeks by constantly starving myself, i would do something where i’d bulk a lot for a week and then starve the next week and i kept doing this on and off to gain a bit of muscle but lose a lot of fat ( i was also losing muscle anyway.), i had shaved my head (never looked good on me either.), i started unironically bonesmashing where now i actually have perminant scars on my face, etc
i was attempting to ascend in the most unnatural way possible, and my girlfriend witnessed everything, and she still stayed with me, i looked hideous for so long, i’d look good for a bit then look hideous for months, then when i finally looked good again i’d ruin myself again, and i look terrible right now aswell, im currently recovering from all this and ima take it down a notch. i’m growing my eyebrows to their original shape now, growing out my hair, doing skin care, basic softmaxxes. it’s gonna take a while to regrow my eyebrows (yes i shaved them out of pure rage against myself), and it’s gonna take a while to grow out my hair aswell.
the message i’m attempting to get across along with this vent is, never take it too serious, you’ll go insane. it’ll NEVER be enough remember that, just know when to stop.
think of a liberal pretty much, cuz i looked like one.
i pulled somehow, and not ugly girls, pretty girls. that was also around the time i started dating my htb girlfriend too, i feel bad for her, she witnessed everything, she witnessed me destroy myself because of the blackpill.
keep in mind i’ve been blackpilled for a good 3 years now, but it started hitting me even harder in 2022, and i started taking action in 2022. but then i went hardcore in the end of 2023
i had been told constantly online (not on this forum.) that i had to be more masculine, i looked girly, i looked like a bitch, etc. i started to take action but i went on a sort of psychosis about it if that’s the right way to word it, i was delusional about my own looks where i didn’t even see if a certain thing fit me, i just wanted to look more like a man, i started to grow out my eyebrows thick but it didn’t even fit me, i was on multiple random supplements and 2 drugs that i didn’t even know what they did i’d just take the pills and thought it was okay, i started trying to get hollow cheeks by constantly starving myself, i would do something where i’d bulk a lot for a week and then starve the next week and i kept doing this on and off to gain a bit of muscle but lose a lot of fat ( i was also losing muscle anyway.), i had shaved my head (never looked good on me either.), i started unironically bonesmashing where now i actually have perminant scars on my face, etc
i was attempting to ascend in the most unnatural way possible, and my girlfriend witnessed everything, and she still stayed with me, i looked hideous for so long, i’d look good for a bit then look hideous for months, then when i finally looked good again i’d ruin myself again, and i look terrible right now aswell, im currently recovering from all this and ima take it down a notch. i’m growing my eyebrows to their original shape now, growing out my hair, doing skin care, basic softmaxxes. it’s gonna take a while to regrow my eyebrows (yes i shaved them out of pure rage against myself), and it’s gonna take a while to grow out my hair aswell.
the message i’m attempting to get across along with this vent is, never take it too serious, you’ll go insane. it’ll NEVER be enough remember that, just know when to stop.
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